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It's been a long time since I made an "emo" blog so anyway...
I'm sure some of you have read my old blog about this girl I was having a chat with and got angry at me. Well the thing is, half of what I said is a lie, and I know it was kind of obvious, but here it is..
Me and the Girl were having a little chat, about something, then she suddenly changed her stat in to "Damn, I'm hungry" so I simply told her "You're such a pig!" she obviously got pissed of and just ignored me, a week later, I was having chat with my friends since we were planning on how to do our project. After a while, I suddenly got hungry and had the same stat as my friend "Damn, I'm hungry", so when she saw the stat, she did the exact same thing I did, by calling me a pig, well being such an immature brat, I told her to STFU, she obviously got reaaaaaaaally angry, and called me a jackass, up to a point she got insanely mad, made a new e-mail and decided to make every common friend hate me.
Months passed, no hellos, nothing... I began to feel so lonely.. I guess, maybe it's because I love her... We've been friends since we met, grade school, she disappeared, and when our paths crossed we were closer than ever. I never felt like this before, and after regretting everything bad I've done, and everything I could have done.. I just want to fix things... but right know... it's just not possible..
The loneliness was getting to me, It felt like there was no reason for me live.. Without her, I felt that my life meant nothing... I began to stop... stop taking care of my health, studying, being a responsible teen. Even after the promise I made to my dad, I still let him down. Look, I failed 3 subjects where I KNOW i could have passed with flying colors, but still failed, why? Cuz I was stupid, I didn't study, I cut class, I play video games all day long, even when I have a project to do.
So many promises, I've already broken.. My promise to my friend, that I'd never hurt her in any way, to my dad, that I'll do my best in my studies and by being a part of the family. And to myself, to be someone my family would be proud of, and loved by friends..
I guess... I just don't know what I want in life.. It's my dad's birthday next week and this is what I have to show him? What a son... I don't even deserve to be called as such, I'm just a complete and utter failure...
Maybe I should just commit some sort of suicide now, it will end everyone's missery. No more problems for the family, and no more heartaches given to my friend..
Poll: Should I commit Suicide?
(Vote): Yes!
(Vote): No
(Vote): Who gives a fuck?
(Vote): Go see a profession
All I have left to say is, I love my friends and family so much, that I'd do anything, other than being a burden to them...
On a side note:
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one of the options was just too tempting
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December 21, 1991
This blog makes sense now.
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wtf u guys who voted yes. what if he really does it?
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konadora
Singapore66363 Posts
get over the girl
find a new girl!
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wait what did you lie about in the old blog? link it?
and i don't see how she could possibly hate you over something stupid like that.
Also it doesn't say anywhere that you have made any attempt to talk to her about this? So what have you just been ignoring her too?
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On September 09 2009 21:47 lazz wrote:
one of the options was just too tempting
LOL!
Hey man, there are other problems much fucked up than yours, If I were you. Just go to other school, find a new girl and forget about the problems too much! You're still a kid and everyone goes through that path..
Well, to tell you honestly at least you don't do drugs that will make you an addict. Now that's a real fucking problem.
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lol. Whining makes everything so much better.
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On September 09 2009 21:44 ReCharge wrote:
she obviously got reaaaaaaaally angry, and called me a jackass, up to a point she got insanely mad, made a new e-mail and decided to make every common friend hate me.
what the fuck. seriously she must be a really disgusting person.
edit: ok after reading the rest of your blog, i can sort of connect to you ive been through an abusive relationship too, but that reaction of the girl is just too much. i dont know anything about her, but nomatter how nice or pretty or whatever she is otherwise, trying to make others hate somebody, because oneself is mad at someone, thats just evil.
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On September 09 2009 21:48 Hittegods wrote:
December 21, 1991
This blog makes sense now.
I totally agree.
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that girl is stupid as hell.
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OP needs to add a statement promising that he will do whatever the poll dictates
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Go seek out for help
You guys are gay if you voted yes
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On September 09 2009 21:58 konadora wrote:
get over the girl
find a new girl!
Kona giving out pro relationship advice now?
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It seems like something that you will look back one day(hopefully soon enough) and you will think of how silly you were during these times. Ah well, everyone has those anyway.
Well first off, I don't know why you would call a girl a pig if you liked her. Let's face it; asian girls are very sensitive with their weight. Its better to say "you look slim" to a girl than to say "i love you".
Just apologize if you can haha!
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Spenguin
Australia3316 Posts
Whichever idiots voted yes are absolute sick fucks.
Don't kill yourself over something like this, find comfort in the people around you like your friends and family, you should also talk to them about it they will help you.
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don't be so fucking selfish.You need to see the big picture and realize how petty it is to get so down because of 1 person. There are billions of people on the planet. It's quite likely that you'll be able to find more people you like or that like you. It takes time for things to get better, so be a little patient if things are shitty right now.
In all seriousness, suicide is horrible. You will only end your own suffering, not others. Having a son that's doing poorly in school at the moment is much better than having a dead son. How can your family be proud of you when you flunk and kill yourself? You will make life more miserable for others, not better. If you're alive you have a chance to fix things, but when you're dead, well, you clearly won't. You are the only one that can actually change your behavior, and in the long run it's not that hard.
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You annoy me, go kill yourself.
Seriously.
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