The Letting Off Steam Thread - Page 125

I lost a shitload of money tonight at the local casino, around $3000 dollars, and this is not the worst thing! I actually won everything and even more back!!!! Then I started to gamble instead of just going home with my nice win. But no, my fucking greedy fuckface wanted more money so I lost all of it AGAIN!

I just wanna cry and disappear
FUCK CASINOS

Speaking of working in a casino, some dumb shit cut himself at work before coming here and didn't cover the wound with a band-aid. So now I have a blood stained table, 7 blood stained and now cut up and thrown away cards, about 60 chips I have to clean and paperwork. All because this dumb fuck and his supervisor didn't give the asshole a band-aid.

Also its fucking amazing how much blood comes out of such a small cut on a finger....

TL is so addicting. I was supposed to go to class at 9. It's now 11. And I have a Quiz today. Fuck you internet!

So.... damn.... stressed.... sigh....

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober

And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning
There is no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hit a table in class on Wednesday. I was just so angry after getting my lab mark back. Fucking 50% on a lab worth so little but I'd spent so much time on it.

I checked an email in class and saw the grade and read some of the comments. I was thinking about the grade and I just wanted to focus on the class but I couldn't. I kept thinking maybe I should leave the classroom. I did that once last year when a prof refused to answer any of my questions. I wanted to throw my pen at him. This time I decided to stay. I felt it was so stupid that in order to get something remarked you had to ask your TA to remark you or if you went above their head to the professor, the professor would obviously take their side.

I put my laptop aside. I didn't want to break it. I eventually thought for a brief moment about the table and hitting it. Then instinctively I just hit the table as hard as I could with my elbow. It made a loud sound and probably scared a lot of people. I said sorry, walked out of the classroom leaving my laptop and bag there. Prof asked if I was alright, I said yes. Then I just sat down by the bathroom and started shaking. It took at least 15 minutes for me to calm down. The skin from my elbow had been removed.


This school is horrible for me. I have mental breakdowns quite often here. Not yet though, this isn't anywhere close to a breakdown but I usually am not this worked up over stupid labs. I just don't want to fail and I don't want my time to be wasted. Years of my life. And people tell me I'm supposed to be having the time of my life in college. Thoughts of suicide crept up a few days prior. I hadn't been sleeping regularly and hadn't showered the day of. Maybe that had something to do with it.


I started to get angry at other people because otherwise I'd just think I was stupid. They were probably cheating. Or at least I told myself. I mean so many people don't show up to lecture, I doubt everyone goes to the lab. When I ask people something about the lab they don't know a basic command in it which means they probably didn't do it. And when I'm in these unsupervised labs I see groups of like 6 people working together. I start to think maybe one person does like part 1 and then the other does part 2... so on. I had to work on my own. I had no lab partner and I wanted it that way because I actually wanted to learn from this. I bet many other lab sections just got the labs from previous years. They're reused and have been for upwards of a decade.


So then I miss class because of it. Fucking TA doesn't give a shit.


Then later I have a quiz in that class. I flip out on the prof afterwards as we're leaving the exam room. "Can you shorten the time on the exams? I'm sick of spending days on the lab and getting like 50%." There's like 3 other student just staring at me. The prof isn't moving. He's kind of taken aback. He's a better prof than normal. He actually makes the lectures understandable. The quiz was worth 10x more than the marks I lost on the fucking lab.


I walked away. Hostility was in my eyes. I didn't want to hit a wall or something and scare everyone again. I hate feeling powerless. Like I have to take whatever bullshit unfairness is in this class. I hate not having any help. I hate this course.


This can probably be remedied by approaching the course differently. 8 hour fucking labs. Not even that long. Just frustrated.

that's pretty funny. Make grade 3 and 4 students make their own choices. Yep, very smart. I'm sure most of them know what they want in life so they know if going to school at such a young age is necessary or not XD You're right, he's wrong, plain and simple. Even kids in high school don't know what they want to do so having such a small child who hasn't even developed the ability to think that far ahead try to make their own choices at a young age is preposterous. Same with paying them lol

think of it this way: did you learn anything from the lab? It's possible that other members of your class have previous labs but who knows, no point in guessing. It's also possible they are doing what you are doing as a group to cutdown on the work so technically, if one person focused on one part of the problem, they should in theory do a better job than if one person focused on all parts. I can understand being frustrated at not getting a higher mark when you spend time on it but only thing I can say is to look at the feedback and see if its reasonable. In other words, did you losing 50% of your mark correlate with the comments. Did he simply say that you missed x and that was it or did he say you did x wrong, y too, messed up z etc...

