hello everyone. I've come here with great news..news I hope will reach everyone here who reads it. I'm a 24 year old guy, and had suffered from horrible depression/suicidal thoughts for years. It's a horrible, horrible thing. I was so fortunate to have a loving family who didn't give up on me. I had no ability to work, to function..even showering was a huge deal that i would only do if I had to leave the house. From the bottom of my heart I know that feeling. Some of you are suffering much worse..having to cope with these feelings while maintaining a job and other things. I am so, so sorry. I can't even imagine. I turned to drugs and alcohol thinking they were the answer, I promise you they're not and will never be. Through these times I still had a deep desire to be loved, and love. But I just couldn't. I really couldn't. My heart was so cold and my head filled with so much confusion and lies. One day I was doing something so horrible and shameful and I heard this voice from within me. This thought that came to me, like someone telling me 'stop, you cant cross this line, this is too much' I've had problems all my life with stuffing emotions down, stuffing my thoughts down. The only time I could feel any positive emotion or love was when I smoked pot. But it was a terrifying thing for me to smoke. I would see and realize all the horrible sinful things I was doing, and all the pain around me and I would always cry and cry and cry so I didn't smoke very often, preferring to simply be depressed than face these feelings. Anyway, after I stopped what i was doing, having decided it was a line too terrible to cross, I smoked. That night I did the usual thing I had done before which going to my parents and crying and telling them how sorry I am for who I was. They consoled me and told me everything was okay.
I then took a shower and..I don't know what came over me but I fell down to my knees and prayed from my heart for the first time in god only knows how many years. I begged god and Jesus to save me from this, to come into my life. I had just had enough, I couldn't live this way. I hadn't believed in god since I was a child and thought everyone who did was stupid or so miserable they needed god as a crutch. I tell you people it is the furthest thing from the truth. Jesus is the truth, and the more you learn about him and learn the truth..it's an amazing thing everybody. He gave us a free gift. he died for us so we can be forgiven of our sins. We have a free gift to go with him in heaven when we die and be happy forever and ever. I know it's a difficult thing to believe in, I know there's so many questions like 'if god loved me so much why would this of happened, or that' But trust me, god and Jesus love you more than you can imagine. They didn't do those horrible things to you. They are perfect loving gods. The problem is satan and the havoc and lies and confusion he's caused on earth. But the truth about Christianity that a lot of people don't understand is, just believing won't change make everything perfect all of a sudden. It's a process. If you ask god and jesus to save you and love you, it's a process that takes time. You have to keep the faith and build on your relationship with him like you would any other. Talk to him like you would your father, as he is all of our true father and creator. Confess your problems, ask for help, give it all to him and have faith he has a purpose for you. I'm telling you guys, that depression..that emptiness, those suicidal thoughts..GONE. Completely gone. And I had been on medication for years and years and been to psychiatric facilities 4 different times and it did NOTHING for me. Jesus is who saves. I know it's difficult to trust, but I promise it's worth it. Worth it to read his word, and believe and give yourself to him. There's lots of supposed 'ways' to live life, lots of different religions, but there's only one truth. It's jesus.
I hope my words have inspired at least 1 person to look into this and ask for Jesus to save them. I'll leave you with a video that answered so many of my questions I had about faith and religion, so many of my doubts. I pray you all will watch it and feel the same love and inspiration I did. Thank you for reading everyone, I hope this helps. (there is also a second movie in the series that is equally as wonderful http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55pTVRyuaMk)
On November 13 2013 09:12 Chairman Ray wrote: So other than depression and suicidal thoughts, did you have any tangible problems prior to being saved?
Like something physical?
I phrased it quite poorly actually. I'm just curious to know what you were depressed or suicidal about and how this experience has helped you overcome those obstacles.
While I am very happy for your recent epiphany, I implore you to look up on this as not the culmination but only the beginning of your faith life. While there are many, you might say, peripheral benefits to faith, such as social and psychological well being, these things are not at the heart of what it means to be a Christian. If all you want is a feeling of worth, social and psychological well-being, a cogent system of values, etc, then you don't need Christianity or any other religion.
What it is is an adherence to the truth of the universe, and you no doubt have already grasped some of these truths: Your inherent self-worth as a human being, the existence of hope and the possibility of redemption.
I, myself, struggled with a crisis of faith recently, but I came to realize something that it seems you have earned at the outset. That no man can put the kingdom of God for you on a platter. You must embrace it, or, more correctly, open yourself up to it. What seems so alien to those who have not experienced it and must appear to be a blind trust or intentional self-blinding is really the culmination of intense self-searching and is itself a new beginning. I wish you all the luck on your new journey.
