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Fecalfeast
Profile Joined January 2010
Canada11355 Posts
October 30 2014 03:14 GMT
#3321
On October 30 2014 11:21 SetGuitarsToKill wrote:
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You know that feeling where you realize that you're never gonna fulfill your dreams and you might as well give up and accept that you are destined to be completely mediorce at everything no matter how much you wanna change it, and that your life is essentially meaningless. I'm getting that quite strongly right now.

I'm gonna follow you around apparently. Possibly un-helpful rant ahead:

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Stop looking at your life like it's already over. Realizing 'you're never gonna fulfill your dreams' is so needlessly pessimistic you sound like me 3 years ago. You are not defined by the arbitrary tasks and goals you set for yourself. You are not defined by your willingness to stick to your goals.

Putting yourself down doesn't help make yourself happy. Stating that' life is meaningless' is like stating 'everyone i know will die.' Technically true, but why bother even thinking about it, let alone saying it?

Not sure if this will help but, coming from someone who has been down the in dark pit of despair, you have to find meaning in the nothingness. How I put it before was: If nothing really matters, the possibilities are endless. I can do ANYTHING so long as it's physically possible. I can start a band, run away and live in the forest, get a job as a dishwasher and leftovers of people's plates, rob a 7-11 with a toy gun... literally anything.

The possibility of failure is present in everything from trying to become pro at SC2 to trying not to pinch your genitals in your zipper after using the washroom. The possibility of success is only present in the things you attempt.

Think of it this way. If I set a goal to be a super sexy muscle man by 2016(I am the exact opposite currently) and fail to lose more than 20lbs by then, I still have to live the rest of my life after that. Letting your failures and deficiencies control your mindset is the first step to being your own worst enemy

Are you sick of me stalking you yet? No? Here's a picture that, as stupid as it may sound, helped me in a profound way.[image loading]
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Epishade
Profile Blog Joined November 2011
United States2267 Posts
October 30 2014 03:22 GMT
#3322
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There are way too many hot girls on Tinder! There needs to be some sort of filter for those that are, like, 6 and below so that I don't have to swipe left on these bitches who are too hot for me.
Pinhead Larry in the streets, Dirty Dan in the sheets.
Djzapz
Profile Blog Joined August 2009
Canada10681 Posts
October 30 2014 03:53 GMT
#3323
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Watching the Colbert Report with Anita Sarkeesian and he's just handling this crap like any other dumbshit media outlet that doesn't know anything about anything, just with his likable Colbert persona... Anita's just tossing wild guesses presented as truth again and he doesn't have anything to say in response so he just kind of is neutral to it.
"My incompetence with power tools had been increasing exponentially over the course of 20 years spent inhaling experimental oven cleaners"
Orcasgt24
Profile Joined August 2011
Canada3238 Posts
October 30 2014 05:23 GMT
#3324
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It continues to amaze me that somehow humans have emerged as the alpha species of our planet. Given that the average human is dumb as a fucking doorknob, scared of bugs and a total wimp I can't see how we got to this phase at all.
In Hearthstone we pray to RNGesus. When Yogg-Saron hits the field, RNGod gets to work
DinoMight
Profile Blog Joined June 2012
United States3725 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-10-30 20:44:19
October 30 2014 20:43 GMT
#3325
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Terran is so fucking stupid.
"Wtf I come back and find myself in camp DinoMight all of a sudden, feels weird man." -Wombat_NI
ninazerg
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
United States7291 Posts
October 30 2014 22:35 GMT
#3326
On October 30 2014 12:53 Djzapz wrote:
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Watching the Colbert Report with Anita Sarkeesian and he's just handling this crap like any other dumbshit media outlet that doesn't know anything about anything, just with his likable Colbert persona... Anita's just tossing wild guesses presented as truth again and he doesn't have anything to say in response so he just kind of is neutral to it.


