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This is my first blog ever. I hope to do these in the future since I love to type, but my schedule sometimes might not be willing to let me.
Here's a little about me. I'm currently 14 years old. I spend most of my time on the computer. I have a brother who is 5 years older than me. My school promotes the extroverted mindset while I prefer to stay inside and read. I mostly talk to my friends over Facebook or Skype rather than face to face since I don't have any classes with them. I don't like a lot of the kids at my school because they overreact a little too much for me. (I know I overreact, too. I acknowledge that.) I get angry very easily, but I'm learning to control my temper as time progresses. I'm very paranoid about people lying to me. Compared to Stoicism, I would say I have a mindset that more resembles Epicureanism. (I will have spelling mistakes. I encourage you to correct me so I can learn.) However, even with that mindset, I still get nervous as hell talking to cute girls. 
A year ago, I was frustrated. I don't remember what I was frustrated with, but I remember punching the wall and creating a giant hole (I pulled a Jinro). I was screaming at the top of my lungs when no one was even home yet. To get myself to calm down, I wrote a letter to one of the most influential people towards me. While I sent a letter only to Day[9]'s feedback email, I knew it would never get read by him or anyone. It still, however, calmed me down to write the letter and remember better times compared to the situation that was at hand. This is my letter.
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To Day[9] or whomever reads this email,
I enjoy watching your dailies. My brother and I used to watch you dailies live every night they were on together, but now he went off to college. He's 18 and I'm 13. Starcraft and League of Legends were how we bonded together. Video games in general were how we bonded. He would play a scary game and I would watch. I usually would be more scared than him. TT But video games were where all the fighting would stop. Our rooms would cease fire and calm down. It's how we got along. And before he went to college, we would always talk about Starcraft. Silly strategies like mass arbiter or proxy factories. We would enjoy ourselves while we laughed and laughed while we watched your stream. We would enjoy ourselves as we stare and think about current meta-game strategies. We bonded mainly because of you. You were the one that brought us together. You made us laugh during Funday Monday. You made us think about why ______ lost when he should have won. You made us happy.
Thank you so much for doing what you are doing! I know at some point you won't be able to continue doing the daily, but don't ever anticipate it. I have watched almost all of your dailies from broodwar to HOTS. Sadly, I only play broodwar because sc2 can't run on my current computer. I'm only 13! I can't just go out and buy a new computer! :[
So I want to thank you for what you do. If you run out of steam, or feel awful before a daily, the viewers completely understand. The internet is filled with trolls and horrible people, but they will understand if you just have to take a break here and there.
It is a little hard only playing broodwar when you do most of your dailies on SC2. I do have some trouble transferring the information to broodwar, but that is for me to work at. Rarely in life will someone get handed information to do something well. You have to work at it. What you do is amazing because you are the source that hands out that information. You are the one that points people to the right direction. Thank you.
If you didn't read anything yet, at least read this last bit.
You don't just bring information. You bring happiness. You are the reason my brother and I bonded. You are the reason I get through Junior High School without loosing my temper. You are the reason I cry because I know some day, the dailies will stop, the streaming will stop, and so will Starcraft. Thank you so much for what you do.
Sincerely,
Max Bush
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That was me one year ago.
The reason I'm posting blogs on Teamliquid is so I have someone to talk to. I know I won't get a response, but I feel like talking to the community makes me feel satisfied. At 14 years old with a school filled with students, I have only one person who I can talk out my feelings with. When I talk to that person, I feel so vulnerable and weak because I know that our relationship will probably not last forever. After an amount of time, she and I will eventually stop talking and fade away from each other to our independent lives. I want to talk to her, but I don't want to get attached so the break off is even worse for me.
That is why I'm posting on Teamliquid. My heart pounds as I finish up this blog. I don't know why, but I feel anxious for something. Thank you, Teamliquid. This means so much to me.
 
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I understand how alien other people can seem in High School, especially if you prefer indoor activities. Regardless, I encourage you to interact with them and experience different things.
Once you are out of High School, there will not be such easy circumstances in which you can leisurely have fun and get to know people of diverse interests and backgrounds.
I know this is unrelated to your blog post for the most part, but I feel this is an important advice that I try to give to High Schoolers I encounter. I myself was very introverted during High School and simply played games. While that was fun, I also lacked the unique social activities and interactions of High School years.
