EPTYes, I do miss those moments in which we would gather up and play CWs, watch reps and get feedback, go watch progamers and spam up the chat, and simply watch ourselves just grow and become better players overall. But somehow I've lost all of that; I don't feel good anymore when I watch progamers play, I don't enjoy playing competitively, I simply just don't like the game anymore.
Or at least that's what I thought until a week ago, in which I realized what was the source of all of those feelings that made me quit the game and hate it, the game I've had in my closet since I was in 2nd grade.
My fucking pride.
I don't know if it's a Venezuelan thing (I'm from there) but all my Venezuelan friends share the same feeling I do, and I'm not joking about this: We are dicks, we are cocky, we dirty players, we are naturally BM, we like to think we don't need anybody because we're just too good, and we hate losing like fuck.
This is how an usual ICCup "mass gaming" day would be for me:
- Go to ICC
- Find a game you know you WILL win
- If you win the game, think you're the big papa and leave and do 1 of 2 things: play the next game 10-20 minutes later, after you're done doing something else, or stop playing for fear you might lose the next game.
- If you lose you do 1 of 2 things: punch the fucking wall and get extremely emotional about it, or go BM mode and after the guy killed all your floating buildings, go bash a D- noob like 10 times.
That's how all my Venezuelan friends are too, not just me, but I'd say I fit all of those descriptions above. That is truly what made me quit StarCraft (of course it isn't the main thing but plays a big part).
There is no such thing as "mass gaming" for me, that term does not exist. The most I've played in one day ever would be like 6 games (given I win 5 of them). I'm just too scared to lose points even if I play on an account called IDONTCAREABOUTSTATS.
I need your help trying to get out of this loop my friends =( I want to play and enjoy the game like I used to when I started. For fun.
Tips?
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