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Do I have autism??? I think I do...

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QuickStriker
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States3694 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-05-22 23:54:07
May 22 2010 23:30 GMT
#1
Hey guys.... how do I know if I have or "had" autism?? Reading this thread and looking up some info on wikipedia of everything related to autism is creeping me out but now that I think about it, I sorta can relate to my whole life so far.... for example:

My parents mentioned to me before and I think I remember from my memory as well that I didn't really talk or had ANY speech language skills until I was 5 (which was when I came to US). Before then, I don't think nor recall any memories of myself actually talking, saying words or anything and I have a good past memory that I can remember of my time when I was 3 or 4 which was when I was in Korea (since I was born there). Then according to my memory, I remember saying my first words in English on the first day in US, but don't remember anytime before speaking in any language, especially Korean. So then how do I communicate if I wanted milk or cookies or any sorts? My mom told me I just grab attention without talking like hitting or like showing a picture or something... idk, I don't recall that much b/c I think my mom knew exactly how and what I was thinking...

The next thing I realized is that I didn't really became active and talk to many people, I was one of those quiet folks throughout elementary and even middle (though I can safely say I'm not like this anymore) where I'll have 1 or 2 friends. I would frequently be quiet and do w/e I want to do. (ie. playing games like Pokemon by myself for like a 12 hours straight) My parents + relatives did mention that I was also very quiet when I was like 3-4 in which I can sorta relate and remember.

Hmm... another thing I recall was I was super OCD with few things at different parts of my life. The most common one was during High School, I was super OCD of unable to sleep in my own bed unless I took a shower. I would never sleep on my bed unless I clean myself and since I was lazy many times, I would often sleep on the floor of my room instead of the bed because I didn't take a shower before I went to bed... Now that I recall this, I laugh and all but after reading a whole article, research, and etc on autism, it bugs me...

I also can recall in relate to this topic is that I am (still is) a very very selective eater which apparently has some parts of autism... I would NOT eat seafood whatsoever (though there were times where i forced myself to eat and this was only recent to mingle in social events), would NOT eat anything related to sweets (chocolate, candy, etc but I do eat and enjoy sweets now ^_^), and just am picky with this and that type of food.

Also I know stacking is a big thing in autism.... I just loved to stack random things during my freshman year in college (I don't really remember of doing this in my memory though I know I've done it some part of my life) where I would just stack water bottles on top of each other just for the heck of it. I mean I was an engineering major and I was thinking of like stacking on top of each other to see how high it would go. But I stopped doing that b/c I realize how stupid I was during my 2nd year.

Finally, in the case that I feel many of us just plainly have it and doesn't relate to it (though it did state it could be part of autism) is extreme physical laziness. Like I would thought out and make plans of any given situations, imagining of how to execute and do this plan but I end up always failing to do the plan. My body wouldn't let me do some of the stuff I want to do b/c I suppose I'm just down right lazy? This includes especially to assignments, plans for meet up and etc in which would benefit me but I just wouldn't go for it sometimes despite thinking about it for hours of how to do it....

I have several other examples that I can tell and possibly relate to the topic of autism but they're just kinda pointless. They're interesting and also somewhat embarrassing stories or situations I've dealt with but perhaps in future blogs if my fellow TL readers would be interested in me...



Now, back to my main topic. My parents never told me about autism (and I sorta have a doubt they even know what it means) nor has anyone. I never had to attend special schools or anything since I went all public from elementary to high school, lived a normal life (well not normal if you read what I just wrote), and is in college perfectly "fine". But I never really knew about what autism means or who it effects until I just did some brief research on wiki... hmm... so are these enough proof that I have autism or am I just weird? DO I HAVE AUTISM???

Poll: Do I have Autism?

No, you're just weird! >_< (46)
 
79%

Yes, you do!! o.O (7)
 
12%

Other..... (5)
 
9%

58 total votes

Your vote: Do I have Autism?

(Vote): Yes, you do!! o.O
(Vote): No, you're just weird! >_<
(Vote): Other.....




