It's been a long time since I made an "emo" blog so anyway... I'm sure some of you have read my old blog about this girl I was having a chat with and got angry at me. Well the thing is, half of what I said is a lie, and I know it was kind of obvious, but here it is..
Me and the Girl were having a little chat, about something, then she suddenly changed her stat in to "Damn, I'm hungry" so I simply told her "You're such a pig!" she obviously got pissed of and just ignored me, a week later, I was having chat with my friends since we were planning on how to do our project. After a while, I suddenly got hungry and had the same stat as my friend "Damn, I'm hungry", so when she saw the stat, she did the exact same thing I did, by calling me a pig, well being such an immature brat, I told her to STFU, she obviously got reaaaaaaaally angry, and called me a jackass, up to a point she got insanely mad, made a new e-mail and decided to make every common friend hate me.
Months passed, no hellos, nothing... I began to feel so lonely.. I guess, maybe it's because I love her... We've been friends since we met, grade school, she disappeared, and when our paths crossed we were closer than ever. I never felt like this before, and after regretting everything bad I've done, and everything I could have done.. I just want to fix things... but right know... it's just not possible..
The loneliness was getting to me, It felt like there was no reason for me live.. Without her, I felt that my life meant nothing... I began to stop... stop taking care of my health, studying, being a responsible teen. Even after the promise I made to my dad, I still let him down. Look, I failed 3 subjects where I KNOW i could have passed with flying colors, but still failed, why? Cuz I was stupid, I didn't study, I cut class, I play video games all day long, even when I have a project to do.
So many promises, I've already broken.. My promise to my friend, that I'd never hurt her in any way, to my dad, that I'll do my best in my studies and by being a part of the family. And to myself, to be someone my family would be proud of, and loved by friends..
I guess... I just don't know what I want in life.. It's my dad's birthday next week and this is what I have to show him? What a son... I don't even deserve to be called as such, I'm just a complete and utter failure...
Maybe I should just commit some sort of suicide now, it will end everyone's missery. No more problems for the family, and no more heartaches given to my friend..
Poll: Should I commit Suicide? (Vote): Yes! (Vote): No (Vote): Who gives a fuck? (Vote): Go see a profession
All I have left to say is, I love my friends and family so much, that I'd do anything, other than being a burden to them...
On September 09 2009 21:47 lazz wrote: one of the options was just too tempting
LOL!
Hey man, there are other problems much fucked up than yours, If I were you. Just go to other school, find a new girl and forget about the problems too much! You're still a kid and everyone goes through that path..
Well, to tell you honestly at least you don't do drugs that will make you an addict. Now that's a real fucking problem.
On September 09 2009 21:44 ReCharge wrote: she obviously got reaaaaaaaally angry, and called me a jackass, up to a point she got insanely mad, made a new e-mail and decided to make every common friend hate me.
what the fuck. seriously she must be a really disgusting person.
edit: ok after reading the rest of your blog, i can sort of connect to you ive been through an abusive relationship too, but that reaction of the girl is just too much. i dont know anything about her, but nomatter how nice or pretty or whatever she is otherwise, trying to make others hate somebody, because oneself is mad at someone, thats just evil.
It seems like something that you will look back one day(hopefully soon enough) and you will think of how silly you were during these times. Ah well, everyone has those anyway.
Well first off, I don't know why you would call a girl a pig if you liked her. Let's face it; asian girls are very sensitive with their weight. Its better to say "you look slim" to a girl than to say "i love you".
Whichever idiots voted yes are absolute sick fucks.
Don't kill yourself over something like this, find comfort in the people around you like your friends and family, you should also talk to them about it they will help you.
don't be so fucking selfish.You need to see the big picture and realize how petty it is to get so down because of 1 person. There are billions of people on the planet. It's quite likely that you'll be able to find more people you like or that like you. It takes time for things to get better, so be a little patient if things are shitty right now.
