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ccou
Profile Joined December 2008
United States681 Posts
August 04 2010 05:06 GMT
#61
On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
At this point I feel like I'd be better off being some poor starving kid in Somalia or something, at least then there would be a purpose to life.


First of all, fuck you; no one in the right mind chooses to starve. There's no twisted honor in living with a tight food budget. Don't think you're entitled to all the good things in life. Most people work very hard still won't achieve them , this includes a purpose to life. And don't expect people to provide for you, like the internet for a purpose to life, have some pride and self-reliance.

Second, are you in high school or college? Did you get 1970 on your SATs or 1940? There seems to be plenty of ambiguity.
http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=132865#1

Third, fuck you.
Wake up Mr. B!
AyeH
Profile Blog Joined March 2010
United States534 Posts
August 04 2010 05:14 GMT
#62
Seriously dude? I know what this is. This is a blog to gain sympathy from members of TL to your situation. That's what people do in hard situations. They want attention and they think turning to the "suicidal" phase will give them the attention. You need to get your head together and think about your life. Stop blaming everything around you and man up and take responsibility for your failures. Do you think everyone on TL has never had a suicidal moment in their life? Fuck, I've gone through depression with suicidal thoughts everyday and came out of it fine. I'm pretty sure you can do just as well.

On a site note, you posted a previous blog that stated you were in college. Why the fuck would you take the SAT if you were already approaching your fourth year in college? Something smells super fishy...
Is it in you?
chocopan
Profile Joined April 2010
Japan986 Posts
August 04 2010 05:15 GMT
#63
I agree with Fabiano that internet forums - even ones as cool as TL - are the absolute worst place to go for suicide advice; you should speak to someone Real.

Having said that, my thoughts: human beings actually live for a long time. A really long time. You may be around for another 5 6 7 even 8 decades. And you don't know what's going to happen in your life next week, let alone in thirty years.

There is a lot about your life you don't know yet. Hundreds of people you haven't met yet, hundreds of places you haven't been and things you haven't done.

You should hang in there and see what's yet to come.

gl
Dance those ultras
Issor
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States870 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-08-04 05:42:19
August 04 2010 05:23 GMT
#64
edit: leave
Crisis_
Profile Blog Joined July 2008
United States165 Posts
August 04 2010 05:25 GMT
#65
Don't quit now man. You can master your destiny. You can become what you've always wanted to become. You just need to start making changes, one at a time.

Legends never GG.
Megalisk
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States6095 Posts
August 04 2010 05:29 GMT
#66
On August 04 2010 14:06 ccou wrote:
Show nested quote +
On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
At this point I feel like I'd be better off being some poor starving kid in Somalia or something, at least then there would be a purpose to life.


First of all, fuck you; no one in the right mind chooses to starve. There's no twisted honor in living with a tight food budget. Don't think you're entitled to all the good things in life. Most people work very hard still won't achieve them , this includes a purpose to life. And don't expect people to provide for you, like the internet for a purpose to life, have some pride and self-reliance.

Second, are you in high school or college? Did you get 1970 on your SATs or 1940? There seems to be plenty of ambiguity.
http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=132865#1

Third, fuck you.


Holy shit lol. Hes lying in one the blogs..but which one!
Tear stained american saints and dirty guitar dreams across a universe of desert and blue sky , gas station coffee love letters and two dollar pistol kisses from thirty five dollar hotel room stationary .
TheAntZ
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
Israel6248 Posts
August 04 2010 05:30 GMT
#67
On August 04 2010 14:29 Megalisk wrote:
Show nested quote +
On August 04 2010 14:06 ccou wrote:
On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
At this point I feel like I'd be better off being some poor starving kid in Somalia or something, at least then there would be a purpose to life.


First of all, fuck you; no one in the right mind chooses to starve. There's no twisted honor in living with a tight food budget. Don't think you're entitled to all the good things in life. Most people work very hard still won't achieve them , this includes a purpose to life. And don't expect people to provide for you, like the internet for a purpose to life, have some pride and self-reliance.

Second, are you in high school or college? Did you get 1970 on your SATs or 1940? There seems to be plenty of ambiguity.
http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=132865#1

Third, fuck you.


