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+ Show Spoiler +I fucking hate my everyday life at the moment.
I'm tired of studying, yet i still have years to go before i'm finished. I want to work! Fuck those idiots who artificially raised the standards across all jobs.
My friends are moving to another part of the country, to live closer to the university they will be going to, so i won't see them near as much T_T
Two of my cousins, one of whom i grew up with, are meth addicts and burdens to society, and i never see them.
My fathers insane girlfriend smashed alot of our stuff in a paranoia rage.
My mother have breast cancer.
My only brother have a depression and hates everything atm, i can't even speak about everyday stuff with him.
I'm overweight, but steadley losing fat while ganing muscles, thanks to me working out everyday and eating only healthy, and drinking only water. However, i know it will atleast take another half year, i will be able to walk shirtless without being ashamed.
What do i do? I feel like i'm on the verge of a mental breakdown, and i have been having suicidal thoughts on increasing frequency,
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On August 21 2013 18:08 cloneThorN wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I fucking hate my everyday life at the moment.
I'm tired of studying, yet i still have years to go before i'm finished. I want to work! Fuck those idiots who artificially raised the standards across all jobs.
My friends are moving to another part of the country, to live closer to the university they will be going to, so i won't see them near as much T_T
Two of my cousins, one of whom i grew up with, are meth addicts and burdens to society, and i never see them.
My fathers insane girlfriend smashed alot of our stuff in a paranoia rage.
My mother have breast cancer.
My only brother have a depression and hates everything atm, i can't even speak about everyday stuff with him.
I'm overweight, but steadley losing fat while ganing muscles, thanks to me working out everyday and eating only healthy, and drinking only water. However, i know it will atleast take another half year, i will be able to walk shirtless without being ashamed.
What do i do? I feel like i'm on the verge of a mental breakdown, and i have been having suicidal thoughts on increasing frequency,
If you're studying, working our and eating healthy, seems the only thing you lack is nice people, and with those qualities it shouldn't be hard to find some. Think about where to find them (I know nothing about Denmark) and glhf.
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+ Show Spoiler +fuck everything. i spend the whole school week looking forward to the weekend. then when it finally arrives, i feel like the nights are a waste. its all one big fucking cycle of useless going-nowhere bull shit
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+ Show Spoiler +I feel like I'm in a good position in life but I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I have had the whole summer to improve myself physically, knowledge wise, and experience wise but I've wasted away playing video games, looking at the same websites, and doing nothing. Everyday I feel drained and lacking the desire to do anything productive and when I can force myself to do something, I can only stand doing it for an hour at most. Video games, one of my lifelong hobbies, doesn't bring me enjoyment anymore and I feel bad for playing them. I've acknowledged my issues a multitude of times over the past few months but I fail to actually achieve in results. I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from some form of depression. 
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+ Show Spoiler +Blizzard is almost where they want their balance to be, they just need to buff Terran vs. Protoss some more since Terran aren't COMPLETELY buttfucking every Protoss player they come across.
Biomine is bullshit.
Marines are too fucking efficient.
Mines are too fucking efficient.
Medivacs make too fucking efficient units even more fucking efficient and three times as versatile.
Fuck Terran's ENTIRE DESIGN. Fuck Terran. Fuck them hard.
The fact that Blizzard is contemplating buffing the race that won 3/4 WCS regions is RETARDED AS FUCK, stupid bull shit cock sucking mother fucking bull shit bullshit BULLSHIT
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+ Show Spoiler +Fuck everyone who thinks SC2 is dying. SC2 dies when SC3 comes out, no sooner.
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+ Show Spoiler +Just failed my first driving test, did everything well, just forgot to signal left at the very end and that cost me. That disappointing feel.
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+ Show Spoiler +Seriously hate women. Girl I met and was interested in for over a year strung me along like a fucking dog because I was innocent and easy to manipulate. Claimed that she loved me and wanted to be with me and that she hated where she was at, and then moved in with a guy after dating him for 3 months after she had broken my heart and told me that all my dedication to her and all that i was there for for her was a waste...
Brb crying for a year.
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+ Show Spoiler +My neighbor and childhood friend died in a car crash last night and because I'm training at Walmart I don't know if I can get to his wake or funeral.
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On August 26 2013 13:21 vult wrote:+ Show Spoiler +Seriously hate women. Girl I met and was interested in for over a year strung me along like a fucking dog because I was innocent and easy to manipulate. Claimed that she loved me and wanted to be with me and that she hated where she was at, and then moved in with a guy after dating him for 3 months after she had broken my heart and told me that all my dedication to her and all that i was there for for her was a waste...
