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Tadzio
Profile Blog Joined October 2006
3340 Posts
Last Edited: 2008-02-02 01:00:24
February 02 2008 00:59 GMT
#1
I've been re-evaluating my life lately, its value, its potential. Things don't look terribly good. Any thoughts out there on improving quality in life, generally? Note: I have a pretty severe anxiety disorder as a result of PTSD and the panic attacks trigger more often around large groups of people (though they do sometimes occur while I'm alone but in a public place), so I'm limited in that way.

I don't need anything terribly ground-breaking. Just interested in exploring a few ideas that don't come out of my own head. Cheap (money-wise) ideas are most attractive to me, I don't have a whole lot of leisure moneys.

Sorry, this is a stupid blog, but atm I don't really care. I need to break this 'bout of depression before I spend the next few months feeling sorry for myself.

Thanks.

XCetron
Profile Joined November 2006
5226 Posts
February 02 2008 01:04 GMT
#2
all thx to shield battery.
Lemonwalrus
Profile Blog Joined August 2006
United States5465 Posts
February 02 2008 01:19 GMT
#3
If it is a problem that you are trying to figure out a solution to, I've often found that throwing myself into some form of physical labor allows my mind the time it needs to work its way through the problem, but that might just be me. Either way, I wish you the best.
stenole
Profile Blog Joined April 2004
Norway869 Posts
February 02 2008 01:44 GMT
#4
Sometimes it's nice to try something you've maybe thought would be fun or interesting but at the same time would be so unlike you. I worked one year at a kindergarden/daycare when I was 17 after going through a tough depression. I had never given much thought to working with kids and it seemed like the least likely thing I would normally get involved in. But one day I got offered the opportunity, and I took it. I would say that year gave me the most improvement in mood and character. It made me aware that I have more choices available to me than I thought, and being exposed to all those kids, I think I learned to not look so far ahead and to forget the dissapointments of yesterday and generally learn to be more joyful about the simple things.

So to sum it up, do something you normally wouldn't do. Break routines. Find the options you don't see from where you are now. I don't know much about PTSD, anxiety disorder or panic attacks. But all those 3 sound serious enough to seek out some professional help...
0xDEADBEEF
Profile Joined September 2007
Germany1235 Posts
Last Edited: 2008-02-02 02:17:31
February 02 2008 02:15 GMT
#5
It may sound nerdy but this helps me often:
think about your life as a game and you as a RPG character. Now just do that what you don't want to do but you know you should do, and believe that it improves you, whether you like it or not. Once you've done it, you say to yourself that you did good and that "your skills are improving". You know, like gaining experience points and levelling up. Everyone likes that.
Well... that's about it. It really helps me getting things done or not being afraid of new situations.
fanatacist
Profile Blog Joined August 2007
10319 Posts
February 02 2008 03:22 GMT
#6
I can't wait until the na.Inky response to this.
Peace~
Day[9]
Profile Blog Joined April 2003
United States7366 Posts
February 02 2008 04:05 GMT
#7
i like doing art!!!

that's a fun way to be creative .

i also really really really like exploring new genres of music (mainly electronica) and letting my ears really explore the sounds.

hope all is well!! <333 !!!
Whenever I encounter some little hitch, or some of my orbs get out of orbit, nothing pleases me so much as to make the crooked straight and crush down uneven places. www.day9.tv
fusionsdf
Profile Blog Joined June 2006
Canada15390 Posts
February 02 2008 05:00 GMT
#8
I just like to sit and think, sort of let my mind wander. But I dont get depressed very often sooo
SKT_Best: "I actually chose Protoss because it was so hard for me to defeat Protoss as a Terran. When I first started Brood War, my main race was Terran."
BottleAbuser
Profile Blog Joined December 2007
Korea (South)1888 Posts
February 02 2008 08:00 GMT
#9
Off yourself if you're feeling bad enough. Seriously. I'm not trying to be mean; some people can feel so bad it's worse than being alive.