Have fun and don't be too judgmental of your peers. They certainly are not fools as you might assume once you get to know them.
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HI, i am a 13 year old, and i am in a very similar place. I live in Manhattan, and my school is all the way downtown. I live all the way uptown. Most of my school freinds live in brooklyn. IT is hard to hand out face to face, but i spend hours with them on skype. SC2 has become my outlet. I broke my phone a few months ago. My parents are really hard on me, and dont understand that i could have the potential to go pro at some point (I hope). When i get pissed, I go straight to sc2 or day 9/husky. I just get to sit back and enjoy. TL does this for me to. At school, i have 1 class that pisses me off so much, and when it does, i go and get my Ipod, walk out of the room (its not an important class) and watch Day 9. I have done i think 2 projects on Day 9. I have done better on those two than anything else. I care about this, but people dont under stand.
Thank You Day 9. Thank you Blizzard. Thank you Husky. Thank you Demuslim. Thank you MKP and MVP.
ANd in my expirience, the kids actually are that stupid. Bunch of potheads who arent worth s*it. And GIrls. Goddam. THey dont wear clothes, but expect us to not be all mentaly fked up by it.
sry for any bad speling
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hi! i know how you guys feel. games are a great way to hang out with like-minded people at your age. try your best to make friends offline too though - smiling at people and working on your social skills really pays off. hope you have fun here =]
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^ I know! I just want to pinch their cheeks. Fcuk I'm old 
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On February 27 2013 11:35 ktimekiller wrote:
I understand how alien other people can seem in High School, especially if you prefer indoor activities. Regardless, I encourage you to interact with them and experience different things.
Once you are out of High School, there will not be such easy circumstances in which you can leisurely have fun and get to know people of diverse interests and backgrounds.
I know this is unrelated to your blog post for the most part, but I feel this is an important advice that I try to give to High Schoolers I encounter. I myself was very introverted during High School and simply played games. While that was fun, I also lacked the unique social activities and interactions of High School years.
Have fun and don't be too judgmental of your peers. They certainly are not fools as you might assume once you get to know them.
Pretty much this. I'm a pretty nerdy introvert asian skinny skeletor 17 year old gamer, but it really is important to have a social life. I understand how great games are for connecting people together, but you'll see after you play for a while that they aren't everything and they can't support your social interactions forever.
Also related to what ktimekiller said, don't be too arrogant or judgmental of your classmates. It's great to have pride in what you do, but try to be open to new things as well. Friends will become more and more a necessity as you progress through high school so keep at that I've found it's helpful just to talk to people about random small talk, which is especially common/normal in high school. It might not seem like much in terms of actual conversation, but it goes a long way as a friendly gesture which will also help you make friends
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Really heart-felt and honest blog. Your affection for the community brought a smile to my face.
You also write really well for a 13yo.
5/5.
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I can really relate to a lot of the things you went through haha. Like a smaller version of me. It's really sad when the brother stops playing video games, or in your case, goes off to college...but life will happen
Keep it going strong, Sean ain't stopping anytime soon 
And seriously, try to talk to people around you; while most people might be dicks, there's always that one guy/girl who's willing to talk to you.
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Don't forget to find your school's nerd group and game with them! Gaming is much more fun when it's with RL friends; especially team games like DOTA (not so much starcraft).
(P.S. epicureanism isn't that great of a philosophy; check these out and find one which suit you.)
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Wow, if i didn't know your age i would believed you were so much older.
I'm 18, i slightly regret not making friends or having the effort to. I go out and i can talk to people but never say i have friends, who i can text or call etc. I do have some who have went to uni but distance all we can do is message each other tahn arrange something. I have not many into pc gaming but i also argue were a superior to console players 
I would advice trying to make real face to face friends. Not all online friends, even currently i speak to some online friends more than my Girlfriend and planning to meet on of these folk this year.
So it nice both ways but i would personally like balance.
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You seem cool with me bro
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On February 27 2013 18:23 Ianuus wrote:Don't forget to find your school's nerd group and game with them! Gaming is much more fun when it's with RL friends; especially team games like DOTA (not so much starcraft). (P.S. epicureanism isn't that great of a philosophy; check these out and find one which suit you.)
I just used Epicureanism because I thought most people would know it off hand. Thanks!
