I should probably begin talking about my status in this consumer world, however i feel like there is a more important thing to say, that is, what makes me write this piece and why is it what it is (huh? ;d). Anyway, i have been diagnosed with this psychical illness, called bipolar disorder. And schizotypal personality disorder. And social phobia. So as you can already tell i am pretty messed up :D
So since that is already out of the way and you can pardon my writing style (lol), i can tell you something about myself that someone will actually care. I am a 20 year old univercity student in Lithuania, i am studying software engineering and i am pretty good at it. I started programming in c++ since 5th grade (of 12) by myself (i was always into reading encyclopedias and manuals when i was a kid) and now i am having a really easy time at univercity.
That leads to games. Games were always my passion, board games, card games, miniature games and most of all, computer games. For last 4 (miserable) years i was playing WoW, i was into it, i achieved a lot, however it was freaking boring most of the time. I picked up Starcraft 2 just the day it was released and i loved it, i finally got into a game, where solo competition was the thing.
Now about my SC2 career: i started off by finishing the campaign and jumping into practice league i picked terran (because i love the UI, the buildings, the units, the voice and the music :D ), i played all 50 games of it, feeling the progress. I played my practice matches 4-1 and was placed into gold league, i got promoted to plat shortly thereafter and crawled my way up to diamond.
But that was many months ago. Suffice to say that i played kind of hardcore (if i start doing anything, i push it to the limit and a bit more), without any friends, just my really supportive mother to celebrate victories with. So i grew tired, i started to see less progress and i was afraid of playing another game. It is kind of hard to believe that i played 450 games and suddenly i couldn't play at all, because of how scary it all got. So i came back to WoW and wasted a few more months there.
I love Starcraft 2. I crave to play it. But i am so afraid, because i am already in diamond and should prepare for every matchup beforehand, however so much time has passed that it is really hard to come back.
So much bragging and QQing for this time. Feel free to email me at demord@gmail.com if you find some of this familiar or for any reason want to chat with me. And if you did read it all without dieing of boredom, i am flattered