EPTYesterday I felt a feeling of pride and accomplishment for the first time in many years:
1 year of practice:
ME
![[image loading]](https://i.imgur.com/5isTHlO.png)
FLASH
![[image loading]](https://i.imgur.com/IeH0Dyj.png)
Still a long way to go...
My life has not been easy and my health is not good
Thank you SCBW community you have always been there for me and helped me through so much many dark times. Good luck with your goals for 2025 and may all your dreams come true
~Fighting! =)
On June 28 2025 22:12 Kraekkling wrote:
you also had way less absolute and relative NULL actions, literally more efficient with your clicks than Flash
you also had way less absolute and relative NULL actions, literally more efficient with your clicks than Flash
i didnt know what NULL meant. do you also know what "base" means?
thank you for sharing, it is some encouragement, in the most soul-destroying place (that of being a "foreigner")
because i look at my chart and think "wow its actually kindof amazing"
but gosh there are so many toxic people especially on twitch
i am at a crossroads
i have worked very hard practicing mechanics, and i think i am very close to reaching pro-level mechanics.
i dont throw that term around lightly
i am at the point now where i feel competent that i can handle 80-90% of mechanically demanding situations fluidly
and sometimes i feel like im flying (the way it looks like bisu/effort/flash are flying...)
but i am not quite there yet
and also
i am limited by lack of game knowledge and korean language barrier, and need a dedicated coach
on the positive side:
i can get tr20-24 with koreans so practice environment is good
i have a solid base of fundamentals and just need lots of practice
SO
i will either quit now and forever and end the dream
or go YOLO and see how far I can go..join a korean university...something
maybe answer is less chatter...less self-doubt...more focus and more faith in myself
...
so this was my blog
let me know your thoughts =)
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please no inconsequential criticism about punctuation/grammar/formatting...thanks for your concerns but i just didnt care to make another aesthetic OP