You're still here? That means you have something to live for. Figure out what it is.
Compilers are like boyfriends, you miss a period and they go crazy on you.
Tadzio
Profile Blog Joined October 2006
3340 Posts
Last Edited: 2008-02-02 08:47:11
February 02 2008 08:45 GMT
#10
You wouldn't say that if I were a family member or close friend. No one said shit about being suicidal, but if I had been, you might've killed me. Use the time you're banned from my blog to suck a big fat cock. Pussy-ass bitch.
Nazarene
Profile Blog Joined October 2005
Denmark996 Posts
February 02 2008 10:07 GMT
#11
You said you thought about 'your life's potential'. My advice is that you make some goals for your future.
You could for example study harder to get better grades, assuming you're in a place where that matters.
It could also be something physical, like losing weight, getting in better shape, looking better.
Perhaps get a job, so instead of sitting at the computer, you would get out some more, talk to people, earn your own money.

If you make goals for your future, make sure you can keep track of your progress (making smaller goals leading up to the 'big' one). This way, whenever you reach one of your small goals, you can be satisfied with your effort, in whatever area it may be.
Milton Friedman
Profile Blog Joined June 2006
98 Posts
February 02 2008 11:23 GMT
#12
On February 02 2008 17:00 BottleAbuser wrote:
Off yourself if you're feeling bad enough. Seriously. I'm not trying to be mean; some people can feel so bad it's worse than being alive.

You're still here? That means you have something to live for. Figure out what it is.


As I said in some other post the will to live isn't linked to "something to live for" but rather the evolutionary fundamental that those without a strong desire to carry on living will be taken out of the gene pool until only the ones willing to put up with all kinds of hardship are left.

As for living, I keep thinking of something Che Guevara may or may not have said: "Your life is not worth living until you have found something worth dying for." I think the you're going to have to find something you're really passionate about. Of course, I don't know what you currently enjoy or what you have and haven't tried but maybe you need to just force yourself to get involved with different college societies, or read up about some pastimes and try them out. Otherwise your hobbies may merely act as simple distractions from the emptiness of life.

Also, chronic apathy could be a result of your personality or characteristics. Maybe there is something about you which you feel should change to start enjoying life more? Again, I don't know you so I can easily be completely wrong here. However, I've always considered personal redemption to be thoroughly cathartic.
Zherak
Profile Blog Joined November 2007
Norway256 Posts
February 02 2008 12:45 GMT
#13
Find something fun.

Do it, alot.

Like, buy a guitar, learn to play guitar really well, post your videos on YouTube, feel good about yourself.

Find something you enjoy doing. Major bonus if you afterwards can say to yourself, hey, look, I've learned something.
The bowsprit got mixed with the rudder sometimes...
JensOfSweden
Profile Blog Joined February 2007
Cameroon1767 Posts
February 02 2008 15:25 GMT
#14
Work out.

Paint/play guitar or something artsy

Get wasted with friends
<3 Nada [On and off TL.net since 2002
lugggy
Profile Blog Joined October 2006
450 Posts
February 02 2008 22:38 GMT
#15
We require more minerals.

No, this is a serious post. You have to secure a way of living or you're going to be a slave. There are right strategies to go about this, and if they seem out of reach you have to talk to the right people who can be guides. Otherwise you're going to be a slave. And while there are ways to be happy as a slave (and problems you will encounter even if you earn non-slave status), it seems like you should build up some strength in this area if you need to focus on something.
A little effort please, this isnt a forum for just posting every link on the internet.
nA.Inky
Profile Blog Joined October 2004
United States794 Posts
February 02 2008 23:54 GMT
#16
Your post is very vague, so I can only offer very general advise, and a lot of it - or all of it - may not apply to you at all. If you want to be more specific, perhaps I or someone else can offer you better help. Happy to talk with you privately or here. Anyway...

I posted some things that I think may be helpful in "Life is Fair?" blog, ideas that center around coping with emotional pain.

For depression, I recommend:

1) Fish oil and/or flax seed daily - both contain essential fats that help your brain (which is made up mostly of fat), and, consequently, your mood. I do this and it has helped my past depressions immensely. Flax seeds must be grinded up into powder or else chewed VERY thoroughly.

