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Today is December 4th, 2017. I haven't posted here in about a month and a half, and I felt the need to let things out. I haven't necessarily "broken down", per se, because I can tell you firsthand that when you have to hold in your emotions for long periods of time, you eventually get good at it. I just felt the need to share what's been on my mind.
Am I depressed? I don't know. There's no way I can be depressed right now. I've had a lot of blessings in my life, so I don't really think I have the right to be depressed. Christmas is coming up as well, and this is supposed to be the season of joy. Even still, though, there's this feeling of sadness inside me. I'm not exactly sure where it came from or why it's there, but what I can tell you is that it feels like something's bottling up inside of me, like the beast waiting to be let out.
I've felt anxious about a lot of things: if I say something wrong, I'll overthink it. "What if that person doesn't like me? What if I did something wrong to scare them away?" It's something that can really mess you up inside.
Sorry I haven't been as active on here, I've been meaning to post on here, but I really couldn't think of anything a̶l̶s̶o̶ ̶I̶'̶v̶e̶ ̶b̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶p̶u̶t̶t̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶o̶f̶f̶.
I honestly have nothing more to say. Letting all that out felt good.
~David
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Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^
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On December 05 2017 15:27 Powerpill wrote:
Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^
Thank you ^_^
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could be seasonal depression but i wouldn't jump straight to pills, maybe try getting more sun and exercise lol
it's natural to get a little anxious and depressed every now and then regardless of your circumstances. sometimes it hard to pin down what the issue is. lack of defined goals, lack of sun/exercise are common cases
i like your blogs keep it up man
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On December 05 2017 15:27 Powerpill wrote:
Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^
You're seriously recommending benzodiazepines to someone over the internet?
"I feel nervous about relationships. I don't know what to say sometimes."
"YOU SHOULD TAKE CLONAZEPAM."
I don't know if this is a joke between friends, but if it's not, it's kind of fucked-up.
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Don't worry you don't owe anyone anything, just post whenever you feel like it, and if you feel like it!
About the feelings, I don't know, could be anything. Do a bit of sports, see some friends, get some of vitamin something (oranges and sun)!
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On December 07 2017 00:41 ninazerg wrote:Show nested quote +On December 05 2017 15:27 Powerpill wrote:
Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^ You're seriously recommending benzodiazepines to someone over the internet? "I feel nervous about relationships. I don't know what to say sometimes." "YOU SHOULD TAKE CLONAZEPAM." I don't know if this is a joke between friends, but if it's not, it's kind of fucked-up.
Oh well, I guess the road to hell is truly paved with good intentions. (I never said he should, I said it "may" help, and to talk with his PCP. I've personally found low doses highly beneficial for rough spots, but you are right, they can be highly addictive if not used correctly and temporarily, and create more of a problem than the initial.)
Regardless, the fact that David's repeatedly mentioning feelings of depression, and negative feelings "bottling up inside, waiting to be released like a beast" is a bit more than simply feeling "nervous about relationships". Exercise and sun are a great start, but a therapist may prove to be beneficial if these feelings continue or worsen.
But you are right nina, it was kind of a "fucked up" thing for me to do; I apologize for the medication recommendation, as that should be left entirely up to a professional in your area that you meet in person. It was silly of me to do so, but it came from an empathetic place.
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On December 07 2017 08:12 Powerpill wrote:Show nested quote +On December 07 2017 00:41 ninazerg wrote:On December 05 2017 15:27 Powerpill wrote:
Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^ You're seriously recommending benzodiazepines to someone over the internet? "I feel nervous about relationships. I don't know what to say sometimes." "YOU SHOULD TAKE CLONAZEPAM." I don't know if this is a joke between friends, but if it's not, it's kind of fucked-up. Oh well, I guess the road to hell is truly paved with good intentions. (I never said he should, I said it "may" help, and to talk with his PCP. I've personally found low doses highly beneficial for rough spots, but you are right, they can be highly addictive if not used correctly and temporarily, and create more of a problem than the initial.) Regardless, the fact that David's repeatedly mentioning feelings of depression, and negative feelings "bottling up inside, waiting to be released like a beast" is a bit more than simply feeling "nervous about relationships". Exercise and sun are a great start, but a therapist may prove to be beneficial if these feelings continue or worsen. But you are right nina, it was kind of a "fucked up" thing for me to do; I apologize for the medication recommendation, as that should be left entirely up to a professional in your area that you meet in person. It was silly of me to do so, but it came from an empathetic place.