I know what a lot of people are thinking. I know because I'm thinking the same thing too. But you know what? You came from a very dark place, and now for the first time you're finding yourself in a very happy place. I wish you nothing but the best, and I truly hope that this happiness continues for the rest of your life.
This guy has his little epiphany and suddenly he knows all this fancy stuff that they tell desperate people in their moments of weakness to draft them in the popular club. Preying on the weak is super effective. My mother had this friend who was depressive and got out of it by convincing herself that she had magical powers and could know the future. She went around, telling other people all this shit about their future - she told them how to live and what to do for the "best results". Her predictions never happened, and yet she remained convinced.
It's good that you feel better though, even if it's for the wrong reasons. Best luck in the future.
On November 13 2013 12:19 IgnE wrote: Unfortunately, bro, you aren't one of the saved. You might as well get your fun in now because you aren't destined for heaven.
This kind of comment isn't useful in any way possible. It's sole purpose is designed to rile people up and get a reaction. Which it succeeded, because here I am, telling you that you're a dick.
I wish my soul was this easy. Alas! It was not meant to be, Jesus. The language of IHS/YES, the days/dias/dieties, YEArs, Moonths, and Horus. These are my representatives of the passable money-jar.
Yes, there is more to life than being depressed. Love and friendship are the two most valuable things. However it is hard for me to accept those religious people who pick on others because they are different.
I'll not say you have a waste of time ahead of you, for the path you chose is and will be a great benefit -- on most levels -- to those you enjoy it with.
However, please do not support holy wars or any form of military action. May you see the light of the morning star, may you watch the son as it passover the horus-on and be born of the mare(Ita. "sea"), and may it shine a light on you, that your dark days might be brighter. Good day!
It makes me sad when I read things like "...but there's only one truth. It's jesus." coming from a grown man, who should really know better than to write such rubbish. The thing about this shit that makes me angry though, is the fact that you, and many, many, others, will probably, and do, spew this shit to children, who will trust what their elders say, regardless of it making no sense.
I realize you mean well, but spewing garbage lies then insulting people's intelligence by telling them its the truth, will piss a lot of people off. If you want to challenge me on the lies comment, feel free, and we'll see how far gone your mind really is.
On November 13 2013 18:05 knOxStarcraft wrote: It makes me sad when I read things like "...but there's only one truth. It's jesus." coming from a grown man, who should really know better than to write such rubbish. The thing about this shit that makes me angry though, is the fact that you, and many, many, others, will probably, and do, spew this shit to children, who will trust what their elders say, regardless of it making no sense.
I realize you mean well, but spewing garbage lies then insulting people's intelligence by telling them its the truth, will piss a lot of people off. If you want to challenge me on the lies comment, feel free, and we'll see how far gone your mind really is.
Man just be happy for him, he's gotten over some serious depression and his faith is the cause of that, just be happy with him instead of picking on him.
On November 13 2013 18:05 knOxStarcraft wrote: It makes me sad when I read things like "...but there's only one truth. It's jesus." coming from a grown man, who should really know better than to write such rubbish. The thing about this shit that makes me angry though, is the fact that you, and many, many, others, will probably, and do, spew this shit to children, who will trust what their elders say, regardless of it making no sense.
I realize you mean well, but spewing garbage lies then insulting people's intelligence by telling them its the truth, will piss a lot of people off. If you want to challenge me on the lies comment, feel free, and we'll see how far gone your mind really is.
Man just be happy for him, he's gotten over some serious depression and his faith is the cause of that, just be happy with him instead of picking on him.
I'm happy that he's gotten over his depression, it's a terrible thing to go through I'm sure. However, preaching this crap is obnoxious and annoying, and does serious harm to others, even though it can be a band aid fix for certain things.
On November 13 2013 12:19 IgnE wrote: Unfortunately, bro, you aren't one of the saved. You might as well get your fun in now because you aren't destined for heaven.
This kind of comment isn't useful in any way possible. It's sole purpose is designed to rile people up and get a reaction. Which it succeeded, because here I am, telling you that you're a dick.
Haha, what an awesome comment this is. <3 <3
edit: @ the guy above me:
There's no need to come in here to challenge religion and pick a fight with all religious people and say that their minds are "gone." Stop trying to fight love with hate, man.
im glad you found Christ and are effectively dealing with depression. He can heal in many ways. However, the fight is forever and it is never over. Stay strong but do not worry if there are ups and downs in your life because that is life and what we all must endure.
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