Also, while on topic, are there any celebrities in US who has autism and are successful? Since my field is Broadcast Journalism and I am planning to take on the road of media world so will my chances to be a famous broadcaster in both TV and radio will be affect by this??

*
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EPO
Profile Joined August 2009
Canada341 Posts
May 22 2010 23:37 GMT
#2
On May 23 2010 08:30 QuickStriker wrote:
My parents mentioned to me before and I think I remember from my memory as well...

Remembering from your memory... you got skillz son.
Bibbit
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
Canada5377 Posts
May 22 2010 23:37 GMT
#3
You almost certainly do not. I know some autistics are pretty functional but I think you would be kinda pushing the boundaries a fair bit. The things that make you think you have it (stacking, selective eating, slight OCD (unless you do in fact mean OD as in overdose)) I'm pretty sure are common enough.

I personally have all of those. My sister is autistic. I am not. You are probably not either. I can't say for sure because you never know but in all likelihood, you're not (and if you are, I must be too :o)
Amnesia
Profile Blog Joined September 2009
United States3818 Posts
May 22 2010 23:38 GMT
#4
You should consider going to a doctor if you are really that worried.
hoppipolla
Profile Joined January 2010
Australia782 Posts
May 22 2010 23:49 GMT
#5
Doubt you have full blown autism, you could just have very,very mild aspergers.
"It's not acceptable"
QuickStriker
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States3694 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-05-22 23:54:21
May 22 2010 23:53 GMT
#6
Oh wow... it seems I'm just very weird afterall... darn, I look like a fool now thinking I had autism... so not able to talk until you were 5 is considered non-autism? And all those things I've explained (ie. stacking, selective eating, slight OCD) is common? Hmm... I guess....

But would I really go to a doctor to prove myself that I am autism? Hell no, a waste of time in my life, rather be playing SC for several more hours...

*edit* Also I did mean OCD, not OD... LOL
www.twitch.tv/KoreanUsher
Nemesis
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
Canada2568 Posts
May 22 2010 23:54 GMT
#7
Well there are mild cases of autism, but honestly you should not be that bothered on whether or not you have or had autism. It's not like it's going to change your life if you know.
Lee Young Ho fighting! KT P are just CHINTOSSTIC.
IndecisivePenguin
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States771 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-05-22 23:56:39
May 22 2010 23:55 GMT
#8
OCD =/= Autism, just to start things off. There are tons of people out there diagnosed with OCD that would otherwise be considered normal.

There are a lot of characteristic things to notice early on in the life of a person who is autistic. Were you one to get extremely upset if something were to go outside of your normal daily schedule? Did you consistently repeat hand gestures or other body movements? Was your gaze rarely ever directed toward the people you were talking to? Did you understand that people are people and that you shouldn't be handling them like they are objects? There's just a very large list of things that can point to autism, and these usually start showing up around one or two to maybe age five, and can continue throughout their lives.

It sounds like you were able to be decently social with others, if not just a bit withdrawn. For the great majority of autistic people, social interaction and normal conversation is impossible. You seem to be able to communicate pretty well in your own right from your post.

If there's still any doubt though, see a doctor.
Bibbit
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
Canada5377 Posts
May 22 2010 23:56 GMT
#9
On May 23 2010 08:53 QuickStriker wrote:
Oh wow... it seems I'm just very weird afterall... darn, I look like a fool now thinking I had autism... so not able to talk until you were 5 is considered non-autism? And all those things I've explained (ie. stacking, selective eating, slight OCD) is common? Hmm... I guess....

But would I really go to a doctor to prove myself that I am autism? Hell no, a waste of time in my life, rather be playing SC for several more hours...

*edit* Also I did mean OCD, not OD... LOL


Yeah, the not talking thing is probably the strongest thing to link to autism. Like somebody suggested earlier, it could be asperger's. I have a cousin with that and he kinda seems like a less severe version of my sister.
QuickStriker
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States3694 Posts
May 22 2010 23:56 GMT
#10
On May 23 2010 08:54 Nemesis wrote:
Well there are mild cases of autism, but honestly you should not be that bothered on whether or not you have or had autism. It's not like it's going to change your life if you know.

