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October 3rd, 2019,11:47 PM EST
Hey! It's me, David.
It's fall now, which means Halloween and Thanksgiving. I'm in college now, so that's pretty big. I'd like to think things are going fairly well for me so far: I've made a few friends, joined the improv and Quidditch clubs (I would have joined the Smash club too, but it was on the same day as improv), and decided to study game design.
But there's just one thing: I'm still trying to figure out what I want and who I am. Should I really be playing Smash? Should I really study game design? Should I really be doing what I am right now? What am I supposed to be doing with my life? I'd imagine this question is pretty normal for any freshman in college, but it still happens comes up sometimes.
So far, I think I've got a decent grasp on what I want to do. I want to be a game designer (I want to specifically design either an RPG or a fighting game, or some other esports-ready game), and I want to be able to go to Smash/FGC stuff as long as I am able. But there's always that one question in the back of my head: is this really for me?
And to be brutally honest: I think so, but I'm not 100% sure yet.
If anything, I'm really grateful to be able to write on here, it gives me a place to express myself, how I feel and what I'm going through. To everyone who reads and replies to my blogs, and anyone who I've talked to about any personal issues/struggles:
Thank you. I appreciate you more than you know, and you mean so, so much to me. \
I consider myself somewhat spiritual, so I've tried to reach out to whatever god is out there. Hopefully I get some sort of sign soon, if they exist. If anything, I want to know what I'm really supposed to be doing, I'd rather know that sooner than later.
I remember I used to tell myself that I had to make people happy, no matter what, even if it was something that I fucking hated. Looking back on this, I think it kind of turned me into something I wasn't, and eventually I decided to do what I do best: being me. I think a lot of people could use this advice too.
~David
October 4th, 2019, 12:14 AM EST
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TLADT24920 Posts
You'll get a chance to find that out in college so don't sweat it and enjoy the ride. Best of luck!
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United States11903 Posts
If you ever decide game design is not for you, having CS courses under your belt would enable you to transition into a high paying tech job. Either way good luck in college!
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Whatever you study you'll be learning valuable skills. Work ethic itself is probably one of the most valuable. So don't worry too much about finding The One Path... many people end up switching around careers later. But yeah, enjoy!
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United States996 Posts
for the most part, college is just about learning how to think and developing yourself socially. as long as you get a degree during undergrad in something even tangentially close to what you want to do, you'll be fine. switching to an area that is far outside of your major generally remains pretty doable as well.
the other side of that is if you have lofty goals, finding a way to get into labs/volunteer jobs in your field of interest during school will put you ahead of most people. if you explore enough (read that mostly as just making relationships with your professors and talking to them), most schools have the resources to get that kind of thing going.
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Canada2480 Posts
I would tell my younger self to minor in something that will have uses in a ton of different fields (math, statistics, CS) to allow for an easier transition in case you change your mind.
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I'm still trying to figure out what I want and who I am.
I've tried to reach out to whatever god is out there.
I pick out these two statements in case you are unaware that there is an obvious connection that can be made. You are forming a world view. Most people do, they develop a theory that works for them. Over 90% of the world population are religious. If you find a world view and people that share it and live in a society where it is acceptable, your brain can finally stop thinking and together you can hide with them from your fears.
Personally I do not think you are condemned to life-long-learning, redefining, finding, building and destroying yourself if you do not choose to do that. + Show Spoiler +However, many people have made that experience. So if they made the mistake of subscribing to a world view and become rigid in their view and the Kaleidoscope shifts stars into an unknown constellation, irreconcilable with their view, they find like minded people and join the KKK. Because destroying, finding and rebuilding yourself does not put a human at ease, as you are aware now.
I think besides these obvious solutions, one of the more weird approaches is to do away with human thought and realize, that instead of following these paths that have proven doable, do the unthinkable and evolve. Realize that even though the questions who am I and what is my purpose feel so natural and everybody is asking them, the most spectacular way to enjoy the ride is to understand why to better not ask them.
PS: I am painfully conscious I am directing what I wrote towards myself.
TL:DR Don't worry, just soliloquizing
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Remember whatever you're studying try to get work experience early whenever the chance. One of my biggest regrets as a professional in the services industry.
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United States10492 Posts
Work experiences and internships are going to be more important than any education you'll ever come by. The degree you'll get is mainly just to prove to people that you have some basic knowledge. When I was fresh out of my undergrad, I didn't get my job because of my degree or grades, but because of the internships and experiences that I had accumulated over the course of my college career. Look for those more imo.
Remember that college is trying to allow you to explore the most, as much as I might have doubts about the liberal arts idea of pushing everyone to try everything. But that being said, explore different avenues, join different clubs, see what is out there. I changed my major 4 times before settling on my current career path and professional schooling.
Keep calm, you have a long life ahead of you. Undergrad is a very short window, but one that you should take seriously and enjoy. Let the stress build up over the jobs/internships/graduate schooling you might end up doing. Good luck!
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Bisutopia19367 Posts
On October 07 2019 07:06 FlaShFTW wrote:
Work experiences and internships are going to be more important than any education you'll ever come by. The degree you'll get is mainly just to prove to people that you have some basic knowledge. When I was fresh out of my undergrad, I didn't get my job because of my degree or grades, but because of the internships and experiences that I had accumulated over the course of my college career. Look for those more imo.
Remember that college is trying to allow you to explore the most, as much as I might have doubts about the liberal arts idea of pushing everyone to try everything. But that being said, explore different avenues, join different clubs, see what is out there. I changed my major 4 times before settling on my current career path and professional schooling.
Keep calm, you have a long life ahead of you. Undergrad is a very short window, but one that you should take seriously and enjoy. Let the stress build up over the jobs/internships/graduate schooling you might end up doing. Good luck!
What degree did you end up get...wait let's take a step back! Who in their right mind hired you?
Sincerely,
A concerned netizen
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On October 08 2019 01:16 BisuDagger wrote:Show nested quote +On October 07 2019 07:06 FlaShFTW wrote:
Work experiences and internships are going to be more important than any education you'll ever come by. The degree you'll get is mainly just to prove to people that you have some basic knowledge. When I was fresh out of my undergrad, I didn't get my job because of my degree or grades, but because of the internships and experiences that I had accumulated over the course of my college career. Look for those more imo.
Remember that college is trying to allow you to explore the most, as much as I might have doubts about the liberal arts idea of pushing everyone to try everything. But that being said, explore different avenues, join different clubs, see what is out there. I changed my major 4 times before settling on my current career path and professional schooling.
Keep calm, you have a long life ahead of you. Undergrad is a very short window, but one that you should take seriously and enjoy. Let the stress build up over the jobs/internships/graduate schooling you might end up doing. Good luck! What degree did you end up get...wait let's take a step back! Who in their right mind hired you? Sincerely, A concerned netizen
I can vouch for what he said. I've found that my hands-on experience and networking were infinitely more valuable than any grades I got in class.
Enjoy your time in college, try everything (within reason), and don't be afraid to push your boundaries. My biggest regret was spending too much time in my room and the library and not enough time in clubs and with people.
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