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This makes me rage. -_-;;;;
"If two pregnant women get into a fist fight, it's like a mecha-battle between two unborn babies." - Fyodor Dostoevsky
Grumbels
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
Netherlands7031 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-10-30 23:08:49
October 30 2014 22:58 GMT
#3327
On October 30 2014 12:53 Djzapz wrote:
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Watching the Colbert Report with Anita Sarkeesian and he's just handling this crap like any other dumbshit media outlet that doesn't know anything about anything, just with his likable Colbert persona... Anita's just tossing wild guesses presented as truth again and he doesn't have anything to say in response so he just kind of is neutral to it.

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Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart are disappointing to watch every time you actually know something about whatever they're covering, especially if it's not one of their pet topics on which they're more informed. As an avid cycling fan I was anticipating those shows covering the Lance Armstrong scandal because I wanted to hear the funny insights, but it was just generic jokes and misinformation. They're comedy shows that appeal to a mainstream audience, they don't serve to inform and are mostly enjoyable as vehicles for the hosts' comedic persona.


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Am I unreasonable for expecting other people in this apartment building to not have loud parties at 1am on weekdays? I complained about it and my downstairs neighbor was irate that I had done so and barged over to our half of the building to question whatever insidious individual wrote the anonymous complaint letter. I confessed and she said I was a coward and that I shouldn't complain about these things given students live here. I've seen her a few times since just in passing and she always looks at me with suspicion. I swear she has to be a complete sociopath to have the nerve to not take any responsibility for all the incessant and ever-present noise she makes and to instead place me at fault. As if I'm some villain for expecting people to be more or less quiet in the middle of a Wednesday night when I have to get up at 8am next morning. This is the irony, I can't sleep because of her noise making, but she can sleep perfectly well as she's not bothered by a nagging conscience since she doesn't have one. I hope she suffers.
Well, now I tell you, I never seen good come o' goodness yet. Him as strikes first is my fancy; dead men don't bite; them's my views--amen, so be it.
DepressedOne
Profile Blog Joined September 2014
United States190 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-10-31 07:50:24
October 31 2014 06:18 GMT
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There was a time when Zerg was prominent and I had high hopes of becoming the Zerg bastion for the east server. This is Sc1 we're talking about. Today I had suffered a devastating blow by a Protoss player who I had met before. The first time I had played them my ZvP was weak at the time. Over time as I began to practice though, I became hyperaware of every unit I was making, what supply I should get them, and had good map awareness. I felt more confident in my sense of game flow and pacing of the ZvP matchup and when I was in tip top shape I had gotten to C+. I'm not even sure if that's legitimate because the last game I needed to get to C+ was against a D rank player...I don't care though, I've come to realize if anyone wants to get up a few ranks it's only a matter of massing games, not pure skill, especially on a ladder like iccup that rewards massing games. The only thing to do is leave starcraft knowing what accomplishments I've made already and not lingering in the past.

When I was laddering I drilled into my brain loss after loss and now facing the same Protoss opponent I had fought with several months ago....I just crumbled. I had come to the realization that this player was better than me and you know....sometimes you have to accept it. I was just playing like crap. I feel bad too because I was stream sniping some random newbie today which shows how much I only care about winning. I haven't really been practicing zerg competitively recently so I wasn't as good as I was so I just floundered. I still never proved to myself I could beat 1 base gimmicks.

Through my years in Brood War I wanted to cultivate my skills, become the best turtle zerg ever, modelling myself after great players like the past Zergs I had seen in my years playing, specifically my former teacher sandman86. Of course, there are players like Sziky, Eonzerg, Trutacz, etc prominent in the BW foreign scene but I always felt like I had what it would take to bring to the table some more variety. It was really just a farce though, and when I look at the "top" Protoss players in the foreign scene, I just sigh thinking how..... I had a dream of living through the legacy of my past teachers but in the end it feels like Zerg's going to whimper out. They say Zerg is the toughest to learn, but the most powerful of the three races, and I was nowhere near close to mastering it. Even more so because I only played on fighting spirit. A part of me thinks I really have lost my skill when I can only play on FS. The game just lost its organic feel to me. It felt so...formulaic, doing the same build over and over again, playing on the same map.