I would talk to the prof if you believe that you should get more marks after you get it remarked. I had a problem in undergrad where a TA gave me a 0 on a program I wrote because he couldn't open it. This was the same TA who marked my previous assignment which had the same bug(we were just adding functionality every assign) and both times, I mentioned it in my readme files even with pictures and circled stuff, explained etc... yet for some reason, he never reads them. It took upwards of 20+ emails or so before I finally got him to actually open it the way it was supposed to be opened(he just had to refresh something >.>). He still gave me a bad mark(I passed though) and I talked to the prof, explained where I thought I should get more mark(had the rubric) and I got some back so I would definitely ask the prof after remark if you think it's unfair. Just keep working at it and eventually, you'll get the marks you deserve if the effort is there

wcs america makes me angry. this byul guy. doesnt speak a word of english, never accomplished anything in korea, and now he goes to another region, no offense against peepz like polt or JD who play in international clans and learn the language, but this ugly byul is just a farce. this wcs system is killing esportzs

I thought I should make a blog but I'm sure everyone has heard it so many times why SC2 can't attract casuals, so I decided to post briefly here. Besides, I won't change anything, so I might as well just let off steam.

Anyway, I think team games are what appeal to most casuals. However, there are too many hard-countering units that it's difficult to make a comeback. Say you play 2vs2 and enemies have hellions/lings. Well, how do you counter that? If you want to counter hellions by getting stalkers, then your stalkers get demolished by lings and so on.

Custom games are another thing. You can't play any map you like. You always have to rely on the map's popularity, otherwise you'll wait forever to get enough people. BW's custom maps is what we need.

Etc, etc, etc.

I loled Sorta reminds me of the high school dropouts that constantly complain how useless math is in real life.

hope you didn't watch the rest of wcs then since he took out JD and went to the finals lol

FUCKING BULLSHIT SCHOOL, I cant fucking study like this, i study from home but the questions are formulated in the most vague and terrible way ever. I have no idea what they are asking. How am I suppost to do my essays if I do not understand the question!? So I just get depressed cus ill get kicked out and/or loose my money I get from studying. Fuck you school, so sick of this shit. GAH!!!

Glad my mate adon kicked babyknights ass tho

Oh and just found out Venus spins in the wrong direction, what the fuck is going on...

SC2 is such a garbage game. No matter how I play, well, I can't match 1vs4 all the time. Thank you battle.net for being fair and letting me play vs AT while my team has no idea of the game... not. Not buying HotS was the best decision. No more money for Blizzard from me.

Followed all the rules and directions, ended the class with a D. The cheaters who hired others to do their projects for them? A's. Fuck art classes. The teachers says they'll be unbiased and grade based on the rule set they give you but that is ALL a lie. All of it. The teacher will go "oh I don't like that" on a perfect assignment and you might as well have never taken the class in the first place.

My second class that same semester? Attendance was graded more heavily than actual work. Art is such bullshit, don't ever take fucking classes for it.

And these were UNIVERSITY art classes, my third year.

After using this site for many years, there's a fair amount of people that I've come to respect and some that I've even come to admire. But man alive do a lot of you guys have the shittiest taste in humour. Or at least, judging from the pics you post in the "random pics that make you laugh" thread. Seriously, it's not even like, "oh okay well I guess that's your sort of humor, we're just different in that way, ha ha cool". No, you would have to be fucking retarded to think that it's even slightly funny. I'm guessing you really enjoyed the simpsons after season 10 as well.

My respect for you is still there, but I hope I'm never stuck in line at the supermarket next to you.

Another proof today that not buying HotS was the best decision ever. Despite being high 3vs3 diamond, I got an ally who had 6 workers and started mining gas with no pylon/gateway started. Thanks Blizzard but you won't persuade me to buy HotS at this rate of being incompetent of implementing a useful bnet and match-making system. It's needless to say I lost the game by a lot.

It's actually really easy to implement an algorithm to avoid this kind of scenario.

E.g.

if (!(getGamesCount() > number && isLeagueHigherThanPlat()) {
      doPlacementMatch();
}