I have been talking to my brother on MSN and Skype as brothers do, and for an year now my brother has been talking about taking acid and that he couldn't await for me to try it. When I went for the winter to snowboard last winter (it's summer here) there was no acid in town since there are certain people that bring it in and they are usually carrying pot also so the dogs sniff em out and they can catch the shipment of Weed, Acid, X or whatever else they might be carrying. So my brother invited me to visit him for a weekend or two to party.
the town the bar is just left of the closes building you see on this picture.
I bought my bus ticket so it leaves on Thursday I arrive on Friday (it's roughly 24 hours from where I am living to the village) ready to party, all I brought was a back pack of 5 shirts 5 underwear 4 socks 1 nylon jacket and some other essential stuff. Friday came along and we were lucky to be able to get our hands on some acid, it was the Bicycle postal stamp type if anyone is interested. It was around 5 or 6 that we took it, before we delve in deeper if you ever try acid make sure you don't take it too early. So we start heading out the door to get a move on to go down to the bar where my brother has been helping out while the owner went out of town to check out a concert. We get there and all is good, can't feel it kicking in we we start working in the kitchen making the pizza dough cutting up all the ingredients and all that jazz. When my brother asks if I am feeling anything, I was feeling something but it was gradual so I didn't notice too much until he pointed it out.
I started getting a huge headache and loss of breath while in that kitchen, the stove was on and it felt like someone lit the whole kitchen on fire. I was trying to keep it together I was getting a pretty big head ache in that inferno I felt like I wasn't getting enough air while breathing...and then I saw it... my escape plan, it involved not having enough tomatoes for the tomato sauce! I told my brother that I'd go down to the liquor store and bring a few cans of tomatoes so we could keep the pizza production rate up! I raced out of the kitchen heading for the bathroom but there was one thing standing in my way...
This was the closest image I could find, it's nothing like this though.
That thing was a painting my brother painted, it was a painting that has a bigger picture embezzled with multiple faces created and limited by your own imagination, some may see the bigger picture of a man curled up praying and not see any faces while others 5 or 6 faces only other people see the man curled up and 100s of faces... when they are sober, I looked at it and stood there for about 15-30 minutes finding everything from full bodies to faces to various animals with enhanced colors splashing from the page that once looked dull. I eventually catched myself and asked myself 'shit how long have I been standing here'. I then proceeded to the bathroom took a glance at myself in the mirror and I looked handsome as always, I turned 90 degrees and drained the tubes and turned back and washed my hands and taking a closer look, and I was horrified as I stared directly into my own eyes, dilated engulfing what was once brown with a hint of green my eyes looked like something out of a horror movie where there is a little girl with soulless pools of darkness with no emotion just staring at you while you get sucked into their gaze. I quickly snapped out of it I didn't want to stand there scaring the shit out of myself by looking at myself in the mirror for 15-30 minutes I already did that with the painting.
I walked out of the bathroom grabbed my jacket from under the bar told the people at the bar I'll be right back opened the door and that was the first high point of being on acid, when you are on acid you just start taking deep breaths and calming down (If you are on a good trip at least) everything is perfectly fine in the world. You have a peace upon you that you know people won't understand unless they are on acid but you feel as though you would be able to share the feeling of peace by just telling them you are on acid......... Also you have a really bad desire to film stuff, while walking and looking down at the ground and at my feet I thought to myself 'Holy shit, this would make a cool video. It would start off with the camera on my feet and then slowly pan upward....'. but I digress. As I start to look upwards with the thought process of the camera panning upwards, I see the night is very very dark the colors from the sidewalks and the stores light everything up in the most pristine way possible enhanced colors, I inhale deeply letting go of an anxiety. I pass a family and we make eye contact at which point all the images of my pupils dilated huger than a mother fucking fist I start feeling anxiety did they notice? they pass and it's all good a few more people pass and the anxiety keeps building. I inhale deeply and the anxiety disappears, one of the most relieving feelings I have felt in my life. I continue walking along the side walk to a place where the only light this block receives is from the street across from it the street I came from and the street I will be reaching shortly. I look up and see some starts and I take another deep breath, I notice a beaming sun burst yellow coming from a tree I look up at it and think of nature it's beautiful, to my left two pretty ladies pass my by they are checking me out........ I keep looking at the tree as I finally strolled next to it, I turn my head to not relinquish the sight as I keep walking on. I hear the girls giggle something indistinct I'd imagine something like that guy is tripping balls, but, I'll never know and if you 2 girls did say that you guys were spot fucking on I was trippin fuckin balls! I reach the next block with light, I notice my cheeks start to hurt a little... I have been smiling since I left the bar, at everyone I've seen I've been beaming a huge banana grin. A few children are running around playing games infront of their parents who are holding hands and casually strolling I smile a bit bigger at the sight of how simple life seems when seeing a family like them. I take yet another deep breath and exhale slowly trying to calm down from smiling which made me think of me smiling, which made me smile. I finally reach the the street I turn the corner and make it to the liquor store safely.
