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Profile Blog Joined August 2009
Japan52 Posts
September 11 2009 00:11 GMT
#1
As the title says, a friend that I knew online committed suicide a few months ago. I only found out recently. I am somewhat devastated. However, at the same time, I do not know how to respond. How I found out about his death is quite simple. I had two screennames and he basically liked one of them, and as a result, I gave it to him. Like myself, he was always on all the time. Because I have been very busy with my life and school, I did not notice his inactivity on AIM or MSN. I decide to log in AIM and see a message saying "Cody...?" (which was his name) and I say "No."

I then proceed to find out that he committed suicide. He had fallen off his uncle's apartment's roof or something of the sort. This is confirmed because I searched his name and remember where he lived.

I don't really consider online friends "friends," but this guy was an exception. I met him on a Battle.Net UMS clan. This was when he was in 8th grade and I was in 7th grade. He told me a lot about himself: He was poor and his stepfather always abused his mother. He then moved to boarding school, got great grades and went on to Carnegie Mellon.

He quit Starcraft, but we would always talk. He was INCREDIBLY intelligent. I always got a lot of good homework advice and help. We shared similar interests - anime and games. Really, he was just an awesome person to talk to.

I never knew what he looked like, but I am incredibly sad. He did not seem depressed and his future seemed really bright. I even talked to some of his friends (on my secondary screenname) and they had no clue as well. Rest in Peace Cody.

Has this kind of experience (death of online friend) ever happened to anybody?

*****
Skyze
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
Canada2324 Posts
September 11 2009 00:14 GMT
#2
it happens. there was a player I used to game with often in a war3 team, I forget his name but he was a gosu orc 2v2 part (always top 10 ladder) and apparently he got killed in a car crash. not fun.

Canada Gaming ~~ The-Feared
LeperKahn
Profile Blog Joined April 2008
Romania1839 Posts
September 11 2009 00:21 GMT
#3
A person I used to play WoW with disappeared on day. He was a really cool guy, but I never knew what happened to him. We used to talk daily so either he died (I really hope not :[ ) or he quit all computer related things. Perhaps he had just had enough of me?

I'm truly sorry it is a strange feeling I bet.
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Leg[end]
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
United States241 Posts
September 11 2009 00:21 GMT
#4
I'm truly sorry to hear about that. That's tough, mate. I've never experienced anything quite like this, but there are a few people online that I've lost touch with and I'm still not entirely sure what's become of them.

Anyway, hang in there. Online friends like that are one in a million, and I'm sure he'd be glad to know he is remembered.
Legends Never Die ;;
bigsack
Profile Joined August 2007
Korea (North)220 Posts
September 11 2009 00:27 GMT
#5
That really sucks dude. R.I.P Cody
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andiCR
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
Costa Rica2273 Posts
September 11 2009 00:36 GMT
#6
oh man.. that sucks

Rest in peace
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StorrZerg
Profile Blog Joined February 2008
United States13919 Posts
September 11 2009 00:40 GMT
#7
thats rough man
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OmgIRok
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
Taiwan2699 Posts
September 11 2009 00:42 GMT
#8
There was a period of time where I thought my friend died (not online)

His phone was off, he closed his Youtube acc, he was never on AIM (which he always was) it was weird. But then he signed on one day and we were like :O

(Yea you know its you Cody if you're reading this)
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GreEny K
Profile Joined February 2008
Germany7312 Posts
September 11 2009 00:50 GMT
#9
Wow that is awful, if it did happen to me then I am unaware of it since I have not heard, read or seen anything about their deaths. One guy in particular was probably the coolest person I have ever played online with in my life but haven't spoken to in a year or so, i do know he is alive because he is a big halo3 player and i see him posting videos on youtube once in a while, he is getting quite good and i hope to join his team in about 3-4 months. But sorry to hear about cody
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gumbum8
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
United States721 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-09-11 00:59:28
September 11 2009 00:58 GMT
#10
+ Show Spoiler +
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http://forums.uniquehardware.ca/uploads/monthly_07_2008/post-1-1215196654.png