2) Regular exercise - Helps mood and general health. Endorphins definitely elevate the mood. Improves self esteem. I recommend cycling, as it takes care of exercise and transportation, plus saves money and helps the environment. I cycle almost everywhere I go, and cycling has helped me in so many ways. It is very important to my life. I can't recommend it enough.

3) Sunlight - get sun light as much as possible, on as much of your body as possible, but never burn.

4) Sleep - Try to get to bed before midnight and make sure you get at least 7 hours sleep per night.

5) Human interaction - reach out to people and make friends. Be outgoing, even if it doesn't come naturally. Friendship is one of the best things to resist depression.

6) Routine/structure may help. I think it is possible to go overboard with this, and then wind up depressed again. My schedule of 25 hours of work and 6 hours of classes helps me. I don't want more, or much less.

7) If you are using drugs, you should consider scaling back or quitting, if you can. Alcohol and cannabis are both strongly correlated with depression. As a heavy user of both drugs (in the past), I can say reducing my use to nearly zero has been a big improvement.

Beyond this, it sounds like you could use some hobbies. Think about what might interest you. No one can really tell you what will work for you, but my usual suggestions involve art or music, probably because those work well for me. I also hike weekly, and enjoy games like billiards, hackeysack, and reading about things that interest me. You can look into joining groups or else teach yourself something new.

Try to get out of your house and into something new. Don't waste time in front of the TV or computer so much. I think that will help you also.

One last thing to consider, sometimes helping others is a GREAT way to overcome depression and bolster self esteem. When you focus on other people, you can forget yourself and your pain.
Email (use instead of PM): InkMeister at aol dot com AIM: InkMeister
Romance_us
Profile Joined March 2006
Seychelles1806 Posts
Last Edited: 2008-02-03 16:39:16
February 03 2008 16:37 GMT
#17
On February 03 2008 08:54 nA.Inky wrote:
Your post is very vague, so I can only offer very general advise, and a lot of it - or all of it - may not apply to you at all. If you want to be more specific, perhaps I or someone else can offer you better help. Happy to talk with you privately or here. Anyway...

I posted some things that I think may be helpful in "Life is Fair?" blog, ideas that center around coping with emotional pain.

For depression, I recommend:

1) Fish oil and/or flax seed daily - both contain essential fats that help your brain (which is made up mostly of fat), and, consequently, your mood. I do this and it has helped my past depressions immensely. Flax seeds must be grinded up into powder or else chewed VERY thoroughly.

2) Regular exercise - Helps mood and general health. Endorphins definitely elevate the mood. Improves self esteem. I recommend cycling, as it takes care of exercise and transportation, plus saves money and helps the environment. I cycle almost everywhere I go, and cycling has helped me in so many ways. It is very important to my life. I can't recommend it enough.

3) Sunlight - get sun light as much as possible, on as much of your body as possible, but never burn.

4) Sleep - Try to get to bed before midnight and make sure you get at least 7 hours sleep per night.

5) Human interaction - reach out to people and make friends. Be outgoing, even if it doesn't come naturally. Friendship is one of the best things to resist depression.

6) Routine/structure may help. I think it is possible to go overboard with this, and then wind up depressed again. My schedule of 25 hours of work and 6 hours of classes helps me. I don't want more, or much less.

7) If you are using drugs, you should consider scaling back or quitting, if you can. Alcohol and cannabis are both strongly correlated with depression. As a heavy user of both drugs (in the past), I can say reducing my use to nearly zero has been a big improvement.

Beyond this, it sounds like you could use some hobbies. Think about what might interest you. No one can really tell you what will work for you, but my usual suggestions involve art or music, probably because those work well for me. I also hike weekly, and enjoy games like billiards, hackeysack, and reading about things that interest me. You can look into joining groups or else teach yourself something new.

Try to get out of your house and into something new. Don't waste time in front of the TV or computer so much. I think that will help you also.

One last thing to consider, sometimes helping others is a GREAT way to overcome depression and bolster self esteem. When you focus on other people, you can forget yourself and your pain.


