EPTAlright, the point of this is to attempt to improve my manner, and actively work on not being BM. I know I have an issue with BM, and I want to work on it. This will be a sort of Diary, where I try and control my BM and write what’s going on in my head when. (11 Games this time, 7W-4L)
Game 1 – PvZ – Antiga Shipyard. L
This was just a bad map to try and start my rehabilitation. I mean I have to scout 3 positions, and therefore if I scout last, I am most likely going to lose to cheese. Fluoric does do a proxy hatch, and I was just hoping to scout out his base, which I scouted last. Finally when I managed to find him, and put down a pylon to block his expo, I saw the creep in my base. After watching the replay, he managed to scout me first, get by my pylon before its build, and his hatch was half done before I even got to his base. Though I am trying to not be BM, I did complain about it not being fair. I didn’t want to call him names or anything or even blame it on zerg being OP, so I just left my buildings in the game and made a coffee. I need to learn to just GG and end the game. He continuously apologized right after the game, and I asked him to leave me alone, after all apologizing after you actively do something, is just a fake apology.
Let’s hope I can be a little more mannered.
Game 4 - L– I just wouldn’t leave the game after a botched cannon rush. I was actually quite infuriated, but I didn’t rage at him or anything, just couldn’t leave the game. Hopefully I can get to the point where losing is actually a good thing for me, because it would give me a situation to learn, but I can’t see a failed cheese like that. It just makes me really mad. Now I’m going into a game on tilt.
Didn’t rage, so happy. Game 5, player said he was bad; I tried reassuring him he isn’t.
I have come to a conclusion, when I need a break, I’m not going to build a tonne of cannons or Nexus, but I am not going to leave either. I know it’s kind of BM, but I need that time to calm down, so I’m not titled the next game.
Game 11 – L Man, after how many games of being mannered, losing to mass roaches (by onsSANCCO)just makes my BM go mad. (Rants about Balance)+ Show Spoiler +
I still don’t understand how that is considered balanced.... and I will still always rage about it. Being able to mass up 1 type of unit, versus the entire tier 1 of another race just doesn’t seem balanced. I know, build immortals, or have really sick FF micro, but all roaches need to do are attack. Don’t know how I will ever be able to control my rage while this is a viable strategy. Especially when I can be ahead in army supply and if I engage badly I lose to them. How can that be fair ever? I mean its army supply, roaches weak point are their supply, and yet lets roaches vs my army, roaches win? This game is done, and I’m done for the day.
After reading how my ladder session went. I feel not terrible, I was calm until the end, where I basically raged quit, because like 1-1-1, I still think someone needs to punch that player in the face. That being said, I am hopefully going get to a point where I can lose vs MASS ROACH, and just gg out...
Much Luv DJ Wilma ♥
