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I don't think I'm as surprised as I should be. Being passive aggressive is an art form for some people. But in a professional environment, I'd expect professionalism. I've been at this architecture firm for going on 6 months and I've never been more miserable at a job before. I've worked in a wide variety of places for a wide variety of people. And I can honestly say, I've never hated a job more than the one I'm currently in.
I sit in an open office, in the corner, doing nothing. Nine hours a day. Five days a week. Just doing nothing but breathing air and collecting a check. I'm so miserable here, I'm making myself physically ill just by showing up. I listen to music to try and dull the boredom I feel. The clients? Nonexistent. The projects that were advertised? Bait and switch. The management? What is that?
I get the distinct feeling they are making it miserable on purpose to get me to leave. It makes no reason for me to not have something to do every day. I'm asking the interior designers for work because there isn't anything going on. I ask and I try to learn the system, but no one is teaching it. The boss won't give me the time of day. Won't even greet me when he's in the office. I don't think I've said more than 3 words to him in as many weeks.
Anyway, I have a job now, working another 9 hours after this one. It'll turn to part time in a week or so. It's at night, so I'll have my days to continue looking for something full-time. I spent a lot of time and money to study architecture and I plan to continue trying to practice it and learn it. Just not at this firm.
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download some podcasts, sit there chill, learn cool shit and at your own pace. Sounds like an opportunity for you to turn it to something interesting.
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On February 23 2018 03:56 YPang wrote:
download some podcasts, sit there chill, learn cool shit and at your own pace. Sounds like an opportunity for you to turn it to something interesting.
I sit in an open office plan, so my computer monitor is wide open. So rather than someone say something, I just stick to architecture and the quick check to TL.
Other than that, I try to keep personal life strictly away from work as much as possible.
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last time i had a full time job i was very happy when they didn't give me enough work to do. it gave me time to work on my own customers' stuff. once i built a big enough customer base i quit and made my employer 1 of my customers.
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I quit yesterday. I just couldn't take it any longer. I was going to wait until I put in another 2 weeks so I could have the paycheck.
The part time gig may turn into full time, which I'll ask about next time I go in. But at the moment, I'm fine with what I have. The money I have saved should cover rent for a month or two, plus the other job before it turns into part time will help with that. I'll make enough every month to cover rent, but other bills will probably start being a problem around month 3 of not having a full time job.
I intend on further developing my other projects so that I can, wishful thinking, have some kind of money flow coming in by mid-spring to early summer.
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go teach overseas man, it really sounds like you need some adventure
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On February 24 2018 14:52 Endymion wrote:
go teach overseas man, it really sounds like you need some adventure
I've been overseas. Did 3 years in Okinawa and 2 weeks in Tokyo. I can't afford to just up and leave again. I'm tired of doing that for the moment hahaha.
But if this year doesn't return dividends, then I'll probably jetset somewhere. I don't need adventure, I need stimulation. Maybe I'll smoke crack? /s
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Practicing Meditation would be a good thing in your case
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On February 25 2018 06:47 pebble444 wrote:
Practicing Meditation would be a good thing in your case
I bought a bonsai tree. I think that will give me some clarity and peace of mind.
I'm feeling anxious about getting older and not achieving some things. Pretty typical feeling, but I refuse to be resigned to the fate of most people and accept a dead end job.
I'm only 31 and I feel like another mid-life crisis is happening (first was at 20). I'm probably mentally exhausted but I don't take the time off to clear my mind and get a focus. I've got one now, but it's been a bit difficult to get back to the old days.
We'll see. In the mean time, I'm reworking my resume and going to add some more things to my portfolio, in the hopes it lands me a better gig somewhere in town sooner than later.
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Architecture is pretty brutal labor market-wise from what I understand, so maybe looking outside of town is something to consider? What's rooting you down in the first place, other than having already traveled?
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On February 25 2018 23:47 farvacola wrote:
Architecture is pretty brutal labor market-wise from what I understand, so maybe looking outside of town is something to consider? What's rooting you down in the first place, other than having already traveled?
Architecture is brutal. No doubt about that. But what's keeping me here is that I'm tired of moving. From place to place to place. I feel like since 2005, I haven't called one place home. I've kept moving.
And I don't have the money to up and move just like that at the moment. I've only been back since June, worked for 6 of those months. Paid off bills, gained new ones, etc. So relocating isn't possible at the moment.
I'm switching my focus back to computer technology and dabbling in furniture and product design. Also, picking up writing is another thing I want to get my hands back into soon.
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On February 24 2018 16:54 ZerOCoolSC2 wrote:Show nested quote +On February 24 2018 14:52 Endymion wrote:
go teach overseas man, it really sounds like you need some adventure I've been overseas. Did 3 years in Okinawa and 2 weeks in Tokyo. I can't afford to just up and leave again. I'm tired of doing that for the moment hahaha. But if this year doesn't return dividends, then I'll probably jetset somewhere. I don't need adventure, I need stimulation. Maybe I'll smoke crack? /s
well you know that you don't want to travel, and you don't want to do architecture.. what do you find stimulating??? you could try writing a book
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On February 26 2018 01:14 Endymion wrote:Show nested quote +On February 24 2018 16:54 ZerOCoolSC2 wrote:On February 24 2018 14:52 Endymion wrote:
go teach overseas man, it really sounds like you need some adventure I've been overseas. Did 3 years in Okinawa and 2 weeks in Tokyo. I can't afford to just up and leave again. I'm tired of doing that for the moment hahaha. But if this year doesn't return dividends, then I'll probably jetset somewhere. I don't need adventure, I need stimulation. Maybe I'll smoke crack? /s well you know that you don't want to travel, and you don't want to do architecture.. what do you find stimulating??? you could try writing a book
I've written two books already. Published one on Amazon. Sold a few. The other one needs to be edited and proofread by someone other than me. Going to look into that tomorrow. I've got ideas for another 3-4 but I just haven't felt that spark, you know? Once I get started writing, I'll probably pump a book out in 3-4 months easy. I just need to get that motivation to hit go and get it done.
I find a lot of things stimulating, I just don't have the "resources" to pursue them. Also, I don't have a space to do furniture, so I have to either hand carve out of my apartment, or rent a space somewhere with the machines. Just money is holding me back bit.
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