No....... -_-

Just because that's the case for you, you cannot conclude a correlation. We need much more cases, and for me, it is NOT true. Maybe you're emotionally insecure.
Notes and feelings, numbers and reason. The ultimate equilibrium.
nA.Inky
Profile Blog Joined October 2004
United States794 Posts
February 03 2008 17:03 GMT
#18
Romance, I'd love to respond to your post, but you don't state at all what it is that you disagree with or find lacking. If you would be more specific, we could discuss in more depth...

It sounds like you disagree with my entire post. This is, frankly, sort of amazing to me, given that much of the advice I gave is conventional, and yet the advice I gave is extremely varied, and is aimed at addressing depression on many separate levels.

I did not write this post based solely on my own experience, but rather on extensive reading on the subject.

Happy to discuss if you have a more substantive criticism. Also, if you have suggestions as to how to improve the quality of life, or to reduce/treat depression, why not mention them? That is the point of the thread.

Email (use instead of PM): InkMeister at aol dot com AIM: InkMeister
nA.Inky
Profile Blog Joined October 2004
United States794 Posts
February 03 2008 17:05 GMT
#19
Ah - you were perhaps pointing at what I said about cannabis. Again, what I said is based on more than my own experience, including scientific journals. There is no doubt about correlation between cannabis and depression, the question is whether or not cannabis causes depression, or whether depressed people seek cannabis as a way to self-medicate. I believe it is potentially both.
Email (use instead of PM): InkMeister at aol dot com AIM: InkMeister
Romance_us
Profile Joined March 2006
Seychelles1806 Posts
Last Edited: 2008-02-03 19:12:55
February 03 2008 19:08 GMT
#20
On February 04 2008 02:05 nA.Inky wrote:
Ah - you were perhaps pointing at what I said about cannabis. Again, what I said is based on more than my own experience, including scientific journals. There is no doubt about correlation between cannabis and depression, the question is whether or not cannabis causes depression, or whether depressed people seek cannabis as a way to self-medicate. I believe it is potentially both.


No stoner I have EVER met or seen has depression via marijuana consumption. Maybe there is just a strange phenomena where I live. If you become depressed, it is YOUR fault, not marijuana's. I'm sorry, but I just don't possible see how it can cause depression, lol...

Take a look at THIS

LOL, and please observe the PRO(YES) section. I quote:

Thomas Edward Radecki, M.D., J.D. states on his website, as of 3/9/06:

"Depression is a common side-effect of smoking marijuana. The evidence of a cause-effect relationship is very solid....

I have seen dozens and dozens of patients who have become seriously mentally ill thanks to the brain damage caused by marijuana. It is a major cause of depression and schizophrenia in our society as well as a factor in preventing our psychiatric treatments from working effectively.

It changes the personality, damages the memory, seriously impairs school performance, and causes auto crashes and death for far too many individuals."

What medical journals are you looking at?


Notes and feelings, numbers and reason. The ultimate equilibrium.
nA.Inky
Profile Blog Joined October 2004
United States794 Posts
Last Edited: 2008-02-03 20:55:41
February 03 2008 20:53 GMT
#21
Romance, it has been a couple years since I looked at scientific journals on the matter. I can't quote any sources. You can do your own digging if you like, or take my lack of citation as an admission of being wrong (doesn't matter to me, I'm not invested in this debate, I'm just trying to help the depressed.) I found what I found via a search of JStor (I think) via my college library (online).

I believe cannabis was a significant contributor to the depression and anxiety disorder I developed a couple years ago (I've since recovered completely.) I also know of people here on TL.net who have privately written me to say that cannabis has caused their mental problems. Searching the internet, one finds many accounts of users who say the same. To me there is no question about it.

Most people assume I am an anti-drug crusader because of the things I say on TL.net. I do infact use cannabis on occasion (once a month or so, in low doses), even to this day, and I very occasionally use psychedelics (psilocybin - once or twice a year, typically low doses). My stance is much more nuanced than people give me credit for.

My only interest here is in helping people who are having problems. If you are depressed and use weed a lot, my sincere advice is to quit, or at least greatly reduce your use.
Email (use instead of PM): InkMeister at aol dot com AIM: InkMeister
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