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Whiplash
Profile Blog Joined October 2008
United States2929 Posts
April 10 2014 13:46 GMT
#41
Sup dude we haven't talked in awhile! Also I guess your trying to emulate the looks of that model.
Cinematographer / Steadicam Operator. Former Starcraft commentator/player
Zergneedsfood
Profile Blog Joined September 2008
United States10671 Posts
April 10 2014 14:53 GMT
#42
Boes ilu pls don't be so sad.
/人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\ Make a contract with me and join TLADT | Onodera isn't actually a girl, she's just a doormat you walk over to get to the girl. - Numy 2015
JBright
Profile Joined September 2010
Vancouver14381 Posts
April 10 2014 18:43 GMT
#43
On April 10 2014 23:53 Zergneedsfood wrote:
Boes ilu pls don't be so sad.

ModeratorThe good and the wise lead quiet lives. Neo's #1 Frenemy and nightmare.
L_Master
Profile Blog Joined April 2009
United States8017 Posts
April 10 2014 19:04 GMT
#44
Cool blog, was a fun read!

I wish I had some insight as far as depression goes, almost never in a bad mood or unhappy...so I'm not sure if what "works" for me is at all applicable to your situation.

I really don't even have a clue what depression could be like in all honesty, but best of luck finding what works for you and fighting back up out of that!
EffOrt and Soulkey Hwaiting!
darkscream
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Canada2310 Posts
April 10 2014 20:01 GMT
#45
A very dear friend of mine is going through similar stuff, she has been in a dark place all week and i've been helping, so i hope it works out for you too. The key is trying to remember that your will is above all things, even your emotions. It's hard to stay focused like that, good luck with the new counselling.


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i know exactly who you are, soshitter

Ansinjunger
Profile Joined November 2010
United States2451 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-04-10 20:55:51
April 10 2014 20:44 GMT
#46
That looks like Julian Sark giving you a haircut. On a more serious note, good luck; I hope you live long and happier.

I've heard that being willing to talk about these things is often an important first step, but I've also found it's easy in my mind to find excuses if you fail a little. Hopefully you try to halt the downward spiral wherever it starts. I'm in the middle of one, and I've stopped enough times to feel good about it, I start to wonder if I start and stop just to feel good about quitting. It's pretty shitty. So easy to find excuses to beat yourself up--again good luck.
Rekrul
Profile Blog Joined November 2002
Korea (South)17174 Posts
April 11 2014 00:01 GMT
#47
i hate you
why so 진지해?
Harem
Profile Joined November 2007
United States11393 Posts
April 11 2014 00:10 GMT
#48
On April 11 2014 04:04 L_Master wrote:
I really don't even have a clue what depression could be like in all honesty

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.ca/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html
http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.html

That explains far better than you will probably hear elsewhere.

If tl;dr then:
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[image loading]

Moderator。◕‿◕。
Bebop07
Profile Blog Joined January 2010
United States291 Posts
April 11 2014 00:15 GMT
#49
I've been to mental health facilities 4 times in the past 2-3 years with suicidal thoughts/ideation. going there didn't change anything..all the psyche meds did nothing but make me even worse. i would go to parties just to get drunk and forget the world..i didn't enjoy it but I did it anyway so as to escape from life. i had a moment where i drank so much i thought i was going to die..and my heart was opened and I just begged God to not let me die..i don't know if he did save me or not that night, i cannot be sure. i had other instances like that where i just knew deep down i was going to hell though i had been agnostic for a very long time. then one night i stopped making excuses for what I've done and was honest with myself about what a disgusting sinful human being i am. i apologized to my parents for all i'd done..and then...i went to take a shower and my emotions were still running very high. i shared this story on one of my blogs but, i still want to share it to anyone and everyone. at some point in the shower i felt a force make my legs wobbly and incredibly weak..like nothing I've ever felt before. the exact details moment by moment i do not remember, but what i do remember is i let myself collapse under the force which I fully believe was from God and i cried out from my heart for Jesus to save me. at that exact moment...i literally felt my old spirit..filled with grief and hopelessness and evil leave me..and a new spirit was given to me...The Holy Spirit..the gift and salvation from Jesus Christ was given to me. i knew from that exact moment Jesus was and is the son of God. a lot of learning has happened since as well as miraculous things going on around me. if anyone wants to know more via PM id be glad to try to help if I can.
hasuprotoss
Profile Blog Joined March 2004
United States4612 Posts
April 11 2014 02:03 GMT
#50
ilu boes, you fat piece of shit :^)
http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/index.php?viewdays=0&show_part=5 <--- Articles Section on TL
dronebabo
Profile Blog Joined December 2003
10866 Posts
April 11 2014 04:23 GMT
#51
--- Nuked ---
Jerubaal
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States7684 Posts
April 11 2014 05:47 GMT
#52
The consolation of sartorialness.
I'm not stupid, a marauder just shot my brain.
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
April 11 2014 09:35 GMT
#53
On April 11 2014 09:01 Rekrul wrote:
i love to hate you



i always knew you were erasure fanboy

Denar
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
France1633 Posts
April 11 2014 12:22 GMT
#54
Cult of Fire and Xasthur are amazing, I share those muscial tastes with you!