In all seriousness, suicide is horrible. You will only end your own suffering, not others. Having a son that's doing poorly in school at the moment is much better than having a dead son. How can your family be proud of you when you flunk and kill yourself? You will make life more miserable for others, not better. If you're alive you have a chance to fix things, but when you're dead, well, you clearly won't. You are the only one that can actually change your behavior, and in the long run it's not that hard.
As some one who has dealt with threats of suicide before, this is just insanely stupid.
If you really do feel depressed, go talk it out with a professional, or even some therapeutic whining about it to someone.
When in doubt, I apply this rule of thumb.
Misery sucks, but not as much as being dead. And in terms of friends and family, being a failure/whatever to them sucks, but not as much as being dead.
Just don't be an idiot and suffer in silence.
While alive you can still make amends, you can't do that when you are dead.
and wtf?this is a fucking sc forum and you're asking a bunch of nerds if you should kill yourself because you blow? seriously wtf is wrong with you?get over it, face the consequences and draw some conclusions.
Im sure your family loves you no matter what and committing suicide because you dont want to be a burden would probably work the other way than you want it to.
Also why would you tell her "Youre such a pig"... Jesus. And go see a doctor if youre depressed (looks like you are).
On September 09 2009 22:31 caldo149 wrote: don't be so fucking selfish.You need to see the big picture and realize how petty it is to get so down because of 1 person. There are billions of people on the planet. It's quite likely that you'll be able to find more people you like or that like you. It takes time for things to get better, so be a little patient if things are shitty right now.
In all seriousness, suicide is horrible. You will only end your own suffering, not others. Having a son that's doing poorly in school at the moment is much better than having a dead son. How can your family be proud of you when you flunk and kill yourself? You will make life more miserable for others, not better. If you're alive you have a chance to fix things, but when you're dead, well, you clearly won't. You are the only one that can actually change your behavior, and in the long run it's not that hard.
On September 09 2009 22:31 caldo149 wrote: don't be so fucking selfish.You need to see the big picture and realize how petty it is to get so down because of 1 person. There are billions of people on the planet. It's quite likely that you'll be able to find more people you like or that like you. It takes time for things to get better, so be a little patient if things are shitty right now.
In all seriousness, suicide is horrible. You will only end your own suffering, not others. Having a son that's doing poorly in school at the moment is much better than having a dead son. How can your family be proud of you when you flunk and kill yourself? You will make life more miserable for others, not better. If you're alive you have a chance to fix things, but when you're dead, well, you clearly won't. You are the only one that can actually change your behavior, and in the long run it's not that hard.
I <3 your advice, so much better than mine
It's true every single word should be listened to.
I think it's pretty pathetic you are asking in a VIDEO GAME forum about whether or not you should commit suicide. Really? Not sure if the poll is serious, but if it is, do you really want an Internet forum to decide your fate? Lol, if you ask me, that is pretty pathetic.
What makes you think that ending your life will end everyone's misery? Do you not know that despite how badly you fail, your family is always there for you? You committing suicide would only make matters worse for everyone around you. Don't do it.
And just because of one girl don't let your life be so down. To be short, girls are fucking bitches, if she does some shit to you, just fucking dump her and forget about her. Helllooooooooo! Look out in the sea as there's like a billion more fish out there. It is not the end of the world. I used to be like you: I had been with a girl and devoted so much of my time and money just for her (even though this was during high school). After a year or two, I learn to realize she had been using me all this time. She had no feelings for me at all. I entered depression and snapped out of it a few months later. Just know that the one special girl is one out of the seemingly endless number of girls out there.
All in all, cheer up and move on. Forget the girl and try to get your life back on track. This is a big hurdle in your life and you should get over it.
Lol, why is everyone so serius? It is just a half/troll post. He is not going to kill himself lol. If u do remember to say it was cuz you played violent video games so the press can write a lot about it
Teamliquid should start marketing their own brand of tissue paper. They could put a picture of a DT on the front to help get the tears flowing if need be.
