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Disclaimer: This is not my first day at a community college, however, this is the first blog I am writing about my experience in Community College.
Another day of class... This has been my life for the past one and a half year, sitting here in class listening to material and lecture that is literally being repeated for the 2nd to 3rd time since high school. I constantly question my existence and why it even matters at this point. Being Asian is a wonderful thing, no one expects you to be anything less than above average...until you tell them you don't go to a prestigeous university; but instead you are an underachiever and has landed yourself in a CC.
I tell myself that I am not stupid and I can make it out of this academic hell-hole, but each time I convince myself that i have done it, and I can be better I find myself depressed and unwilling to go on. Its been like this almost every semester for the past one and a half year. I wish I could go back to my old self and tell myself that I wasn't as smart as I am going to think I am, and working hard could've easily landed me in a great school.
Today is March the 18th... After a review in Econ, American Colonial History and Psychology, I feel utterly useless and I wish I had tried harder... Now enough about the past procrastination is my biggest enemy and through this blog I hope to cure that. My keeping a journal and prove to more than myself that I can conquer my laziness.
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Well I can certainly relate to your feelings. If you're trying to fight procrastination though, I think blogging is going to hurt more than help. When I really need to focus on something important, the computer and internet must be off. If it is something online, then all browser tabs like email must be closed. With blogs and posts, it is a tempting to check constantly to see if anyone has responded. Keeping a journal is a good idea but consider using a pen and paper.
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I once felt like shit for going to community college as well. But, I reconsidered because I was paying very little to attend CC to get my GEs done compared to a university. I'm not asian, but there are plenty of asians here attending community college for the same purpose. I think it's important that you focus on yourself rather than what other people might think. It's not about what school you attend, it's about becoming a better person. So, think positive and move forward with your life rather than living in regret. You aren't stupid for attending CC.
I used to tell myself the same thing, "why the hell didn't I work harder?" Moreover, people would always question as to why I was attending CC instead of a university as they saw a lot of potential I suppose. It made me feel bad that I didn't work hard in HS. But, I realized I needed to do things for myself now and focus on my goals in life. My friends that attended a university might have had a head start, but I'm not too far behind.
This is actually my last semester at a CC (third year at CC) before I transfer to a university and I couldn't be any happier to just focus on my major in Fall 2013.
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CC's are great for stacking grades and cheap credits, then transferring to great state or city universities.
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On March 19 2013 11:52 Emzeeshady wrote:
Reading stuff like this needs to get me motivated. I am not Asian but there is always so much pressure for me to get far above average. Sadly my work ethic is awful. I can't focus on anything without taking breaks to play Soccer or Starcraft. I really don't want to end up at a CC but that still hasn't been enough to get myself working hard.
Getting into a 4 year institution isn't hard, at least here in the US it isn't. I could have gone to a near by state school that cost relatively 10k per year and just whinged it, but I aimed high and only applied to the schools I felt that I deserved. Make sure you turn in your paperwork on time, do just the above minimum school work and you can easily make it out of high school and get into a 4 year institution.
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On March 19 2013 12:41 Advantageous wrote:Show nested quote +On March 19 2013 11:52 Emzeeshady wrote:
Reading stuff like this needs to get me motivated. I am not Asian but there is always so much pressure for me to get far above average. Sadly my work ethic is awful. I can't focus on anything without taking breaks to play Soccer or Starcraft. I really don't want to end up at a CC but that still hasn't been enough to get myself working hard. Getting into a 4 year institution isn't hard, at least here in the US it isn't. I could have gone to a near by state school that cost relatively 10k per year and just whinged it, but I aimed high and only applied to the schools I felt that I deserved. Make sure you turn in your paperwork on time, do just the above minimum school work and you can easily make it out of high school and get into a 4 year institution.
I sucked it up for a year. I got a scholarship for 1 year to pay half my tuition. Overall I saved about 11k and then went to a 4 year school.
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