Yes it will! Because that way, I have a hidden possible card I can use and exploit to get thru certain phases in life such as classes..... Though I'll probably keep quiet in most parts, I was taught in my political science class recently that since this world is full of exploiters, 95% of the people in class (and in the world) will be those being exploited. I refuse to be those 95% and rather be anywhere closer to the 5% to exploit others to succeed in life. And for other reasons as well...
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QuickStriker
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States3694 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-05-23 00:04:49
May 23 2010 00:01 GMT
#11
On May 23 2010 08:55 IndecisivePenguin wrote:
OCD =/= Autism, just to start things off. There are tons of people out there diagnosed with OCD that would otherwise be considered normal.

There are a lot of characteristic things to notice early on in the life of a person who is autistic. Were you one to get extremely upset if something were to go outside of your normal daily schedule? Did you consistently repeat hand gestures or other body movements? Was your gaze rarely ever directed toward the people you were talking to? Did you understand that people are people and that you shouldn't be handling them like they are objects? There's just a very large list of things that can point to autism, and these usually start showing up around one or two to maybe age five, and can continue throughout their lives.

It sounds like you were able to be decently social with others, if not just a bit withdrawn. For the great majority of autistic people, social interaction and normal conversation is impossible. You seem to be able to communicate pretty well in your own right from your post.

If there's still any doubt though, see a doctor.

In regards to this, yes I would often be very upset (and still am to the point I get pissed, angry, or some sort of emotion out of me) when things I've planned or my usual schedule goes out of the way. Yes I repeat hand gestures b/c I got a habit to talk with my hands swinging around sometimes. My gaze USED TO be rarely directed to people I talked to until I was taught to look at other people's eyes and all. Yes I know people are people to the point where I pretty much want to find out how everyone lives, thinks, and dreams. Any more questions to ask? I'll answer them all very simply to prove my point.

Now I don't really remember exactly when any of these situation happened the first time but they all started some part of my life and some of them continue today to a lesser extent or improved..

And I refuse to see a doctor until I'm really sure or if I really do have a good reason to go to.
www.twitch.tv/KoreanUsher
Bibbit
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
Canada5377 Posts
May 23 2010 00:04 GMT
#12
On May 23 2010 09:01 QuickStriker wrote:
Show nested quote +
On May 23 2010 08:55 IndecisivePenguin wrote:
OCD =/= Autism, just to start things off. There are tons of people out there diagnosed with OCD that would otherwise be considered normal.

There are a lot of characteristic things to notice early on in the life of a person who is autistic. Were you one to get extremely upset if something were to go outside of your normal daily schedule? Did you consistently repeat hand gestures or other body movements? Was your gaze rarely ever directed toward the people you were talking to? Did you understand that people are people and that you shouldn't be handling them like they are objects? There's just a very large list of things that can point to autism, and these usually start showing up around one or two to maybe age five, and can continue throughout their lives.

It sounds like you were able to be decently social with others, if not just a bit withdrawn. For the great majority of autistic people, social interaction and normal conversation is impossible. You seem to be able to communicate pretty well in your own right from your post.

If there's still any doubt though, see a doctor.

In regards to this, yes I would often be very upset (and still am to the point I get pissed, angry, or some sort of emotion out of me) when things I've planned or my usual schedule goes out of the way. Yes I repeat hand gestures b/c I got a habit to talk with my hands swinging around sometimes. My gaze USED TO be rarely directed to people I talked to until I was taught to look at other people's eyes and all. Yes I know people are people to the point where I pretty much want to find out how everyone lives, thinks, and dreams. Any more questions to ask? I'll answer them all very simply to prove my point.

And I refuse to see a doctor until I'm really sure or if I really do have a good reason to go to.


