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forgotten0ne
United States951 Posts
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DivinO
United States4796 Posts
Would you consider joining an established band or forming one? | ||
jon arbuckle
Canada443 Posts
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TheDeli
France110 Posts
You're much better than what your stepfather says, remember that, please! I'll quote something that is proof of this (and I mean f***ing solid). Hey, TL is made of people who can become your best friends, please don't forget that. I don't care if it's online (aka they aren't right there at your side when life gives you the bitterest lemons) but for those of us who are here for you, we're all here. I think you pretty much read it through some replies. You don't need to be perfect. You need to be yourself. What is "yourself"? You seem pretty aware of some aspects of it. So here's what I'd think of DrH right now, at this moment. Taking your own quote. DoctorHelvetica said: So now I’m here. I’m almost 19 and I live in the city of Oceanside. I’m a musician and I play drums/mallets with high proficiency, bass quite well, and guitar with extreme mediocrity. I enjoy writing, cooking, hiking, bicycling, reading, and horror films. I’m obsessed with history and I read mostly non-fiction history books, my dream is to be a professor of history at a top university in the US. Or a well paid performing artist. How about defining a "Daily Checklist" like this? It's just a suggestion you could scrap altogether [ ] I played (or worked to get better at) one of these instruments today: drums/mallets, bass & guitar [ ] I might share my enjoyment of writing, cooking, hiking, bicycling, reading and horror films or seek people who enjoy them (a club of sorts?) [ ] I have read a passage from a non-fiction history book [ ] I am working to become a professor of history ("at a top US university" being an accolade) or [ ] I am working to become a paid performing artist ("well / very well paid" being an accolade) (check the O when done working daily towards something like that) You can do it. You seem well-equipped. You seem to have some very decent cognitive abilities and a knack for music and, accessorily, I read some of your blogs and I'm like: "Damnit if only he could make a blog and live off of it ._. - like, get revenue from blogging" | ||
vectorix108
United States4633 Posts
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bITt.mAN
Switzerland3689 Posts
Keep with it bro! | ||
Elroi
Sweden5572 Posts
Hang in there! | ||
MisteR
Netherlands595 Posts
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fatum
Spain83 Posts
What scares me most is that i won’t really find it in myself to want to change. You fear the unknown, specifically you fear your ability to know how to raise your self-steem. It sounds like unknown because you need more practice. That for the most part, i’ve accepted my life as it is and have no will and no motivation to make friends or to find happiness Will comes from motivation. Motivation comes from love, wich doesnt look like you have found that much ppl who really loved you. It also looks like you have already resigned, but yet you are here sharing your story with the TL community, trying to find that love you need. That means that you didnt really resigned yet. This reminds me to one scene from The Neverending Story Artax - Swamp of Sadness You can see two things in this metaphore: 1) Artax gave up, and sadness consumed him. 2) Atreyu kept trying enough to even try to help Artax. Give up and you will fall. Never give up and you will end up seing yourself overcoming anything that life/bad-luck throws at you without falling down. To give up you dont need anything. Keep being sad, thats all you would need. To never give up you will need a reason. Love is always that reason for everyone. Do your best and someday someone will love you. I like this TED talk really much: http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html It talks about love, about vulnerability, about to explain everything, about shame... it is really nice to actually learn logically how to love and why you could be loved. I hope you like it. Find someone who love and who loves you. Im talking about real love, about pasion, about friendship in a way that you would never be able to say goodbye to that person, to live your hole life with that person by your side no matter what. Best wishes for you, it looks like its about time that life throw some luck on you. So, best luck in anything you do in your life. Luck will arrive someday, you need to be there and ready to recieve it or you will miss it. | ||
annul
United States2841 Posts
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sJarl
Iceland1699 Posts
I wish you all the best and an happy birthday. | ||
palanq
United States761 Posts
burying yourself in books/music practice etc is a good and productive way to spend your time and forget about whatever other troubles you might have. yea sure college debt sucks but it's basically the only option if you don't want to have a shit life, in the long term I'm almost certain it's a good idea. even if you don't end up being a history professor, supposing you write good stuff in undergrad you can get recommendations from people (professors) who know your writing to land good jobs maybe I'm talking too much in the future but I hope maybe that thinking 5-10 years down the line might help you get more perspective? | ||
AnxiousHippo
Australia1451 Posts
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Nazza
Australia1654 Posts
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