Holy shit lol. Hes lying in one the blogs..but which one!


either way seems like this is a 'LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME' blog
ban imo
43084 | Honeybadger: "So july, you're in the GSL finals. How do you feel?!" ~ July: "HUNGRY."
sTopDOingThat
Profile Joined August 2010
1 Post
Last Edited: 2010-08-04 05:32:13
August 04 2010 05:31 GMT
#68
Just shoot up Vtech, that'll solve all your problems

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User was temp banned for this post.
cemlions
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
Canada43 Posts
August 04 2010 05:33 GMT
#69
I suspect this is a troll, but my best advice is to make good dietary choices, stay away from refined sugar, and empty carbohydrates(chips, ect), and eat more whole foods(grains,vegetables). I personally prefer eating for energy than eating as a pleasure or what not. It's like right now, I finished work, and I could go grab a candy bar while watching some VODs after this or I could eat nothing having not to digest while I sleep, instead I will drink water, and wake up tomorrow morning feeling better rested than otherwise and hungry for a good breakfast.
I knew I wasn't a noob cause I just didn't feel good when I was noobing out
Megalisk
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States6095 Posts
August 04 2010 05:34 GMT
#70
On August 04 2010 14:31 sTopDOingThat wrote:
Just shoot up Vtech, that'll solve all your problems


Enjoy your ban, and I assume your using an alternate account, so enjoy the ban on your main account too .
Tear stained american saints and dirty guitar dreams across a universe of desert and blue sky , gas station coffee love letters and two dollar pistol kisses from thirty five dollar hotel room stationary .
Rkie
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
United States1278 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-08-04 05:58:14
August 04 2010 05:44 GMT
#71
I have seen many comments about this being a troll, so if its true, i think a repeat of the DreaM)XeRO thing is imminent. I hope it isnt though.


qzmpwxno wrote:High school. Long story short...I wish I had spent more time studying in high school instead of goofing off. I barely got into the college of my choice, since my gpa was around 2.6, but my SAT score of 1940 was supposedly higher than average for the students at that college. I finally worked past a lot of my shyness (especially around girls) and became more of a funny guy and started to focus on small talk when hitting off with girls. I became just not caring about anything or anyone and walking my own road...the road I thought would make me happy. I didn't exactly date anyone but I was friends with a lot of girls. But still...still...there was an empty feeling inside.

---
Fast forward: May 2010. A few days before the end of my junior year of college I saw Katie again, and I couldn't believe it!! I hadn't seen in her over 10 years, but I immediately recognized her in the split second I saw of her. I didn't even know she was in the same college as me. Anyway, I thought about talking to her, but I figured it would just be too weird. There was no way I could project my longings and desire for her in a way that wouldn't come off as creepy, and on top of that she barely knew who I was anyway (lol).


On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
I'm a high school junior and will be a senior this fall.



yep, i think this sums it all up.
prOxi.swAMi
Profile Blog Joined November 2004
Australia3091 Posts
August 04 2010 05:46 GMT
#72
On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
It has occurred to me that none of my happiness, and also none of my misery, means anything to anyone. People might pretend to take an interest in you, but in the end they're all in it for their own benefit.

Your expectations are up shit-creek sir. If you expect people to be in it for your benefit rather than their own, you're the one being a dick. You make your life's achievements and happiness through your own virtues. Not those of others. Other people might find value in helping you out on occasion, and it's cool when that happens. But criticising others for living life 'for themselves' is pretty retarded dude. Personally I congratulate people who are in it for themselves. You're not born indebted to anybody else.
Oh no
blahman3344
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
United States2015 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-08-04 05:50:40
August 04 2010 05:48 GMT
#73
For the first and half of the second paragraph, it essentially describes my situation.

Look man, highschool is always full of this drama bull and you just gotta make it out of there in one piece so that you can have a fresh start in college. If you have sincere friends, then that's all you need, because i would rather have a few sincere friends instead of a crapload of insincere ones.

As for the health problems, what you need to do is tackle them head on. Go exercise, eat healthier, do what you need to do to overcome the problems, and things will start looking up. During this school year, i was hospitalized twice for a lung condition, and it was because my body type (tall/thin) plus lack of exercise caused it. Now what I'm doing is building my body up and exercising so that it can never happen again. What I'm trying to say here is put in the effort, and the rewards will be worth it.
I really hope this helps, and I hope things start looking up for you.

edit: wait....i think we're getting tricked here? In this blog he says hes a rising senior in HS, but in his other blog he says college...<_<
I like haikus and / I can not lie. You other / brothers can't deny
Lexpar
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
1813 Posts
August 04 2010 05:52 GMT
#74
dude my "friends" are always stealing my ti84s. i buy like 12 a year just to keep up. get used to it thats just how socilzations work
Deleted User 3420
Profile Blog Joined May 2003
24492 Posts
August 04 2010 06:03 GMT
#75
On August 04 2010 14:06 ccou wrote:
Show nested quote +
On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
At this point I feel like I'd be better off being some poor starving kid in Somalia or something, at least then there would be a purpose to life.


