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I don't think I'm in the right one. Lately my CTS has been acting up a lot and I've had the most pain from it than I've had in the past 3 years of my 8 years of having it. I've been feeling really bored in classes and the only fun in school is 3rd block lunch, english class and my extra-curriculars.
I do esports and video games. It's basically all I do, but lately with my wrist I've opted to take a break from it to rest and I've been bored as hell at home. I've been lost in thought like I used to do when I'd stay up to 8AM doing nothing during the summer and I always told myself it was because I ran out of things to do, so I'd just think.
I'd think about anything that popped in, the way I go about things, the way I interact with people and specifically relationships that I have with people. Of course me being a nerdy little child that doesn't really have the greatest home family life, I just have 3 categories of people, acquaintances, friends, and 'family'.
I find that everyone I meet through (or have met previously but are also in) extra-curriculars that I'm in, I've found them to be a friend or family to me. A lot of them I work with very closely and have just hung out with them, enjoying whatever time I'm allowed to have with this ridiculous notion of a temporary family I've got.
For a month or so, it's just this temporary family that has been keeping me with anything to do. So I go and I talk with them, try to help out with whatever I can. Sometimes when a few of us can get together at someone's house I'll play a bit of smash with them and we have fun. When I have a Drama Company meeting for anything, I'm pumped for it. Because you know what? I actually get to do something. I will get to be with people that I actually enjoy being around and share similar interests with.
But of course, eventually I have to head home, back to my bedroom that I barely leave, with a family that I'm rather disconnected from in a house where I sit for about 4-6 hours before I go to sleep. I want to play. It's what I do. It's what I've done for all 15 years of my life and it's hard to just have that stripped from me so suddenly.
But I've had this happen before, probably in like 2 weeks I'll be back to normal for my standards. Then I'll continue on my journey through high school being less bored, with my 'family' still there for as long as I can have 'em. Back to the ol' esports grind, speaking into a microphone for hours on end without eating just like I used to. Soon I won't just be a square desperately trying to fit in a round hole.
Thanks for reading.
  
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When you are bored just do workouts. If doing push-ups and weights bothers your wrist then do core stuff. It makes you feel better and look better. That's pretty much what I do when I really motivate myself to do it. You will feel better the best morning for sure. But yeah doing drama or betting into something like chorus is great! Always nice people there and just a great group of folks. Things like crew and sports is cool too but if you already don't do much then just try crew. Much more accepting than conveynuonal sports.
Not sure what to say besides that. If you really feel that strongly about Esports then you should find a way to get involved other than physically gaming. I'm not experienced enough to say what but I'm sure with enough motivation you will
Find a way.
As for your family just try and make an effort to get more involved.
Maybe cool dinner/ etc? Valentines day is coming up make your fam a card!
Good luck have fun!
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I love you dalk but if you're not enjoying the work you do in eSports, you should seriously consider lessening your time in eSports to do some more activities that you enjoy. I know you work your ass off in eSports and get way less recognition for all that you do in it, but don't underestimate the importance of spending time doing what you want to/enjoy doing at your current point in life. You should feel free to go out and hang out with friends and get involved in the clubs(like Drama Company) more. eSports will be here. You can still be an active member in eSports without committing so much time to it that it makes you unhappy. Go be active. Pick up a sport.
As for family...I'm making assumptions here but if what your talking about is anything like typical asian family then I'll say hang in there. You'll feel better about your family in the future.
Hang in there. Don't get too down on yourself or box yourself out of opportunities.
Also, definitely cut your physically taxing involvement in gaming/computer usage if it's causing you problems. Having carpal tunnel for someone who is doing anything on the computer as much as you do at your age is not something to mess around with. Your health 30 to 40 years down the line is way more important.
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Yeah I'm definitely taking a break from playing for a while, like even already I've only played 2 games of StarCraft in the past 2 weeks. I'm gonna take it a bit easy on broadcasts too, whenever I have to do one I start getting a little disheartened since I can't just go play right afterwards like I did even just a month ago ;;
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work on your body posture while your at computer, and take breaks every hour because there is something wrong you're doing if it keeps coming back.
If it is your wrist that is bothering you, try playing at a lower dpi (i play at 1200 down from 3600) and it helped tremendously
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