Shit man, you got me concerned now. :o

As this thing goes on, you keep adding more things that I seem to fit as well. I like never made eye contact until I made a conscious decision to do it and began working on it like a year ago. And I do use a shitload of hand gestures. But I'm pretty sure I managed to talk at a normal age so I should be fine. But still, I'm starting to get drawn into your boat here :/
IndecisivePenguin
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States771 Posts
May 23 2010 00:07 GMT
#13
On May 23 2010 09:01 QuickStriker wrote:
Show nested quote +
On May 23 2010 08:55 IndecisivePenguin wrote:
OCD =/= Autism, just to start things off. There are tons of people out there diagnosed with OCD that would otherwise be considered normal.

There are a lot of characteristic things to notice early on in the life of a person who is autistic. Were you one to get extremely upset if something were to go outside of your normal daily schedule? Did you consistently repeat hand gestures or other body movements? Was your gaze rarely ever directed toward the people you were talking to? Did you understand that people are people and that you shouldn't be handling them like they are objects? There's just a very large list of things that can point to autism, and these usually start showing up around one or two to maybe age five, and can continue throughout their lives.

It sounds like you were able to be decently social with others, if not just a bit withdrawn. For the great majority of autistic people, social interaction and normal conversation is impossible. You seem to be able to communicate pretty well in your own right from your post.

If there's still any doubt though, see a doctor.

In regards to this, yes I would often be very upset (and still am to the point I get pissed, angry, or some sort of emotion out of me) when things I've planned or my usual schedule goes out of the way. Yes I repeat hand gestures b/c I got a habit to talk with my hands swinging around sometimes. My gaze USED TO be rarely directed to people I talked to until I was taught to look at other people's eyes and all. Yes I know people are people to the point where I pretty much want to find out how everyone lives, thinks, and dreams. Any more questions to ask? I'll answer them all very simply to prove my point.

Now I don't really remember exactly when any of these situation happened the first time but they all started some part of my life and some of them continue today to a lesser extent or improved..

And I refuse to see a doctor until I'm really sure or if I really do have a good reason to go to.


Btw, you might also want to look into Aspergers syndrome. You seem like you really want to know as well, so I don't see why you wouldn't go.

But yes, check out Aspergers if you have the time.
QuickStriker
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
United States3694 Posts
May 23 2010 00:11 GMT
#14
Well, I only got sparked up and became interested into this topic after browsing in TL thru another session of procrastination of my final assignments in which I dedicated my entire Saturday to work only to not really doing them... (which means I'm pretty much screwed now since I gotta cram everything on Sunday and my motivation isn't ticking yet...)

I have taken a brief look at Aspergers syndrome but I don't really get how that and AS are different. They both are similar and yes, I do want to know and am curious but I don't really like going to doctors as much (nor do I know any real doctors to go to).... I guess I'll do some reading on Aspergers..
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Sulli
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
Canada236 Posts
May 23 2010 00:22 GMT
#15
I would recommend checking out Aspergers as well.
Zurles
Profile Joined February 2009
United Kingdom1659 Posts
May 23 2010 00:28 GMT
#16
On May 23 2010 08:49 maps wrote:
Doubt you have full blown autism, you could just have very,very mild aspergers.


I bet most people have very very mild aspergers.
krndandaman
Profile Joined August 2009
Mozambique16569 Posts
May 23 2010 00:46 GMT
#17
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Clamev
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
Germany498 Posts
May 23 2010 00:57 GMT
#18
I don´t think you should ask the internet that go see a psychiatrist^^
6Pool or die trying
illu
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
Canada2531 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-05-23 01:02:29
May 23 2010 01:00 GMT
#19
Just go to a psychiatrist!

EDIT: O wait. Since you are in the US, can I derail this blog and argue about how easy (or slow) it would be to get a psychiatrist if the US had socialized medicine?
:]
EpiK
Profile Blog Joined January 2007
Korea (South)5757 Posts
May 23 2010 01:17 GMT
#20
the more you think about this, the more you're likely to interpret your actions to things someone with autism would do..

just enjoy life and stop worrying ^^ so what if you do weird shit, everyone does
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