Learn to put things in perspective, omg. It's not like this is the end of the world, there are 3 billion girls out there. Learn to live with the consequences of your actions and move on while learning from the experience, stop whining. Living with the consequences includes not committing suicide because the consequences of someone killing himself are horrible. Not for the one who does it but for the people who are left behind. Don't be pathetic and just man up ffs, in your case committing suicide would just be the incredibly selfish pussy way out.
Dont know if your serious or not, but suicide is no joke. If you care about your friends or family you wont do it. They will be in much more pain than they are now.
Really. Pull yourself together and tell her your sorry, its all you can do. If you fail you classes and people are disapointed in you, tell them your sorry. Being silent is what makes you feel bad. Have you ever talked to someone about something real? Op yourself up more, just say screw it and try again.
I kinda know what you mean about the hole failing classes thing, ive been there myself just a couple of month ago. I decided pretty early to take another year of school and hope i can do it better. I know i can do it better, question is if i can pull myself together.
If your feeling down, try to get some sleep or something. I can get really depressed if im tired, sleeping always works. Whenever you feel like this just sleep, it really is the cure to bad mood.
On September 09 2009 22:50 Kerotan wrote: As some one who has dealt with threats of suicide before, this is just insanely stupid.
If you really do feel depressed, go talk it out with a professional, or even some therapeutic whining about it to someone.
When in doubt, I apply this rule of thumb.
Misery sucks, but not as much as being dead. And in terms of friends and family, being a failure/whatever to them sucks, but not as much as being dead.
Just don't be an idiot and suffer in silence.
While alive you can still make amends, you can't do that when you are dead.
This ^
From what i'm reading it doesn't even seem like you were very close to the girl? Why would you contemplate suicide over causing ''pain'' to her...
Either i'm missing a huge part of the story or you seem like a really fragile person.
On September 09 2009 23:55 Neivler wrote: Lol, why is everyone so serius? It is just a half/troll post. He is not going to kill himself lol. If u do remember to say it was cuz you played violent video games so the press can write a lot about it
Well you never know, he could actually be serious, and if we made fun of him then that would be really bad. Gotta play it safe. =P
lol kid ur fudging 17 what do you know about love? nothing. What do you know about being a burden? nothing. What do you know about life? nothing.
You have no idea what love is. Any emotions you may have for this girl are just because a) you vaguely no each other combined with b) your hormones are getting out of whack. So what if she did all that shit, it's pretty mentally handicapped if you ask me
Secondly, if you're venting this kind of cowpie on the internet, you're no better than the five hundred million emotionally distressed kids that post on myspace all the time, you know like this kid
Get out and enjoy your life. You're only 17 once. When I was 17, and I was the only one in my group of friends that wasn't coupled up, do you think I cried about it and cut my wrists and whined on TL? FUDGE NO. I went out and balled anyways because being in a relationship is for cuddling pieces of feces that are weak willed and just want a way to satisfy the hormones that they are too weak to resist. PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY. Now look at me, I'm a cocky scat on tl.net and troll all the time, and i go out and do all sorts of things, and i still don't have a girlfriend, but i really couldn't give a flying intercourse, because that's how i roll and being in a relationship just means darramama.
If you're seriously considering suicide, you're a coward. A good for nothing coward. If I could, I would tie you to the front of a motorcycle and cycle off a bridge until you begged for your family and to live. But I can't do that. So instead I'll have Onizuka do it for me to show you what a whiny bitch you are.
FUDGE I hate it when kids pull this dumb FECES. You're a FUDGING kid that probably hasn't even shaved yet or held a fudging job. If you think your life sucks now and you're a burden, then do something to change that, like get a fudging job you lazy piece of scat.
On September 10 2009 02:47 d3_crescentia wrote: the girl sounds retarded as shit
but then again so do you
just call her up, apologize sincerely and lol about how immature you were
seriously its that simple. If you are just ignoring her because shes ignoring you then prepare to live your life without her. It sounds like shes a very emotional person to get upset at you so easily. So just talk to her and apologize if she really means so much to you. Don't wait for her to come back to you. Im sure she will forgive you, then you can stop being so depressed and get your grades back.
