Personal reflections

YPang

United States4024 Posts

January 05 2012 22:59 GMT

~~~This is just a personal reflection blog of my thoughts written down, not very organized either lol~~~

So during this break i really haven't been doing much. Got back from college, and trying to meet up with a few high school friends has been hard.

I never really knew many people in high school, and for the few friends that i was able to get a contact with, we just had a dinner "man-date"1 on 1 sorta thing lol, + Show Spoiler +

I really prefer 1 on 1 interactions, more than group interactions, make me feel like i can connect to people better that way, so i dont mind it, no homo

For the rest of my time, I've been on a solid lifting schedule, and running schedule. Going to run a full marathon on April 15th, hosted by Go St. Louis.

Later at night after dinner, I've been spending a lot of time reading self-improvement/motivation books, and to my surprise, it had widened my perspective by a LOT.

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There's a story of of a boy who walked in a forest and stumbled upon a man sawing a large tree. The man was very sweaty, and was using tremedous force/time to try and saw the tree down. The boy noticed that the man's saw was getting dull and said.
"Sir, don't you think you should sharpen your saw?"
"Son, I dont have time to sharpen my saw, too busy sawing the tree."
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So according to the story above, I'm mainly using this winter vacation to sharpening my saw, so when I go back to school, I can be much more productive with my time. I think its a good investment.

What got me started on this self-improvement journey, is actually another story all by itself. I was crushing on a girl hard, and i realized that the amount of time i spend thinking about her could be channeled into something much more productive, and the entire process of thinking about her was a waste of time. After realizing this, i feel like i've took the first step in becoming more mature.

Anyways,

Some books I recommend

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Out of all the books I've read here, the one that stood out the most has definitely be Mind OS, by Dr. Paul, which shows a visual representation of our mind in relation to the computer's operating system.

I'd love to go into detail about it but a one gold gems that I've found from it is his definition of "suffering" psychological suffering to be more exact.

In his book he states, Suffering is wanting to control the uncontrollable.

We humans only have 100% control of ourselves, and 0% control of our environment. Each person has a unique personal boundary that contains his/her limitations and beliefs. However, each person also have hole in their personal boundaries, which can also be known as personal flaws. As a result of these personal flaws, we see out of them, and think we can control the future or the past.

His philosophy was to always live in the present, and whenever we dwell or think about the past or fantasize about the future, we are suffering, because we have 0% control of it.

okay... so after typing that paragraph, i realized that it might not be all clear, and it might not make sense, but i highly recommend it for anyone that's interested please PM me.

Besides the philosophical knowledge i have gained from this winter vacation, I've also begun to get off my lazy Tetris battling ass, and started looking into my career, looking for more opportunities to get involved. Never in my life have i ever thought of volunteering at a hospital JUST for experience, and not for resume benefits (although that does look nice as well on a resume).

Thank you for reading, hope your new year resolutions is successful, just like mine is going to be