As I enter the store I notice it's very well lit my bottle cap pupils will be very easily seen! But does it matter? These guys run a 24/7 liquor store the amount of pot,crack,alcoholics that come to this place to get a ham and cheese sandwich at 4 in the morning probably makes some guy tripping on acid be like small potatoes! I look around the 2 isles finding snacks, I find the canned tomatoes and take them to the cashier I try to utter out words but they kind of just melt. He just tells me the price and I give him about 20 more pesos then was required and he gives me back the correct amount plus 2 candies because they didn't have change. I march right out of there glad that I survived the gauntlet of buying canned tomatoes. I take a deep breath and start again on my skip walking, doing 180 spins as if I hear someone behind me every now and then. I make it back to the bar still thinking how awesome it would be if I had a video camera.
I reach the bar I open the door get in and I go back into the kitchen and I realize, SWEET HOLY MOTHER OF SHIT IT'S ST ILL HOT, but seriously Laggy....Why would the temperature change? I should have asked Alice. I go outside of the kitchen I can't do anything in there it just makes my head thumb so I go outside of the bar again and take a seat on one of the seats outside, and take nothing but deep breaths seeing bush after bush of this sunburst yellow enhanced by the L.S.D making it so much more than it is, it makes me think what if we lived like this? If we all appreciated everything? If we were all happy? I step back inside where chatter fills the sound waves, I join some friends of my brother to chat. I start looking at things intensely as if I don't even acknowledge their presence. They know me and my brother are tripping. They giggle at me and I laugh so it doesn't seem to awkward, they ask me questions that I answer my answers seem incoherent to me, but they understood them. They talk to each other again,I forget they are even alive again and go back to looking at random things, one of these things is my hand. It starts to have a pattern moving on top of it of some sort exactly like this optical illusion.
Look directly at the middle for 30 seconds and then look at the palm of your hand.
I stare at my hand for a long while before going to the bathroom to pee, I refuse to look at my eyes while washing my hands. I go back to the kitchen and clean some dishes and grate some cheese before my head hurts and I have to leave the bar again. I took another walk this one was a lot shorter than the previous as I was down the stairs walking in front of the bus terminal, I think to myself what I would do in this state if a mugger came to mug me. I thought of it as they would see everything the way I see if even if they didn't take acid and even if I didn't articulate what I am feeling. Noticing that that seems perfectly sensible but would never work I think of another strategy and tell them that I took acid and that I am tripping balls so if they would leave me alone settling with that one I continue walking and taking deep breaths. I am feeling more anxious than before , as I start walking backwards I cross a restaurant with a family sitting up against the windows to see the people who pass them by. I think it's all cool I smile at the lady looking at me, and as out of my peripheral vision I see the lady wave her arms in the air at me and open her mouth as if she was shouting at me, I immediately turn the fuck around and look at her strangely and then she looks at me strangely..... she didn't do anything, I turn around real quick and have a huge grin on my face thinking woah, that was fucking wacky!
What I was listening to nonstop while I was over there.
Fast forward to 3AM the bar starts clearing out, my brother and I along with 2 other fellows working at the bar quickly go outside to start bringing in the chairs and tables because it's time to go to the club!!! Nothing exciting happens at the club, around 8 we leave the club we all get into the car drive to the bar pick up some sandwiches and get back into the car and drive across the town (the center is only 4-5 blocks long.) the driver screaming out like a drunken driver, oh wait, he was a drunken driver coincidence? I think not. The town is completely empty at this time we make it down to the lake, sit on the bridge with our feet dangling over the lake. We take bites in to the sandwiches hoping to fill our hungry stomachs only to find that they are drier then fucking sand it's almost impossible to swallow it's as if someone replaced our saliva glands with millions of salt granules taking out any moist humidity wetness that once existed. We quickly pass the beer around to help moisten the sandwiches, as we continue walking we see a 2 women and a daughter I can't recall if they were lesbians or if one was the mother of the mother of the daughter or maybe they were a couple despite the age barrier, or maybe hopefully not it was incest and all my predictions were put together and the mother was dating the mother of the daughter while the daughter watched.... I'm going to hell, back to the story. The three obviously got up early to come see the amazing lake, the only thing I could think of was the beauty of youth celebrating their youth, and by that I mean taking acid drinking till 10am jesus that is fucked up. Anyways we continue walking and go down a slope where we find the shore and across us is the mountain.
This was the bridge, and behind that is the mountain I describe.
This was nature at it's peak complimented with the acid it was a divine serenity as I watched the sun break right over the mountain sun beams warming my skin and white ripples reflecting from the calm waters ever flowing, the nearer the ripples of white reflection were the more spread out they were at a certain distance they all collapsed onto each other to form a blanket of white reflective light, with the yellow burst bushes on either side of me I took a deep breath and felt peace and knew that was where I had to be where I wanted to be for that one moment.
-Laggy