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So over the past few weeks I've been feeling a bit down but than I stood up, and I said "Fuck am I doing...?" I took one good look around at myself, my room was a mess, every blind was closed, it was constantly dark, I set my computer to a darker background, and I've barely spoken to any friends other than my gaming buddies on skype.
Basically I had a moment of epiphany "Fuck, who WANTS to live like this?" I said, so I started cleaning up my room, I sold a few things I no longer needed and I cleansed all areas of my physical life of things that I don't need.
My next step was calling up a few buddies and organizing some events. My best friend who I've adored for years, I'm taking her out for a dinner, I don't give a fuck if she has a boyfriend (who is a total fuck up... I wish "Paige" would see that, but that's a different story), I'm going to hang out with my best friend.
So back to calling and organizing. I've called up a few friends who I'm pretty close with and we used to kick back and make jokes, and tell stories of how we all made something in our life worth it. So I've arranged for us a winter camping trip, who camps in the snow? no one. I don't need nice weather to enjoy company, and quite a few of the people coming along and single women, so they might just have to huddle closer in the tent to me. We also are bringing a long some booze cause hey... it's not a party until you get the light-weight of your friends drunk off just 2-shots of tequila.
So my question (cause I'm sure most of you are having some-what of a hard time) What are you going to do about it? I went from "fuck it, I hate life" to "Fuck it, what am I doing sitting here?"
some of you, i'm aware may not have that ambition but why not get off the TL forums for a day and see what you can accomplish. I had a summer fling with a girl cause my net was out and I decided to go for a walk downtown and I wanted to get some coffee.
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I'm entirely sure what this thread means exactly, but I'm glad your out of your bad mindset. Having a clean room and feeling better about your life probably increases your ability to play star craft 2. After all some of the most successful star craft 2 players have a posative mindset on sc2. Probably why those koreans are so good, nothing seems to bother them
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I had a depression that lasted about a year that ended a few months ago. It had to do with times changing, and you know how your old close friends kind of move on, and the things you used to do either aren't fun anymore or no one wants to do them. Finally, a year later, I got a summer job and wow that changed everything. It was almost as if right when I got the job my life changed. Now I'm pretty happy with myself. The whole situation really reminded me of the recent southpark where Stan becomes depressed because things are changing, but in the end he learns to accept the changes and move on and he's happy (of course until everything changes back to how it was, but that was more of a joke).
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Props to you, sir. I was admitedly at a similar phase for awhile. No denying some sunshine can make things all the better for awhile.
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On October 26 2011 06:19 Cress wrote:
I'm entirely sure what this thread means exactly, but I'm glad your out of your bad mindset. Having a clean room and feeling better about your life probably increases your ability to play star craft 2. After all some of the most successful star craft 2 players have a posative mindset on sc2. Probably why those koreans are so good, nothing seems to bother them
who needs sc2? or the controller you play it on? I got dinner plans and a booze trip in the next few weeks, way more fun than scoring ladder points.
but yeah, i thought that maybe someone who feels somber might come across the post and be like "fuck yeah! I dont need a computer either."
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welcome to my life. spent 4 years inside my bedroom, only went outside a handful of times. playing broodwar, world of warcraft, counterstrike all day. thought i was never going to change. now i'm 20 years old, have a girlfriend of one year, plenty of good friends, work enough to pay rent/bills! i just need to get started on school, but that's another hurdle entirely.
just wanted to say, it doesn't take much to go from depressed, misanthrope to happy, sociable lovable guy!
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One of the symptoms of people who suffer from depression however is the unwillingness and lack of interest in those activities you previously enjoyed. The best thing you can do when suffering from prolonged depression is to speak with a counselor (if you are in college there are likely professionals who can give you therapy for free on campus). It's really hard for people with serious depression to be able to pull themselves out of it given the effect of depression on motivation, energy, etc.
But I agree doing those things are helpful. I just think it's difficult for depressed people to simply just do it if they are already in a certain state. Sometimes help from therapy or just support from another person is what really can get you up and going and doing fun activities again.
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I love life.
I wouldn't change it for anything. I have great friends and do decently in school.
I come home and play Starcraft or I go out. I do whatever the fuck I feel like. I believe it's important to not get too worried about things because at the end of the day, everything will sort itself out.
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Yeah, I think that I might be leaning towards the stage of total collapse. Nothing seems to matter anymore, but hey-just keep going.
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On October 26 2011 06:25 pStar wrote:
I love life.
I wouldn't change it for anything. I have great friends and do decently in school.
I come home and play Starcraft or I go out. I do whatever the fuck I feel like. I believe it's important to not get too worried about things because at the end of the day, everything will sort itself out.
Also what you said about girls, but I'm dead sexy. OP ask your friend out.