Alouette, who is uh....you know, he's korean. he was some guy I knew from east server back when I was still very new to the game . He told me one time that I had the potential to become a good player if I put my mind to it, and you know, he was right. At the time it felt feasible to me and now...it all comes to a sudden halt. My feelings over...I don't know what I'm feeling. I feel as if there were ever the possibility of leaving the Zerg not only would I be leaving a video game, but I'd also be leaving the Zerg as a race to grow smaller. All of the newbs are protoss players and Terran. Zerg does have the steepest learning curve though. Once you understand the inner workings of it, you can tap into its potential. At some point I felt like if I had the tools necessary I could show that Zerg could break any defense, just like what sandman had done. As the game grows older and less people play it, people like sandman who had a more flexible, smarter insight in the game are disappearing. They just did magic with their hands, men with legendary micro. No longer though, no longer. It's not dramatic. Not only am I frustrated at my lack of intelligence when approaching the game, I feel like I've stagnatedaomgaomgogagaogmaaReally though, it....was all a matter of time for people to leave the game. After all, it is just . a video game. Nothing more.

This night feels different.I can't keep this up! I dedicated so much time. My mind didn't have the growth mindset I may have wanted. My mindset favored winning and I didn't want to go through the difficulties of losing for the ultimate sake of learning. I.....................I..You know, sometimes it feels like I have nothing i really enjoy. Hm..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................Over time my mind has slowly degenerated unable to do tasks it once did. For example, I've lost my photographic memory. I'd remember whatever page numbers I had to write down for homework or whatever and I wouldn't have to glance back at the board or whatever paper the homework assignemnt was written on....and my god now I can't even remember more than one number. I have to glance back and forth from the paper I was recording the page numbers on and the page numbers on the board. Small things like that about me bother myself. I feel like it's because .....everything. I also can't get back the same euphoria I had when I first plyaed starcraft, or just any video games or tv shows I'd watch prior to finding starcraft. It's very dampening. When someone talks to me about depression i can't take it seriously. really though I mean............holy crap. Gonna be honest here, if there were a suicidal fat girl I just....no. There we have it, I don't need to be here. You know, I had dreams of becoming...something great but learning about the contemporary problems and existential problems that plague the human mind and seem further convoluted by religion, it feels confusing. I twas religious one time. It was also the same time I had lost weight. I was never the same again after i lost my religious fervor. I just felt numb everyday I went to school. I could not form coherent thoughts. At all. It stayed like that for a long time and I'm still not entirely sure what had happened. I just.........sadness. Was that the beginnings of my depression? My brain levels still haven't reached back up. I don't enjoy talking about it. Everyone says "How are you?" and you have to reply "fine" or "good" even if you're not, which is idk man. It's tiresome to reply I get anxious whenever I feel like someone wants to talk to me. I used to be more outgoing but look at me now: lonely, depressed, broken in many, many hospital staying induced ways, and seeing the faces of the depressed, the people who loved cutting, and blazed it 420/7 everyday....maybe I'm losing my innocence. It also might be my frontal lobe acting out since it's not fully developed. To think I'm 42 years old. And a dog. Sigh................................i'm a fat girl and if I wouldn't help a fat girl, why would a person help me. It's just a video game but I still cling to it because it's the last thing i enjoyed before I hurtled down into depression. Thinking about it I never really had any real friends when I moved. Why? I......I'm sick.

At some point in school I would try to be funny but at some point I thought, there's no need to be funny. Just do....nothing. And be you. Hm....i'm remembering all sorts of things. It all makes sense now. Don't try to be anything. Just be yourself I thought. And so, I became quiet. Eventually a person's jokes will run out and when they do, what is left? What is left to do. I remember I would have these laughing fits and they would come rarely. After I had lost weight and I was having a laughing fit, my sides were convulsing....painfully. My slabs of fat before had kept my organs safe from my pulsating humps of laughter. Never again did I laugh so hard. Never. I'm starting to grow the slabs of fat back again if that means anything.