Sorry about your friend, Plz don't click the spoiler. I hope Cody lived a good life and had a positive influence on you (and it sounds like he did).
but really, has anyone REALLY been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?
leMaj24
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States262 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-09-11 01:09:51
September 11 2009 01:08 GMT
#11
I remember about 7-8 years ago in Clan OverDosed on east my recruiter named Sexican(OD) was gunned down outside of a skating rink over some stupid argument, jianfei might remember that too.sorry about your friend, RIP.
Ranix
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
United States666 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-09-11 01:35:31
September 11 2009 01:34 GMT
#12
I had a pen pal email assignment back in 10th grade of high school and I talked to someone from the heart of China. Even after 10th grade ended, we would always email and talk about how our lives were and try to find common grounds on which we could play games together (I play SC, he plays DotA ). Anyway I replied to one of his emails and haven't heard from him in a year or so. Of course it doesn't mean he died or anything but I sure miss the good conversation.
Legends never gg
neutralstate
Profile Joined February 2009
Singapore51 Posts
September 11 2009 01:52 GMT
#13
oh man... he was from CMU ? :/

lotsa cmu ppl dying recently RIP Cody...
DamageControL
Profile Blog Joined July 2007
United States4222 Posts
September 11 2009 02:13 GMT
#14
I'm really, really sorry, may he rest in peace.
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CaucasianAsian
Profile Blog Joined September 2005
Korea (South)11579 Posts
September 11 2009 02:21 GMT
#15
About 6-7 years ago I was in a team on UsEast called cc_ (Colossal Chaos) and became friends with a few of the other members, we talked on Ventrillo almost every day and Yahoo messenger. Then one day the only girl in our group didn't log on for a few days until her brother eventually told us she killed herself at her grandparents house.

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Ideas
Profile Blog Joined April 2008
United States8098 Posts
September 11 2009 02:30 GMT
#16
aw I'm sorry

I always have a big fear that if something were to happen to me or my online friends that the other party would never find out.
Free Palestine
SpiritWolf
Profile Joined July 2008
United States127 Posts
September 11 2009 02:40 GMT
#17
I feel your pain man. Just recently one of my online friends was hit by a car and killed. Even worse, i had to spend 30 minutes on vent dumbstruck trying to find something to say to his dad. It was the worst experience i have ever had online.

It is really strange feeling so sad about someone who you really didn't know and yet care so much about. Something that really cant be explained to people who haven't been there. I am really sorry you about your friend.
Licmyobelisk
Profile Blog Joined August 2008
Philippines3682 Posts
September 11 2009 03:15 GMT
#18
It really doesn't matter if online it's an online friend or not. A friend is a friend who'll make you smile with his/her stories or help you in times of need, if you share the same bond online it will be the same when you meet each other IRL.. RIP Cody
I don't think I've ever wished my opponent good luck prior to a game. When I play, I play to win. I hope every opponent I ever have is cursed with fucking terrible luck. I hope they're stuck playing underneath a stepladder with a black cat in attendance a
omfghi2u2
Profile Blog Joined February 2008
United States831 Posts
September 11 2009 03:23 GMT
#19
I remember being part of an online forum back a while ago. There was this member that always made intelligent and funny posts. Some people even got to know him in real life. It came as a shock to the forum when we found out he committed suicide on the day of his birthday.

Sorry to hear about your friend mate.
theobsessed1
Profile Blog Joined February 2009
United States576 Posts
September 11 2009 04:18 GMT
#20
I'm sorry to hear that.
I had a semi-depressed friend I met on D2 who was extremely talkative and nice to me. But he seemed a little unhappy with his life and he went to the Navy. Haven't heard from him since, but I hope he's doing well. He always said shit like "I'm gonna get killed but at least it'll be for a good cause" but hopefully not~
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Grobyc
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
Canada18410 Posts
September 11 2009 04:54 GMT
#21
R.I.P

