One-Line Confessions - Page 151

I still think about my ex girlfriend in my dreams and in my waking state.

I feel I won't ever get truly over her, she might be one of those people you will never forget, but she was something special in almost every way.

I try with all the breath i can muster, to be happy, that she is happy with her boyfriend and her life, but I cannot seem to shake the feeling of how shallow love is. One minute your with the love of your life, and the next your apart, never to be together again. It's over.

I'm not entirely sure I understand how love can be that shallow, how we have no trouble just jumping from one relationship to another..

Lovers will always promise eachother the world, never leave me baby, I will always be with you.. and that stuff, but reality comes and bites you in the ass...

Love sucks.

I'm wishing I was single, not out of spite or lost love. I still love my wife and don't want to be without her, I just can't figure out any other way to get what I want which is not what I need. I unfortunately had the fortune of meeting someone I love a lot very early in my life causing me to have but one sexual partner. This drives me insane, I want so much more, I see so many cute girls and I want them. That is the sex side of what I want. The other side that's probably easier to get without fucking my entire life up would be getting to know new people. Back in military college (only 21, it was 18 months long) I made a few friends from our small class and we had lots of fun. Drinking, partying and all the stuff I never had back in high school, everything and only thing I want out of life is to party and make mistakes, GF at the time, wife now, was back in our hometown while i was away at school. I fooled around a lot with my best friend (girl) but never actually had sex. But now, a couple years down the road, all my friends don't do anything anymore. I'm still the same immature idiot who wants to have fun and shit but they all bitch about having shit to do or just outright to much of a bore to even be around, they all have boyfriends or wives and husbands and honestly I just can't take it. It drives me crazy to be around couples... I can't handle that domestic scene (think South park purity ring/Jonas Brothers episode) I can't seem to have fun unless I'm doing something I really shouldn't be doing. I don't know what to do to fix this lull of boredom in my life except to get new friends, throw some chaos into the genepool as it were. But think of the places where people make friends, work, school or some kind of mutually appreciated social gathering... Ok using these examples I will show why I can't make friends. Work, I work a 12 hr mid shift, 530pm to 530am by myself in a dark corner. I love this job, no people to watch over me, no people to interact with. I just sit here browse TL, watch sc2 streams and watch anime/movies off netflix. Sadly facebook/youtube dont work, but I shouldn't be ungrateful for what I have. So no one there to become friends with. School, I made my friends and there aren't anymore to be had there. Social gathering, gamers don't get out... Idk what to do. I go to clubs, Baltimore has a sick dubstep/house music scene but I go there to dance and have fun not socialize with strangers :/ Lol any advice? Other than love your wife you have more than others and should be grateful. I know all this, I just don't think I'm helping my relationship out by having regrets. So basically, I want to be single because my social circle is boring me to tears.