Hmm...............................................................I just make paragraphs according to how my brain thinks. You know, I think I lost my innocence the moment I started playing online StarCraft. A whole new world of.....bad manners just came to life. Then there was Suplex, who is me. He's just him. I'm going to be him. I won't denounce him for the man he is, but he's what a guy who becomes a secluded anti social person would be, so.......that's me. I think we bonded somehow. I listened to his voice one time on teamspeak, and I remember I said he could be a singer like that person with the hair. I forget her name. Susan Boyle? That's the one. I always take things for granted, and when it's too late, I regret. Even now I know future me would want present me to start doing something today, yet....it shall be too late. You know I made a post a while back and some guy was all SYMPATHY SUMPATHY and....idk man. He was saying things like "What are your interests? I don't understand how someone could be depressed and still enjoy activities. posers. AM I EVEn a male? What......is anything. Am I hand? What....hand. but yes i mean i don't need sympathy. I know there are people who naturally hate any sort of compliment or sign of sympathy and will retaliate aggressively. That sounds like me. You know, in the back of my mind what I really want is for everyone on teamliquid to hate me so I naturally become ousted from StarCraft and lose complete interest in it out of not personal will but by the will of others. I can't just leave by myself, I'm weak and helpless, I need someone to force me out so I leave due to outside forces outside of my control.. I'm only sticking with StarCraft only for the social aspect. Sigh...It's getting late. I'm going to be obnoxious which I have for many, many years. I only thank people for putting up with me. I use depression and aspergers and weed as my excuse. And ADHD. And OCD. And diabetes, thyroid problems, genetic disorders, thin privilege, all of it. I've been suffering from weight issues somewhat, hard to admit but it's true. I would act all goofy in real life though. I just...............can't get serious. Aren't transgender males just....lesbian transvestites? I have over 3 days worth of homework piled up. Yet, I'm going to let it pile up until I either go into a flight or fight moment. IT'LL BE AMAZING. I'll either do all of my work in an adrenaline pumped fury or I'll just slump back into my bed and cry my eyes out. One day I will soaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar across the skies. I've been hoping for some hacker on starcraft to permanently disable my computer.router somehow, but it has to be WITHIN STARCRAFT. idk how i'll deal with it. Most likely I'll just use the computer at my person's workplace. It's a church. Will I spend the rest of my days at church, the exact place I loathe? There's some reasoning in the church people I can't argue against, for example, just because something has sharp teeth doesn't mean it eats meat. I....don't know where to begin on creating a counter argument. What is the very basis of........................................human common sense? Is there a common common sense? Where does this all come from. I think i just matrix? I'm getting..........................vibes that something is about to kill me. So, this is it, huh. It's been a long road but I guess this is how it ends.

You know man I just in secret I just I just I just I just can't say it because I know the person who I want to type the name of is gonna read this. I know. It's because I want sympathy but it's because I'M A DISGUSTING PEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.......

perv. I think I'm developing schizophrenia. I mean...I'm going. I might have it, you know and........it saddens me. Early signs of cancer?!!! Alzheimers. Why is work so.....................much? I want it to not be there.

If people become creeped out by me then I think that's for the best because that way I'll levitate away from teamliquid and feel emotionally terrible coming here. HOW LONG DID IT TAKE TO WRITE THIS?! The time goes by fast. Everything runs out of time. I could type something like "thank you for reading the first 16 pages of my book" but....I won't. talk about. Yawn...........i want something.

Me sad.
The_Templar
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
your Country52797 Posts
November 02 2014 11:01 GMT
#3329
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GOD DAMN IT

I left my pillow somewhere and I can't find it since it's 6am and everywhere is closed

And I stayed up all night to LR some random tournament that doesn't actually show any SC2 matches.