Sorry, that's all I can say. Anything else would get me thinking about things I'd rather not.
If you watch Godzilla backwards it's about a benevolent lizard who helps rebuild a city and then moonwalks into the ocean.
wok
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
United States504 Posts
September 11 2009 05:32 GMT
#22
A very good friend of mine bit the dust a few weeks ago in circumstances I still am not clear about. So I mean.... given the choice between being dead and not being dead, at least for the time being, being dead seems like the bitchier situation.
I'll race you to defeatism... you win.
RebirthOfLeGenD
Profile Blog Joined November 2008
USA5860 Posts
September 11 2009 05:34 GMT
#23
I have something similar that happened to me almost exactly a year ago. (The anniversary of his death was last Monday, I believe)

Without this friend of mine I don't even know where I would be right now. He was my neighbor, and my all time best friend. We were best friends since I was a year old and I am 19 now. Last year when I started College during the second week of classes I found out that he had died. He had just moved from down the street to his parents house in Florida to attend University of Florida. He had to drive his dad to the airport and got home really late and tired. He left his car running in his garage while he slept and when his mom couldn't reach him for over a day she got her neighbor to go check in the house, he was dead in his bed due to carbon monoxide poisoning. A friend I knew since I was a year old was dead, the one friend I could always count on being there right down the street had died.

The reason I say this is relevant is because without him I would of never gotten into any video games. Especially starcraft. He used to play StarCraft all the time and was always like 30x better than me. I would only ever get into clans because he was so good and I'd just be a tag along. We used to play together all the time, during the summers we would be at his house almost every day just playing tons of games switching on and off. I dunno if anyone remembered these clans it was from like 6 years ago I'd say, if not more. We were in HS( together, something called DsX and I think a couple of others. The main one was HS( though. He was HS(Fr0sT.

But starcraft wasn't the only game he got me into. He also got me into RPG games, like Diablo, Mario RPG, the Zelda franchise. I literally cannot even begin to imagine who I would be if I had never met him, I know starcraft would most likely not even be a part of my life and it has had an immeasurable impact on me. I have played since around 2000, 9 years of my life. Soon to be 10. That would mean I have played starcraft the majority of time that I have been alive and for a couple of years I played it for hours a day.

But if he had never gotten me into it, if I had never looked up to him all my life, if he was never there to always be amazing at everything, where the hell would I be? I honestly have no idea whatsoever.

I still miss my friend, this summer just wasn't the same. He would just always call me to play some sort of crazy sport. Either backyard football, or wiffleball or something. It was just odd to not receive any call this summer at some ridiculous hour planning some sort of unrealistic game of football that he somehow always managed to throw together, or when he somehow managed to throw a wiffleball like 60mph and was able to pitch for 7 inning without his arm dying (wiffles balls are incredibly hard to pitch for a long period of time) Most people I know die after like 2-3 innings. I am just going to miss all that.

RIP Pat Farrell, aka HS(Fr0sT
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Profile Blog Joined December 2008
Singapore1442 Posts
September 11 2009 07:36 GMT
#24
On September 11 2009 12:23 omfghi2u2 wrote:
I remember being part of an online forum back a while ago. There was this member that always made intelligent and funny posts. Some people even got to know him in real life. It came as a shock to the forum when we found out he committed suicide on the day of his birthday.

Sorry to hear about your friend mate.

I knew of this girl on a forum who was a few years younger than me, not very well personally though. She committed suicide about a year ago and a few close forum friends were devastated as well.

May your friend RIP
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Hassl3
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
United States16 Posts
September 11 2009 08:42 GMT
#25
It's always sucks to lose people. Stuff like this always reminds me of mortality and how fragile life is. RIP.
WeSt
Profile Blog Joined April 2008
Portugal918 Posts
September 11 2009 09:11 GMT
#26
Sorry to hear that
I knew this swedish dude from another game (elasto mania, lol) and chatted with him quite often for about 3-4 years untill someone in an online forum of the community stated that he was his neighbour and he and his family had died during the night. Cause: gas leak = explosion, big fire, etc. It was pretty sad and tragic.
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