Brb crying for a year.
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Man that sucks, I have had something similar. That girl, how cute she might be is just fucked up. You have to stay away from her and over time (unfortunately it costs a couple of random girls or weeks atleast), you will be glad that she's gone from your life.
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On August 24 2013 17:01 BlackPanther wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I feel like I'm in a good position in life but I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I have had the whole summer to improve myself physically, knowledge wise, and experience wise but I've wasted away playing video games, looking at the same websites, and doing nothing. Everyday I feel drained and lacking the desire to do anything productive and when I can force myself to do something, I can only stand doing it for an hour at most. Video games, one of my lifelong hobbies, doesn't bring me enjoyment anymore and I feel bad for playing them. I've acknowledged my issues a multitude of times over the past few months but I fail to actually achieve in results. I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from some form of depression.
+ Show Spoiler +I feel ya. I'm like that for periods of my life, just wasting away. Not sure if it's a depression or not. Physical exercise and diet supposedly helps..
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On August 24 2013 17:01 BlackPanther wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I feel like I'm in a good position in life but I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I have had the whole summer to improve myself physically, knowledge wise, and experience wise but I've wasted away playing video games, looking at the same websites, and doing nothing. Everyday I feel drained and lacking the desire to do anything productive and when I can force myself to do something, I can only stand doing it for an hour at most. Video games, one of my lifelong hobbies, doesn't bring me enjoyment anymore and I feel bad for playing them. I've acknowledged my issues a multitude of times over the past few months but I fail to actually achieve in results. I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from some form of depression.
+ Show Spoiler +Went through the same thing. I still am, though I've improved a lot. It takes time man, it's going to be hard, but take it little by little. Patience is key. Also, you might want to remove some bad habits. Sleep earlier, get exercise, do other things and decrease the wanking. It's cliche, but it's so true.
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On August 24 2013 17:01 BlackPanther wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I feel like I'm in a good position in life but I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I have had the whole summer to improve myself physically, knowledge wise, and experience wise but I've wasted away playing video games, looking at the same websites, and doing nothing. Everyday I feel drained and lacking the desire to do anything productive and when I can force myself to do something, I can only stand doing it for an hour at most. Video games, one of my lifelong hobbies, doesn't bring me enjoyment anymore and I feel bad for playing them. I've acknowledged my issues a multitude of times over the past few months but I fail to actually achieve in results. I'm pretty sure I'm suffering from some form of depression. I feel the exact same way this summer, I accredit it to depression.
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This is an unproductive rant, no need to read.
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+ Show Spoiler +this summer I started to be so lazy that I almost stopped eating for good, everytime someone asks me why I just tell them that Im on a special diet or something stupid like that
I banged a 16yo girl last week in the very next room that the girl Im trying to get serious with was sleeping
I started to lose dota pub games with a constant amount of pure rage
I quit smoking
I stopped writing my blog because all I can think of are pussies or booze
I dont know if I even want to start the next semester, just a reminder of some stupid exercises makes me completely sick
hf reading
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+ Show Spoiler +wtf i hate diamond league. its either mad cheesers all day or fucking protoss.
god protoss has so many bandaids. getting attacked early? click a nexus with msc and youre good. getting dropped? np recall/warp in zealots, then build 50 cannons. engaging? np you dont need to micro, just ctrl-click your HUGE units and move em back a little bit. then t-click to storm and just win. behind on upgrades or have horrible mechanics? no problem thats what chronoboost is for. draw even on a battle cross map late game? np warp in 15 zealots and a-move that charge wall.
its like protoss is designed to just sit on their ass and just move across the map once they have a super-army, and msc/warp in mechanic makes it hard to punish turtle or defensively greedy play.
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+ Show Spoiler +I missed a fucking spot shaving. It's sooo obvious and a few people have pointed it out to me tonight at work. 5 more hours of hiding my left cheek 
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+ Show Spoiler +I work as an usher, I play Sc2 most of the day, have no girlfriend. Yea, it's pretty wonderful. Fuck life, fuck not improving no matter how hard it seems I try.
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+ Show Spoiler [sexist rant] +Women like the bitch who just dumped my friend are why it took until the 1970s for women to gain any kind of rights. He did everything possible to make her happy, picked her up when she was down and loved her and she ditched him to go be with some emotionally abusive ex bf....What the actual fuck? I hope he finds a way to cause her the same pain she caused him...
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