First of all, fuck you; no one in the right mind chooses to starve. There's no twisted honor in living with a tight food budget. Don't think you're entitled to all the good things in life. Most people work very hard still won't achieve them , this includes a purpose to life. And don't expect people to provide for you, like the internet for a purpose to life, have some pride and self-reliance.

Second, are you in high school or college? Did you get 1970 on your SATs or 1940? There seems to be plenty of ambiguity.
http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=132865#1

Third, fuck you.


you're an idiot. you're getting all mad when apparently you don't understand what he is saying at all.


OP: the problem is your mindset. you're taking a lot of shit for granted so work on your mindset. life is very simple it's not hard to find things to appreciate if you don't overcomplicate.
ieatkids5
Profile Blog Joined September 2004
United States4628 Posts
August 04 2010 06:04 GMT
#76
On August 04 2010 14:44 Rkie wrote:
I have seen many comments about this being a troll, so if its true, i think a repeat of the DreaM)XeRO thing is imminent. I hope it isnt though.


Show nested quote +
qzmpwxno wrote:High school. Long story short...I wish I had spent more time studying in high school instead of goofing off. I barely got into the college of my choice, since my gpa was around 2.6, but my SAT score of 1940 was supposedly higher than average for the students at that college. I finally worked past a lot of my shyness (especially around girls) and became more of a funny guy and started to focus on small talk when hitting off with girls. I became just not caring about anything or anyone and walking my own road...the road I thought would make me happy. I didn't exactly date anyone but I was friends with a lot of girls. But still...still...there was an empty feeling inside.

---
Fast forward: May 2010. A few days before the end of my junior year of college I saw Katie again, and I couldn't believe it!! I hadn't seen in her over 10 years, but I immediately recognized her in the split second I saw of her. I didn't even know she was in the same college as me. Anyway, I thought about talking to her, but I figured it would just be too weird. There was no way I could project my longings and desire for her in a way that wouldn't come off as creepy, and on top of that she barely knew who I was anyway (lol).


Show nested quote +
On August 04 2010 11:43 qzmpwxno wrote:
I'm a high school junior and will be a senior this fall.



yep, i think this sums it all up.

i love TL detective work
Z3kk
Profile Blog Joined December 2009
4099 Posts
August 04 2010 06:12 GMT
#77
Oh WOW, I just realized what made the opening poster a troll. I was rereading "junior" and "senior" over and over again, until I realized that he previously stated that he was a junior and college, and now he is *supposedly* a junior in high school.

I especially like the abrupt and stark disparity in tone between the posts. Perhaps he felt his happy-go-lucky tone didn't attract enough readers, and therefore decided to give a gloom-and-doom post in a desperate attempts to secure more blog/entry views...
Failure is not falling down over and over again. Failure is refusing to get back up.
Masamune
Profile Joined January 2007
Canada3401 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-08-04 06:17:36
August 04 2010 06:15 GMT
#78
ieatkids5, don't trivialize his blog just because you feel your life or other peoples lives were/are "harder".

Maybe he's fixating on things that would seem minuscule to you, but it still bothers him as much as your problems did for you. Not everyone's the same and hopefully he'll find a way around his issues.

Even if this is a trollpost, who cares? I'm sure there are kids reading this who are feeling exactly what he's going through...
news
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
892 Posts
August 04 2010 06:25 GMT
#79
Even if they are feeling like this, masamune, they always threaten to suicide because they starve for this kind of attention and sympathy. I don't think any of them will get better if I offer my compassion and thought on the matter, they will just come back for more. Usually these are the people that need professional treatment, not sympathy. Threads like this should not be allowed just because.
"Althought it sounds sexism, and probably is, given the right context, we cannot classify the statement itself as a sexist statement by itself," - evanthebouncy!
Masamune
Profile Joined January 2007
Canada3401 Posts
Last Edited: 2010-08-04 06:35:53
August 04 2010 06:34 GMT
#80
Or maybe they feel like they have no way out and venting anonymously on a public forum suits them better when they have no one to talk to about it?

Like I said before, I'm 100% certain that there are other kids out there feeling depressed and/or who have contemplated suicide, reading the advice from people here so it serves some kind of purpose. Besides, there are and will be worse blogs out there, so I don't see the problem with having the occasional "I may be an attentionwhore, but I still need help" blogs.

Sometimes even the most basic advice can help and I recall seeing someone post a hotline number, so who knows? Maybe they used that and found some relief?
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