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forgotten0ne
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
United States951 Posts
June 07 2011 19:23 GMT
#61
Read "As a Man Thinketh" and "Unlimited Power", as well as "Man's Search for Meaning". Those three books have shaped my mindset through all of the hardships of life.
"Well it’s obvious that these Terran gamers are just extremely gifted when it comes to RTS games" -Ret, in regards to the first months of SC2
DivinO
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
United States4796 Posts
June 07 2011 19:52 GMT
#62
Good read. Glad to know a bit more about you.

Would you consider joining an established band or forming one?
LiquipediaBrain in my filth.
jon arbuckle
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
Canada443 Posts
June 07 2011 20:25 GMT
#63
Bummer.
Mondays
TheDeli
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
France110 Posts
June 08 2011 15:53 GMT
#64
*hugs DrH* I felt your pain. You can't think or tell yourself (based on a possible bad impression you got on me) I didn't because I did. At times, I felt it much bigger, at times I felt it less... Depending on the sentence you wrote (and how your experience would compare to mine). However, at some point, I cheered up and actually was like: "YES SIR!"

You're much better than what your stepfather says, remember that, please! I'll quote something that is proof of this (and I mean f***ing solid).

Hey, TL is made of people who can become your best friends, please don't forget that. I don't care if it's online (aka they aren't right there at your side when life gives you the bitterest lemons) but for those of us who are here for you, we're all here. I think you pretty much read it through some replies.

You don't need to be perfect. You need to be yourself. What is "yourself"? You seem pretty aware of some aspects of it. So here's what I'd think of DrH right now, at this moment. Taking your own quote.

DoctorHelvetica said:

So now I’m here. I’m almost 19 and I live in the city of Oceanside. I’m a musician and I play drums/mallets with high proficiency, bass quite well, and guitar with extreme mediocrity. I enjoy writing, cooking, hiking, bicycling, reading, and horror films. I’m obsessed with history and I read mostly non-fiction history books, my dream is to be a professor of history at a top university in the US. Or a well paid performing artist.


How about defining a "Daily Checklist" like this? It's just a suggestion you could scrap altogether

[ ] I played (or worked to get better at) one of these instruments today: drums/mallets, bass & guitar
[ ] I might share my enjoyment of writing, cooking, hiking, bicycling, reading and horror films or seek people who enjoy them (a club of sorts?)
[ ] I have read a passage from a non-fiction history book
[ ] I am working to become a professor of history ("at a top US university" being an accolade)
or
[ ] I am working to become a paid performing artist ("well / very well paid" being an accolade)

(check the O when done working daily towards something like that)

You can do it. You seem well-equipped. You seem to have some very decent cognitive abilities and a knack for music and, accessorily, I read some of your blogs and I'm like: "Damnit if only he could make a blog and live off of it ._. - like, get revenue from blogging"
Just do it.
vectorix108
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
United States4633 Posts
June 08 2011 15:58 GMT
#65
I'm really sorry to hear that. Makes my problems seem tiny in comparison. Well I hope you know that the TL community will always be supporting you.
Aka XephyR/Shaneyesss
bITt.mAN
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Switzerland3693 Posts
June 08 2011 18:57 GMT
#66
I thought of you again today in my daily prayers and this came to me, ENJOY!



Keep with it bro!
BW4LYF . . . . . . PM me, I LOVE PMs. . . . . . Long live "NaDa's Body" . . . . . . Fantasy | Bisu/Best | Jaedong . . . . .
Elroi
Profile Joined August 2009
Sweden5599 Posts
June 08 2011 19:50 GMT
#67
I like you Chris and I hope you'll get better. Once you're out of your parents house you will probably feel better.

Hang in there!
"To all eSports fans, I want to be remembered as a progamer who can make something out of nothing, and someone who always does his best. I think that is the right way of living, and I'm always doing my best to follow that." - Jaedong. /watch?v=jfghAzJqAp0
MisteR
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
Netherlands595 Posts
June 09 2011 21:07 GMT
#68
Hey man, glad to hear from you! Quite a life story you got there, too. Chronic depression sounds terrible and I hope you can find a way to end it. I guess the treatment you've mentioned should help you with that and if you ask me it would be good to give it a try. Lots of people love you here on TL and we want you out there writing awesome articles, studying history and drumming your music.
Nal_Ra/Much/Horang2/Flying fighting!~
fatum
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
Spain83 Posts
June 10 2011 02:02 GMT
#69
What scares me most is that i won’t really find it in myself to want to change.


You fear the unknown, specifically you fear your ability to know how to raise your self-steem. It sounds like unknown because you need more practice.

That for the most part, i’ve accepted my life as it is and have no will and no motivation to make friends or to find happiness

Will comes from motivation. Motivation comes from love, wich doesnt look like you have found that much ppl who really loved you.

It also looks like you have already resigned, but yet you are here sharing your story with the TL community, trying to find that love you need. That means that you didnt really resigned yet.

This reminds me to one scene from The Neverending Story
Artax - Swamp of Sadness

You can see two things in this metaphore:
1) Artax gave up, and sadness consumed him.
2) Atreyu kept trying enough to even try to help Artax.

Give up and you will fall. Never give up and you will end up seing yourself overcoming anything that life/bad-luck throws at you without falling down.

To give up you dont need anything. Keep being sad, thats all you would need.
To never give up you will need a reason. Love is always that reason for everyone. Do your best and someday someone will love you.

I like this TED talk really much:
http://www.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability.html
It talks about love, about vulnerability, about to explain everything, about shame... it is really nice to actually learn logically how to love and why you could be loved. I hope you like it.

Find someone who love and who loves you. Im talking about real love, about pasion, about friendship in a way that you would never be able to say goodbye to that person, to live your hole life with that person by your side no matter what.

Best wishes for you, it looks like its about time that life throw some luck on you. So, best luck in anything you do in your life.

Luck will arrive someday, you need to be there and ready to recieve it or you will miss it.
Aim to climb as high as you can dream.
annul
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States2841 Posts
June 11 2011 11:05 GMT
#70
just want to say i am glad you are not dead, DH.
sJarl
Profile Joined September 2010
Iceland1699 Posts
June 15 2011 17:41 GMT
#71
Just a suggestion: you might want to try out weightlifting. Having something to slowly and steadily progress in does wonders.

I wish you all the best and an happy birthday.
"Witness!" - Karsa Orlong
palanq
Profile Blog Joined December 2004
United States761 Posts
June 15 2011 21:27 GMT
#72
seems to me that you should go to college, and play music while studying history. You don't need to be very sociable for much of this but of course that is something you can work on (if you want to) while you study history, play music, produce an album, and write a kickass thesis.

burying yourself in books/music practice etc is a good and productive way to spend your time and forget about whatever other troubles you might have.

yea sure college debt sucks but it's basically the only option if you don't want to have a shit life, in the long term I'm almost certain it's a good idea. even if you don't end up being a history professor, supposing you write good stuff in undergrad you can get recommendations from people (professors) who know your writing to land good jobs

maybe I'm talking too much in the future but I hope maybe that thinking 5-10 years down the line might help you get more perspective?
time flies like an arrow; fruit flies like a banana
AnxiousHippo
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
Australia1451 Posts
June 15 2011 22:47 GMT
#73
Happy Birthday Dr Helvetica. TeamLiquid still loves you for what it's worth.
An apple a day keeps the Protoss away | TLHF
Nazza
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Australia1654 Posts
June 15 2011 23:27 GMT
#74
Happy birthday Chris
No one ever remembers second place, eh? eh? GIVE ME COMMAND
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