My girlfriend got raped, doesn't matter the circumstances the fact is that, and when she told it to me I really listened her very calmy, of course my first reaction was anger and well you know, "I'm going to find the sucker and kill him even if the world cracks down", but now I'm pretty calm and I think things like "then what?, will that really ease and remove the pain and suffering she's going through, and return happiness to her life?. It will not".
But I'm, well, she's having a hard time. I made her go to get an HIV test: one has to take one each 3 months, and if you suspect you may caught the infection in less than 48 hr, there's a treatment. She took it. Anyway, she's very very depressed, because she still has to take the tests and if one, only one says it's positive, she's screwed. I also convinced her to take other gynechological tests, to explore herpes, papilome, and other diseases. Moreover, her mind has been affected, and she will likely need to go to a psycologist.
I don't feel like bad because, my perception of life is that people get what they deserve, and I'm not saying she deserved it, but she was definetly caught off-guard, and well I think when you are a beautiful woman like she is, you always have to be on-guard, simple things: lock the door, never go through dark alleys, etc, you know what I mean. Of course I don't feel good at all.
Thing is guys, I really don't know how to feal. It's tough very tough. And you know what. I don't know what I'm feeling now. I don't know if I want to cry or scream or be happy or kill or, I just don't know.
I just wanted to well, let go, scream some stuff and well, my plan from now and on is to be as supportive as I can. Well, try to bring her back the meaning of life and joy. She wants to go to church now and stuff (we've never been catholics), but my heart tells me that if she wants to go and if she feels it's important to her it is to me.
If you have any ideas to share, it would be greatly appreciated