EPTI feel that I’ve rebounded nicely. It took a little while, maybe longer than it should have, but this past month or so I’ve truly been enjoying life. My self confidence has really shot up for some reason. Maybe it’s because I’ve been dressing nicer; I started wearing somewhat nicer shirts like polos instead of simple t-shirts representing sports teams and bands. That actually got me talking to one girl again cause she made a comment about it. Does it mean anything? Who knows.
I think the turning point was when I took a trip to St. Louis to watch some college basketball. The weekend was just amazing. My team (Wichita State) made it all the way to the finals (they tend to lose their first or second round game) before losing to Northern Iowa (which if you pay attention to college basketball, you’ll recognize that name) and it was just an awesome weekend for so many reasons. And after that.. things just haven’t been like they were before.
I’ve dug in to new music, which is huge for me. I’m a weird person; I’ve always associated music with events in my life. For a while, I was stuck on listening to the same songs over and over, trying to keep the good memories I had with that girl. But then I checked out some new bands and didn’t look back. Finding new songs that I love means finding new good memories to associate them with. I’m about a month away from graduating high school and moving on to a whole new stage in my life, so I really want to enjoy these last few weeks and especially this summer.
Prom is probably the biggest event left and I have a date. It’s not really a big deal, but if I was told that I’d have a prom date a few months ago I would have just laughed because everything seemed so bad at the time. I actually went tux shopping today and I’m really looking forward to it.. Senior Prom is always a huge deal and it’s looking to be a great time.
Not to mention that, as I had been told by people, I’ve met new girls and start talking to ones that I hadn’t talked to in forever. At the time I just felt so insecure and like things would never really look up. But life progresses, which is common sense but so, so hard to understand at times.
After thinking so much about everything, I’ve developed some kind of theory. I think that everyone must experience some form of heartbreak in life before they can fully appreciate everything. For some reason, after the whole deal with the girl I’ve been a way nicer person and more fun to be around. I also know the simple fact that life does indeed move on, and if I do experience heartbreak in the future (which I most likely will) that I’ve already been there and it’ll be fine.
Not to mention that I now feel that I know what I’m talking about whenever I talk to a friend about heartbreak. I love helping people and through all of this I’ve made the choice to minor in psychology in college. I’d also love to give a shoutout to Jumper, a Starcraft friend that I talked to quite a bit about everything. Never once did I think I would ever talk to an online friend about real life events.. yet here I am blogging about it. He’s a psychology major so it was interesting to hear his perspective on everything.
Also, thanks for all the advice and comments I received on the blog I posted titled “I Can’t Let Go.” After seeing other posters talk about their lives and receive advice (and to be honest I was hoping Rekrul would give me some cause I like seeing what he says haha) I really appreciate the community for what it is. It’s not just people that love Starcraft but it’s also people that live their own lives outside of it and go through their own experiences, which is pretty awesome. God that sounds corny, but you know.
Thanks for reading!