-.-
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Luolis
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
Finland7115 Posts
November 03 2014 16:56 GMT
#3330
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HOLY MOTHERFUCKING LRSL BLIZZCON ASDADFSGJDÖKFHÖDKFGH! CAN ANYONE GET UNLUCKIER THAN ME SDZGFP*LFÖSÖKRTZÖ WES
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SetGuitarsToKill
Profile Blog Joined December 2013
Canada28396 Posts
November 04 2014 05:11 GMT
#3331
On November 04 2014 01:56 Luolis wrote:
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HOLY MOTHERFUCKING LRSL BLIZZCON ASDADFSGJDÖKFHÖDKFGH! CAN ANYONE GET UNLUCKIER THAN ME SDZGFP*LFÖSÖKRTZÖ WES


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Dont' feel too bad... you could be me. I was on the opposite side of the bracket AND lost out terribly first round. i know it's disappointing but at least you did kind of well and had a hope
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Luolis
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
Finland7115 Posts
November 04 2014 10:19 GMT
#3332
On November 04 2014 14:11 SetGuitarsToKill wrote:
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On November 04 2014 01:56 Luolis wrote:
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HOLY MOTHERFUCKING LRSL BLIZZCON ASDADFSGJDÖKFHÖDKFGH! CAN ANYONE GET UNLUCKIER THAN ME SDZGFP*LFÖSÖKRTZÖ WES


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Dont' feel too bad... you could be me. I was on the opposite side of the bracket AND lost out terribly first round. i know it's disappointing but at least you did kind of well and had a hope

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I guess so. Just disheartening to lose 2 games because of being ridiculously unlucky :/
pro cheese woman / Its never Sunny in Finland. Perkele / FinnishStarcraftTrivia
Meavis
Profile Blog Joined September 2011
Netherlands1300 Posts
November 04 2014 10:50 GMT
#3333
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On October 31 2014 07:58 Grumbels wrote:
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On October 30 2014 12:53 Djzapz wrote:
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Watching the Colbert Report with Anita Sarkeesian and he's just handling this crap like any other dumbshit media outlet that doesn't know anything about anything, just with his likable Colbert persona... Anita's just tossing wild guesses presented as truth again and he doesn't have anything to say in response so he just kind of is neutral to it.

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Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart are disappointing to watch every time you actually know something about whatever they're covering, especially if it's not one of their pet topics on which they're more informed. As an avid cycling fan I was anticipating those shows covering the Lance Armstrong scandal because I wanted to hear the funny insights, but it was just generic jokes and misinformation. They're comedy shows that appeal to a mainstream audience, they don't serve to inform and are mostly enjoyable as vehicles for the hosts' comedic persona.


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Am I unreasonable for expecting other people in this apartment building to not have loud parties at 1am on weekdays? I complained about it and my downstairs neighbor was irate that I had done so and barged over to our half of the building to question whatever insidious individual wrote the anonymous complaint letter. I confessed and she said I was a coward and that I shouldn't complain about these things given students live here. I've seen her a few times since just in passing and she always looks at me with suspicion. I swear she has to be a complete sociopath to have the nerve to not take any responsibility for all the incessant and ever-present noise she makes and to instead place me at fault. As if I'm some villain for expecting people to be more or less quiet in the middle of a Wednesday night when I have to get up at 8am next morning. This is the irony, I can't sleep because of her noise making, but she can sleep perfectly well as she's not bothered by a nagging conscience since she doesn't have one. I hope she suffers.


pretty sure you can file a complaint at the local authority's about this.
"Not you."
OtherWorld
Profile Blog Joined October 2013
France17333 Posts
November 04 2014 16:43 GMT
#3334
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Sometimes I wish I could just sleep, play Starcraft and guitar and be good with it
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The_Templar
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
your Country52797 Posts
November 04 2014 16:48 GMT
#3335
On November 05 2014 01:43 OtherWorld wrote:
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Sometimes I wish I could just sleep, play Starcraft and guitar and be good with it