I just read your blog and seriously, ReCharge, I let out a huge sigh afterwards. What are you getting so down about dude? You had an argument / brakeup over facebook status drama (wtf -_-)? You're not doing that great in school...and you are talking about suicide? Get real dude.
These are all very correctable things. Learn to face your problems instead of ignoring them. This whole thing could of been avoided if you just called her up and was like "Omg I'm really sorry, I was just joking seriously it sounded funnier in my head!" or any half-assed apology. Your grades can be improved if you just do your work. Seriously, wtf is the point of complaining about bad grades? If they really bother you, you know exactly what to do.
Call and make amends with the girl, and start actively doing your schoolwork. I really don't know what else to say because I feel you're keeping something from us. I don't see how someone could be so down and thinking about suicide over such little problems.
On September 10 2009 03:37 Caller wrote: lol kid ur fudging 17 what do you know about love? nothing. What do you know about being a burden? nothing. What do you know about life? nothing.
You have no idea what love is. Any emotions you may have for this girl are just because a) you vaguely no each other combined with b) your hormones are getting out of whack. So what if she did all that shit, it's pretty mentally handicapped if you ask me
Secondly, if you're venting this kind of cowpie on the internet, you're no better than the five hundred million emotionally distressed kids that post on myspace all the time, you know like this kid
Get out and enjoy your life. You're only 17 once. When I was 17, and I was the only one in my group of friends that wasn't coupled up, do you think I cried about it and cut my wrists and whined on TL? FUDGE NO. I went out and balled anyways because being in a relationship is for cuddling pieces of feces that are weak willed and just want a way to satisfy the hormones that they are too weak to resist. PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY. Now look at me, I'm a cocky scat on tl.net and troll all the time, and i go out and do all sorts of things, and i still don't have a girlfriend, but i really couldn't give a flying intercourse, because that's how i roll and being in a relationship just means darramama.
If you're seriously considering suicide, you're a coward. A good for nothing coward. If I could, I would tie you to the front of a motorcycle and cycle off a bridge until you begged for your family and to live. But I can't do that. So instead I'll have Onizuka do it for me to show you what a whiny bitch you are. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cePqwcSJ6Rk&feature=related
FUDGE I hate it when kids pull this dumb FECES. You're a FUDGING kid that probably hasn't even shaved yet or held a fudging job. If you think your life sucks now and you're a burden, then do something to change that, like get a fudging job you lazy piece of scat.
Oh my god ! LOL'd so much with the ninja edit ! hahahahaha this owns the thread
Look man.. I've been there before.. in situations with girls. And trust me you don't love this chick epically if you say.. "I guess I love her." you don't really love her man you just think you do for some reason.. understandable it happens to I swear 80% of all guys and more than once.
The cold hard fact is.. she's just a bitch.
Honestly man you should just apologize to her about the whole fat thing.. even if its months delayed. Chances are she won't really accept it. But so what? Just another bitch man. This is no reason to commit suicide there are tons of girls out there and I assure you many are better than this girl. Your other "friends" she turned against you? Fuck 'Em.. their obviously not your friends and i'd bet alot of money that your just a high school kid and this girl is just really good looking and all guys think their in love/wanna bang her.
Fact is dude.. real friends are hard to find and your lucky if you ever get more than 3 true friends. Just ask yourself if i could go back months ago when they still got along with me.. would they help me? Would they lend you $50 or come to your house at 3 AM..? No then tier not really friends dude. and you dont need them. Casual friends.. like them are easy to make and you should have no problem getting more.
As for the father thing.. if you really want to get him a present you'd go mow some lawns or do some hard labor for some dough. If you can't do that for whatever reason.. homemade gifts really are nice and at least let them know you were thinking. Also try borrowing money from your mom. But jesus dude.. if it was your birthday.. would you rather your dad not get you anything and then off himself? or just not get you anything.. ANYONE would say just not get me anything.