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On October 26 2011 06:25 boesthius wrote:
This is a great blog, I think I'll write something similar to this soon. Snapping out of that mindset can be hard, but once you do it feels absolutely great.
I agree, great blog. And write whatever it is you're going to write. I'm struggling with some things, and everything like this helps me understand a bit more.
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I love this post sir. I believe I may be going through this phrase. What sucks is that when I do decide to do something I never do : /. I mean I still interact go partying, and meet girls. I just don't enjoy doing it at the moment. I don't even write poetry or short stories anymore. These are all things I love X_X
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Ill be following this with interest....
For some reason life seems really hard for me these days. Im in the hardest period of my life, but i cant seem to figure out why. I have a nice place to live, friends, school and a job, but for some reason i cant see the positive things about my life. Im worrying about everything, even things thats faar away, and wont affect me until a couple of years from now. Im negative and have lost confidence in myself. Im stressed about girls, even though im seeing a girl, and things are going decently... I dont know why, i just need to break this bad cycle and start enjoying life again. Everyone i talk to tells me itll be okay, and things will work out sooner or later, and im sure they are correct, i just cant see it happening right now. Ive been like this for several months now, its really, really fustrating. Maybe these dark periods just occurs sometimes, and maybe you just need to wait for them to disappear again, i dont know. Glad to see you got better.
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On October 26 2011 06:27 AGsc wrote:Show nested quote +On October 26 2011 06:25 pStar wrote:
I love life.
I wouldn't change it for anything. I have great friends and do decently in school.
I come home and play Starcraft or I go out. I do whatever the fuck I feel like. I believe it's important to not get too worried about things because at the end of the day, everything will sort itself out. Also what you said about girls, but I'm dead sexy. OP ask your friend out.
she's dating a loser, well, living with him, no luck for me, but who cares? i can atleast take her out for dinner, her boyfriend doesnt have a job, and they're trying to move out of his mothers home, oh well though.
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On October 26 2011 06:43 Rokit5 wrote:
Ill be following this with interest....
For some reason life seems really hard for me these days. Im in the hardest period of my life, but i cant seem to figure out why. I have a nice place to live, friends, school and a job, but for some reason i cant see the positive things about my life. Im worrying about everything, even things thats faar away, and wont affect me until a couple of years from now. Im negative and have lost confidence in myself. Im stressed about girls, even though im seeing a girl, and things are going decently... I dont know why, i just need to break this bad cycle and start enjoying life again. Everyone i talk to tells me itll be okay, and things will work out sooner or later, and im sure they are correct, i just cant see it happening right now. Ive been like this for several months now, its really, really fustrating. Maybe these dark periods just occurs sometimes, and maybe you just need to wait for them to disappear again, i dont know. Glad to see you got better.
just change things up, instead of waiting, go get it! I cleaned and organized things with some good friends.
what i might do in your situation is go for a free excursion around town, do things you normally wouldnt as long as they're free. make it into a project. Such as i did one of these, and I found that I overlook small things, like just sitting in a bar that's palying music, or going through the elevator at a parking garage. whatever is free, do it, it makes it a bit more fun that way.
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This is a very superficial method. It's good that you're going to start taking care of yourself and trying things, but I also sense a lot of pitfalls with your mindset. You are really trying to fulfill a certain ideal and I think that's unhealthy. Just in the tone of your post, this ingenuous, overly-decisive machismo... It lacks the internal motivation necessary for lasting and fulfilling change. IM GONNA GO TO PARTY AND BE A COOL GUY AND ASK THAT GIRL OUT BLERP BLERP. Wow is your life a b-movie comedy?
Good that you've decided to stop being a worthless slob, but be wary of the short-term value external motivators give. Maybe along the way with this shamelessly idealistic persona you will discover some lasting internal motivators and move healthily into the next stage of your life.
Maybe you were a little drunk while writing this, or maybe you are naive to the disappointment that comes from adopting a prescribed personality. Maybe you're actually this shallow and it really makes sense to you. gl gl whatever it is. Don't go back to being worthless if things don't go exactly as you hope, just try more things and learn a little about life.
PSPS: Brood War isn't a waste of time  Don't knock it just because you are trying to do something new. Hobbies make people interesting.
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Exactly the mindset everyone should try to have.
I wish you luck with that lovely lady of yours.
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So lately I've realized I don't give a shit about hanging out with other people and I just want to sit in my room and play video games. Kind of the opposite of the OP. All my friends do is drink and try to pick up chicks, which is SO last year for me. I am seeing a girl but I'm not sure if she's right for me either, because well, bitches be crazy.
Does that mean I'm "depressed"? I don't feel unhappy... I just don't want to hang out with my RL friends, I have a lot more fun playing LoL or WoW with my e-friends.
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And why the heck can't I rate this blog?
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