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I know what you mean. I am currently in between being stressed about two of my classes, and I wish I could forget about it and compose/play sc2 endlessly. But the universe doesn't conspire to make any individual person happy, so I have to keep working
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KtJ
Profile Joined October 2014
United States3514 Posts
November 04 2014 21:03 GMT
#3336
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that anxiety that i might not be good enough to be a progamer
"I thought I destroyed my CC but it seemed like the only thing I destroyed was Idra's mentality."
Skynx
Profile Blog Joined January 2013
Turkey7150 Posts
November 04 2014 22:36 GMT
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Those fucking dishes why can't they clean themselves we're in fucking 2014 cmon
"When seagulls follow the troller, it is because they think sardines will be thrown into the sea. Thank you very much" - King Cantona | STX 4 eva
SatedSC2
Profile Blog Joined March 2014
England3012 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-11-04 23:49:45
November 04 2014 23:48 GMT
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Fecalfeast
Profile Joined January 2010
Canada11355 Posts
November 05 2014 00:15 GMT
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What happened to my game? In BW I was on my way up the ICCUP ranks and while still not anywhere near good, I was someone people actually were afraid to play at local lans/tournaments and was almost never out of the top 3. I picked up SC2 and during beta was in whatever the top league was. (plat or diamond or both maybe?) I ended up playing MOBAs seriously for a while (HON/DOTA2) until HotS came out and I picked SC2 back up. I wound up in plat (I hadn't played for 2 seasons so my MMr reset) but was promoted to diamond fairly quickly and felt really good about getting back into the game. I remember the day so clearly because the next 3 games after my promotion were awful losses followed by a game crash. Wouldn't you know it, the next game my power went out(for serious) and when I played my next game and lost, I was demoted right back to plat. (I think this was the season before they removed demotions)

So I quit the game for a while, salt pouring from every orifice on my body.

Cut to this season. I got placed silver, quickly made it to gold, then platinum and was sitting at rank1 plat with a ~+30 record before I started playing diamond players again.

Now I'm at 50% winrate and around rank 10 plat. Why is there a wall here? When did my brain break up with my hands? I watch my replays and see my mistakes and have even had my masters friend coach me both online and in person but yet here I sit, rotting away in plat. I play creep spread+inject trainers, I play vs easy AI to practice build orders, I use my second monitor for build orders and scouting notes....
I have games where I play out of my mind and demolish people and then 15minute games where I have >3:00 supply block and >1000 average unspent resources. Maybe I really am just getting old?
There's always next season, I guess.
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DepressedOne
Profile Blog Joined September 2014
United States190 Posts
November 05 2014 00:53 GMT
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I feel like I've gotten so slow. I'm also sad that both the times I've gotten to C+ on the iccup ladder were somewhat sketchy. I just hit C+ again actually but only because I had played a bunch of games against a bnet friend who I tried to go scouts against vs. his Zerg. Then when he was ready for the milking I kept on going for 2 gate which countered his speedling opening. The game that got me to C+ was against this C- noob called Heartbeat. His TvZ is god awful so I managed to beat him, a matchup I don't feel too sure about. The first time i got to C+ was by proxy 2 gating, no change at all. The second time I did go Zerg but I got to C+ by noob bashing this D rank noob. I was MASSIVELY behind from my failed 5 pool but somehow he noobed out and I lucked out and punched out the win. I've always compared myself to others always placing myself below or above out of insecurity, and while I may not have been as good as the person I admired and sought to reach the same heights as I won't ever know if we were ever equivalent in skill. Plus, that person's pretty noob now because real life, while I'm just rotting away playing StarCraft. It's funny to think about the little world I used to live in on east server. No zergs I knew could stop the 2 gate proxy strategy this one protoss always used...Now in retrospect they all were pretty low skilled. Even the older players I met that I thought were pro back in 2011 are people I can be beat by myself regularly today.

I've also been going through this identity crisis because I can't decide whether to go 3 hatch muta or 3 hatch lurker anymore vs. T. I end up just being mediocre at both rather than playing one style really well and the other style terribly....but that's the best way to play. I decided to hunker down and play 3 hatch muta. The korean Terrans really love to do their mech switches. It's tough.
Me sad.
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