Black Metal lets emotions go loose, makes me feel alive, it helped me so much when I was going down, losing my body in the hospital, I hope it can help you as well, pick you back up.
Chef
Profile Blog Joined August 2005
10810 Posts
April 11 2014 12:57 GMT
#55
Everyone has a few pennies of advice about depression, here is mine:

Consider learning a little about Buddhism. Not to become a Buddhist (I'm certainly not one myself), but just for some food for thought and some ideas about how to think of life. It is one of the few religions that is really down to earth and deals with how to live this life. I think for people suffering from depression, it also starts from very agreeable ideas. "All is suffering" is the starting point. Then discussion turns to how to reduce suffering in the world both for yourself and for others, and somehow from this very dark starting point turns into a religion with a very positive outlook.

Some ideas that I've taken to heart myself:

Desire creates dissatisfaction and attachment. [Which I take to mean don't desire things that are completely unfulfillable, like yearning after models ;p]

When you hate someone, feel that hate as if it were directed toward yourself. You may begin to pity that person, and realise a little that they are not unaware or conscienceless.

Learn to let things go. [Wrongs that have been done to you, frustrations, wrongs you've done to yourself and others... Repentance is better observed by doing good for others than by cyclical thoughts.]

I think as humans it is hard to stop our feelings, nor really should we, but it is important to try to see our feelings as ephemeral and ourselves and the world as constantly changing, never the same as it was the moment before (the classic Buddhist image is of the flickering flame of a candle).

For me it is not the only piece of the puzzle in dealing with these feelings, but it is an important one. I look back each year and see that my coping mechanisms have improved and become more healthy, and that I'm figuring out how to escape patterns of extreme negativity when I fall into them, to forgive more and live freer.

IMO the key is self-reliance and understanding. The self-reliance is the part our culture does not understand
LEGEND!! LEGEND!!
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
April 11 2014 17:44 GMT
#56
On April 11 2014 21:57 Chef wrote:
Everyone has a few pennies of advice about depression, here is mine:

Consider learning a little about Buddhism. Not to become a Buddhist (I'm certainly not one myself), but just for some food for thought and some ideas about how to think of life. It is one of the few religions that is really down to earth and deals with how to live this life. I think for people suffering from depression, it also starts from very agreeable ideas. "All is suffering" is the starting point. Then discussion turns to how to reduce suffering in the world both for yourself and for others, and somehow from this very dark starting point turns into a religion with a very positive outlook.

Some ideas that I've taken to heart myself:

Desire creates dissatisfaction and attachment. [Which I take to mean don't desire things that are completely unfulfillable, like yearning after models ;p]

When you hate someone, feel that hate as if it were directed toward yourself. You may begin to pity that person, and realise a little that they are not unaware or conscienceless.

Learn to let things go. [Wrongs that have been done to you, frustrations, wrongs you've done to yourself and others... Repentance is better observed by doing good for others than by cyclical thoughts.]

I think as humans it is hard to stop our feelings, nor really should we, but it is important to try to see our feelings as ephemeral and ourselves and the world as constantly changing, never the same as it was the moment before (the classic Buddhist image is of the flickering flame of a candle).

For me it is not the only piece of the puzzle in dealing with these feelings, but it is an important one. I look back each year and see that my coping mechanisms have improved and become more healthy, and that I'm figuring out how to escape patterns of extreme negativity when I fall into them, to forgive more and live freer.

IMO the key is self-reliance and understanding. The self-reliance is the part our culture does not understand



greeks beg to differ
they would put desire as the first motive in everything
Roe
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
Canada6002 Posts
April 11 2014 20:14 GMT
#57
It's probably time to shave and get a hair cut
jpak
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
United States5045 Posts
April 11 2014 20:51 GMT
#58
On April 11 2014 18:35 Boonbag wrote:
Show nested quote +
On April 11 2014 09:01 Rekrul wrote:
i love to hate you



i always knew you were erasure fanboy


obligatory harmony harmony oh yeah!

Kill me...

But seriously, feel better.
CJ Entusman #50! #1 클템 fan TL!
Boonbag
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
France3318 Posts
April 11 2014 22:12 GMT
#59
On April 12 2014 05:51 jpak wrote:
Show nested quote +
On April 11 2014 18:35 Boonbag wrote:
On April 11 2014 09:01 Rekrul wrote:
i love to hate you



i always knew you were erasure fanboy


obligatory harmony harmony oh yeah!

Kill me...

But seriously, feel better.


=]
tonight
Profile Blog Joined November 2006
United States11130 Posts
April 12 2014 01:18 GMT
#60
i hate you and the #12 sucks

lololol

just kidding. I love you and would give you man sized bear hugs if you weren't worlds away
if I come without a thing, then I come with all I need @tonightsend
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