Sorry if I came off as really hostile. I didn't know if it was a joke or not, because your name is "Powerpill". I mean your screen-name. That would be really unlikely that your parents named you Powerpill in real life. But I'm just firmly against the prescription of opioids, benzos, barbiturates, and other highly-addictive drugs, because getting off of them can be nearly impossible, and can actually kill a person trying to quit them.
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On December 07 2017 13:23 ninazerg wrote:Show nested quote +On December 07 2017 08:12 Powerpill wrote:On December 07 2017 00:41 ninazerg wrote:On December 05 2017 15:27 Powerpill wrote:
Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^ You're seriously recommending benzodiazepines to someone over the internet? "I feel nervous about relationships. I don't know what to say sometimes." "YOU SHOULD TAKE CLONAZEPAM." I don't know if this is a joke between friends, but if it's not, it's kind of fucked-up. Oh well, I guess the road to hell is truly paved with good intentions. (I never said he should, I said it "may" help, and to talk with his PCP. I've personally found low doses highly beneficial for rough spots, but you are right, they can be highly addictive if not used correctly and temporarily, and create more of a problem than the initial.) Regardless, the fact that David's repeatedly mentioning feelings of depression, and negative feelings "bottling up inside, waiting to be released like a beast" is a bit more than simply feeling "nervous about relationships". Exercise and sun are a great start, but a therapist may prove to be beneficial if these feelings continue or worsen. But you are right nina, it was kind of a "fucked up" thing for me to do; I apologize for the medication recommendation, as that should be left entirely up to a professional in your area that you meet in person. It was silly of me to do so, but it came from an empathetic place. Sorry if I came off as really hostile. I didn't know if it was a joke or not, because your name is "Powerpill". I mean your screen-name. That would be really unlikely that your parents named you Powerpill in real life. But I'm just firmly against the prescription of opioids, benzos, barbiturates, and other highly-addictive drugs, because getting off of them can be nearly impossible, and can actually kill a person trying to quit them.
Yeah, I'd prefer not to be prescribed opioids anyway lol
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On December 07 2017 21:29 DeNikSSB wrote:Show nested quote +On December 07 2017 13:23 ninazerg wrote:On December 07 2017 08:12 Powerpill wrote:On December 07 2017 00:41 ninazerg wrote:On December 05 2017 15:27 Powerpill wrote:
Seasonal serotonin imbalance with possible minor anxiety disorder. A conservative start with 0.25mg clonazapam 2x daily and 25mg sertraline 1x in morning for one month may get you over the hump.
Your PCP may be able to supply you with both. Feel better soon. ^_^ You're seriously recommending benzodiazepines to someone over the internet? "I feel nervous about relationships. I don't know what to say sometimes." "YOU SHOULD TAKE CLONAZEPAM." I don't know if this is a joke between friends, but if it's not, it's kind of fucked-up. Oh well, I guess the road to hell is truly paved with good intentions. (I never said he should, I said it "may" help, and to talk with his PCP. I've personally found low doses highly beneficial for rough spots, but you are right, they can be highly addictive if not used correctly and temporarily, and create more of a problem than the initial.) Regardless, the fact that David's repeatedly mentioning feelings of depression, and negative feelings "bottling up inside, waiting to be released like a beast" is a bit more than simply feeling "nervous about relationships". Exercise and sun are a great start, but a therapist may prove to be beneficial if these feelings continue or worsen. But you are right nina, it was kind of a "fucked up" thing for me to do; I apologize for the medication recommendation, as that should be left entirely up to a professional in your area that you meet in person. It was silly of me to do so, but it came from an empathetic place. Sorry if I came off as really hostile. I didn't know if it was a joke or not, because your name is "Powerpill". I mean your screen-name. That would be really unlikely that your parents named you Powerpill in real life. But I'm just firmly against the prescription of opioids, benzos, barbiturates, and other highly-addictive drugs, because getting off of them can be nearly impossible, and can actually kill a person trying to quit them. Yeah, I'd prefer not to be prescribed opioids anyway lol
Well, what I will say is that opioids have a much more visible effect on most people than benzos, benzos can be just as physically addictive. I'm talking about in terms of quitting them. You can have seizures and shit.
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