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On February 27 2013 15:34 Masamune wrote:^ I know! I just want to pinch their cheeks. Fcuk I'm old
LOL Those two comments literally made my laugh out loud. :D
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When i was in high school i was a lot like you. Maybe darker. I was playing BW 30 to 60hours a week. Never go out. Few friends that i saw in school but not really outside of it.
At some point i stopped playing BW as much (or Quake III or whatever i was playing). One afternoon i was at a friend playing video game and i saw that he had a guitar. I asked why it was here and he told me that he was going to throw it. So i asked him if i could borrow it and he say yes.
Why am i saying this ? Because i learned a new way to express thing with an instrument. And i learned that a lot of people were playing too. So i made new friends. And contrary to video game where you can pretty much be at home and talk to friends over skype or TS, music is something that you have to do physicaly with each other.
You could find a hobby (mine was guitar) that you can do alone, but that could do well with other. You do the same thing with sports (also i hate that so i would understand you would too). But maybe find a good hobby in addition to your gaming.
Just my two cent from a almost 30 (god damnit) year old.
Also i compliment on your writing. Your letter was touching.
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On February 27 2013 11:35 ktimekiller wrote:
I understand how alien other people can seem in High School, especially if you prefer indoor activities. Regardless, I encourage you to interact with them and experience different things.
Once you are out of High School, there will not be such easy circumstances in which you can leisurely have fun and get to know people of diverse interests and backgrounds.
I know this is unrelated to your blog post for the most part, but I feel this is an important advice that I try to give to High Schoolers I encounter. I myself was very introverted during High School and simply played games. While that was fun, I also lacked the unique social activities and interactions of High School years.
Have fun and don't be too judgmental of your peers. They certainly are not fools as you might assume once you get to know them.
Right in the feels, thank god I discovered that during my college years - Especially the JUDGEMENTAL part
When I finally started to realize that all people arent ''idiots'' I could start to relax and find different people and accept the parts where we are not connected.
It also made me sad and I have come to realize that many of those I knew who thought all people were just so stupid (google ''why are people so'' and stupid will be the first thing that comes up, that is sort of the tone) were in the end the people who were most lonely.
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Yo Froz! Great blog! I should totally reinstall BW so we can play again
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On February 28 2013 00:39 Facultyadjutant wrote:Show nested quote +On February 27 2013 11:35 ktimekiller wrote:
I understand how alien other people can seem in High School, especially if you prefer indoor activities. Regardless, I encourage you to interact with them and experience different things.
Once you are out of High School, there will not be such easy circumstances in which you can leisurely have fun and get to know people of diverse interests and backgrounds.
I know this is unrelated to your blog post for the most part, but I feel this is an important advice that I try to give to High Schoolers I encounter. I myself was very introverted during High School and simply played games. While that was fun, I also lacked the unique social activities and interactions of High School years.
Have fun and don't be too judgmental of your peers. They certainly are not fools as you might assume once you get to know them. Right in the feels, thank god I discovered that during my college years - Especially the JUDGEMENTAL part When I finally started to realize that all people arent ''idiots'' I could start to relax and find different people and accept the parts where we are not connected. It also made me sad and I have come to realize that many of those I knew who thought all people were just so stupid (google ''why are people so'' and stupid will be the first thing that comes up, that is sort of the tone) were in the end the people who were most lonely.
I feel like I may have misused some words.
I do not intentionally feel even close to superior to my peers. I know a lot of my classmates are far smarter than me both academically and socially. I even state how I'm paranoid about people lying to me or baiting me to do something. (A future blog will be an example.) The point I wanted to get across was that I do not prefer the personalities that are thriving and pervading throughout my school. People that "overreact" are considered fun and enthusiastic while I consider them obnoxious or a nuisance. It's just a matter of opinion of what a person likes in another person. If they aren't intentionally bothering me, then I won't speak a word.
I'm sorry if I mislead some people to believe otherwise. That was not my intention. :[
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On February 27 2013 18:29 TheQuiff wrote:
I'm 18, i slightly regret not making friends or having the effort to. I go out and i can talk to people but never say i have friends, who i can text or call etc.
I kinda understand this, as i never get calls, but i dont mind. I have a select few good freinds, and i can still talk to them. I dont need to talk to most of the kids in my class.
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Holy crap. Thank you so much for writing this. This seriously means a ton <3333. Its reading exactly your kind of letter that makes me feel so driven to keep goin forward .
SC2 and gaming forever!!!! :D
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