Another thing trust me man.. again nearly all young men have these kind of relationships in their lives with their fathers.. oh he doesnt love me.. he thinks I'm a failure.. I'm worthless.. he likes my other brother and not me.. whatever it is. and trust me again man.. Fathers do not not love their children.. they do wether they show it or not.. when your a father and one day you will meet a nice girl and get married if thats what you want. And you'll understand.. that the job of a father at that stage in your life is to be the dad and not your friend. You'll see when your older have a job like maybe as early as 22. That your dad will not have to be the dad so much anymore because you are grown up and your own man. And he will treat you nicer and be more of a friend.
I hope to fucking god your read this.. its all true. Basic summary.. That girls just another bitch.. you are not in love with her.. those friends are real friends.. and your dad does love you man.
I'm one of those people that just say lol im just gonna vote yes he wont really off himself.. but i didnt this time cuz I've been in all these situations man and I've grown up and can look back and realize was it thought was going on wasn't really what I thought. I had a a friend help me out of it by saying very much the same thing. So I hope you get out of it too.
Most importantly man.. look to the future.. If you do kill yourself imagine everyones reaction will be.
That girl will prolly laugh at you and not care as she seems to honestly hate you.
your friends? Will be liek oh dman id dint think he'd do that.. mayb we should been nicer.. and 20 years from now will tell thier kids about it. They might even be nicer to peopel for the rest of thier lives.
your dad and rest of family.. will be crushed for a long time man a long time. Thats an ultimate fuck you.. do they really deserve that?
All those people who picked "Yes" are fucking retarded. If you could obviously tell 100% that it was a sarcastic troll blog, go for it, but why the fuck would you actually even joke about that.
There's some good advice given though, so look through that. It's just one girl, and despite how special she may have been, it's definitely not the only person in your life that you can meet and have such a connection with.
seriously you steam up over the smallest things...~_~ oh wait, that happened waaaay back...
and yeah, it's you're damn fault your grades are fucked up, be a man about it jeez...it's your fault for playing and you need to be punished and get slapped back to reality. I think you took a hell lot of things for granted. (actually I need a perfect score on my next math long test in order to survive)
On September 09 2009 21:48 Hittegods wrote: December 21, 1991 This blog makes sense now.
I totally agree.
I don't get it.
it's his birthdate lol
yeah like everyone says, don't be so depressed over such a small thing. i find it funny how this thing blew out of proportions to you because you just joked around with her. ooh no, facebook status! i'm sure you'll find a nicer girl in the future, just get over this one, doesn't seem worth the time.
Hey I realized something - you're a fag. Real men own up to the shit they do, but you? You flare up over the smallest things because your humor isn't even mature. You played your heart out and even cut classes just to play and enjoy a game that you can't probably earn off, and you suffered the consequences, straight F because you can't get your priorities straight. Now you're just gonna run away from all these by killing yourself. Way to go - you can't even own up to the shit you did and you're gonna run from all of it - what a fag.
Oh wait - all this shit happened because of one person? Jeez, yes we are social beings but it does not mean our life would depend on a single person. You don't screw up a relationship like that, you just don't. I don't even know and I don't care if she was your girlfriend (which is less likely), and losing that friendship that way is the stupidest thing I've ever read.
People fall to learn how to pick themselves up. You fell on deep shit and as far as what I read told me, you're enjoying your time on it - you like it so much that you you're willing to die in that pool of shit without even trying to pick yourself and clean up. No pool of shit is deep enough that you can't even get up from it.
Don't trip man. If you do commit suicide, do you really think deep down in your heart that it would be good for your loved ones? You just need to reflect...
On September 10 2009 03:37 Caller wrote: lol kid ur fudging 17 what do you know about love? nothing. What do you know about being a burden? nothing. What do you know about life? nothing.
