EPTas a child, i developed myofascial adhesions from being spanked in the butt and kicked in the chest by my korean father. i also had other injuries from rec soccer to my abdomen. this messed up my pelvis and thoracic and disrupted the vagal nerve as well as my gut biome and the connection to my vaginal biome. I took progestin in birth control pills starting in my early 20s and then transitioned to a hormonal IUD in my late 20s, which suppressed ovulation and progesterone production, which meant i couldn't benefit from my own "calming hormones" (GABA etc) due to not being able to create the metabolite allopregnanolone.
i have been running on testosterone and phyotoestrogen my whole adult life, and not enough to be happy or calm consistently. that's why i feel like a dude in my head but mostly androgynous.
i've fixed the physical alignment issues and am getting proper nutrition to finally build out my female hormonal system to its full potential. it's going to be really interesting. i've never felt biochemically stable or really internally feminine my whole life, and now it's going to happen.