You have no idea what love is. Any emotions you may have for this girl are just because a) you vaguely no each other combined with b) your hormones are getting out of whack. So what if she did all that shit, it's pretty mentally handicapped if you ask me
Secondly, if you're venting this kind of cowpie on the internet, you're no better than the five hundred million emotionally distressed kids that post on myspace all the time, you know like this kid
Get out and enjoy your life. You're only 17 once. When I was 17, and I was the only one in my group of friends that wasn't coupled up, do you think I cried about it and cut my wrists and whined on TL? FUDGE NO. I went out and balled anyways because being in a relationship is for cuddling pieces of feces that are weak willed and just want a way to satisfy the hormones that they are too weak to resist. PAIN IS WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY. Now look at me, I'm a cocky scat on tl.net and troll all the time, and i go out and do all sorts of things, and i still don't have a girlfriend, but i really couldn't give a flying intercourse, because that's how i roll and being in a relationship just means darramama.
If you're seriously considering suicide, you're a coward. A good for nothing coward. If I could, I would tie you to the front of a motorcycle and cycle off a bridge until you begged for your family and to live. But I can't do that. So instead I'll have Onizuka do it for me to show you what a whiny bitch you are. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cePqwcSJ6Rk&feature=related
FUDGE I hate it when kids pull this dumb FECES. You're a FUDGING kid that probably hasn't even shaved yet or held a fudging job. If you think your life sucks now and you're a burden, then do something to change that, like get a fudging job you lazy piece of scat.
You lied before and you're still lying now. She isn't "your girl" and you didn't fuck up your classes or any of that other shit because of her. She just makes for a nice excuse (even though the story still makes zero sense) so you don't have to own up to being ridiculously awkward and anti-social. You don't love her and I have my doubts that you're even friends with her. You're just a weird kid who likes to stare at her. Even your fiction stories are creepy.
Fucking man up and start being a responsible person. Assuming the girl drama happened as you described (which it probably didn't), email her saying sorry and be done with it. Start going to your classes, get out of the house and start doing things to make your dad proud, instead of talking about how you've done a bad job of it.
On July 14 2009 22:59 ReCharge wrote: On a side note: I'm gonna reach B- before November 8, I'll bet my life for it.
What the fuck is wrong with you dumb kids and your B-? Stop playing SC.
In all honesty dude, you're way to young to be worrying so much about these things. Give the chick an honest apology and if that doesn't make things right, she doesn't deserve any more of your time.
You've got an entire life ahead of you and it isn't worth failing classes over something like this. And hell, even if you do need to take an extra year of school, it's not a big deal. At least you'll have more time to figure out what you wanna do afterwards which is always a good thing.
Suicide would be the most selfish route to go. I'm sure it would hurt your family and friends a lot more than failing a couple courses or w/e.
he didn't kill himself, the Philippine Starcraft scene made an intervention hahahahaha and it's not a joke this guy is super sensitive to the fact that he is sometimes a douche, and yeah it's not a joke!
Well if it isn't a joke, I would seriously go see some help. Perhaps a psychologist/counsellor.
Just remember that suicide is a very weak way out of life. That plus...honestly dude...your issues don't sound very rough at all. From what I see, you were infatuated with a girl (and yes it's more than likely infatuation than love considering your age), you had a bit of a fight, she is being rude and not speaking to you at all. As a result you are a bit depressed and that is causing low-grades with excessive gaming to try to resolve your depression.
This is so common in teenage guys dude. I am sure most guys can relate in some way. Try to get a grip and understand that it is just your infatuation that is causing this.
I guarantee within a year you won't be feeling this way if that makes you feel better.
Don't do it! Things will certainly pick up. This site is full of loser nerds, why you asking them? 67 of these losers voted yes... Is that supposed to be funny nerds? If there is even the slightest chance that this OP is serious, how can any of you vote yes? "Just joking" "It's not serious" "it's the internet". Take some responsibility fools and stop making excuses, not everything has to be a joke. To the OP, good luck and you'll be fine. Just hang in there, you'll look back on this and realize how stupid you were.
edit- I don't understand why the Mods haven't closed this topic? If this is serious, it's not something to be taken lightly.
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