The No Fap Experiment

Feeling good about this decision, thinking about how this decision can help me in other areas of life such as weight lifting, work, school, and my recent start-up business. First challenge is going to be the night tonight.

Decided to shower again before sleep. I found myself taking extra time shaving. Felt proud, as well as confident in this journey. Although this might be a false sense of security, I feel focused. Purely placebo, I'll not look a gift horse in the mouth however.

On a side note: within the last week I started going to the gym with my friend, and upped my bench from 135lbs to 250lbs, and my squats from 225lbs to 500lbs. I am 6'2", 170lbs for reference. I am going to track my workout growth in this thread as well.

Motivational Video of the Day:+ Show Spoiler [Music Video] +

Part 1: Morning until end of work
Woke up feeling the best I have felt waking up in a long time. Ran 130 checks for 500k with zero mistakes, although my focus started to wain. First related event was when I went to get lunch, I spotted a cute little chick with a headband, went up to her in the 10 seconds I had to spare, told her I liked that headband, It looked really good on her. Nothing more, but I felt that that was something I wouldn't have done as of yesterday. I think the urgency is beginning to take it's toll. On Facebook I got a lady to come out to a party with me tonight who as of yesterday was giving me one word responses. She says she has a boyfriend now, so I joke about how "Just because there is a goalie doesn't mean you can't score", then proceed to tell her to bring her hottest friends for me to hit on. I might have underestimated my sex drive. The next few days are going to get interesting.

Not going to the gym, but the song f the day is inspired by the lady who told me she was sorry she has a boyfriend now because she knows I love her and shit. This song was my response on Facebook.+ Show Spoiler [Music Video] +

Post-work: The Party, and clothes shopping
After everything is said and done on this night, I can say that I can see how this will be challenging. Nothing impossible, however challenging it will definitely be.

The night starts out with me going out with my family to go clothes shopping. My step-brothers birthday is today and I go out to eat and teach him a new rubber band trick. By the time I get home it is 9:30 so I quickly shower and go out to my friends. To be honest I wasn't expecting anything, however I went because I felt like I owed it to him to visit him for a change, and I wanted to put myself in the position where this experiment would be hardest for me. Sacrificing a night of opportunity sounded like a good plan. The night itself was hilarious. I was comfortable making more sexual jokes, and being more sexually honest, because nobody there was single. Utmost freedom was mine, however the down side was there were some very sexual youtube videos going on. It almost felt like cheating.

After this party I go to my local bar, to notice a band playing. I new business i started up tries to promote unsigned artists, so this becomes my conversation starter. Feeling a little out of place I walk around eventually settling in on a pair of arab guys, who instruct me that there is a group of 3 hot ladies inside. Because I was talking big up's on my game, I decide I can't back down now. I walk up to the ladies and start a conversation. What I can only assume to be one of their dads, who latter I find out was just a raging old man tries to fight me over these chicks. I walk away even after two of the ladies told me that their friend was single and said we both had glasses.

Lessons from the night:
1. Not being surrounded by sex makes approaching girls easier, especially when you have a non-direct opening.
2. Being more desperate for sex pushes you to more bravery (in the form of talking to random strangers both guys and girls).
3. Not seeing so much sex and focusing on the end goal ultimately allows you be escalate the conversation sexually earlier, because you naturally want it.
4. Social settings are exactly how you perceive them. (The old man might have actually been fucking with me, however my lack of experience in that area make me uncomfortable, something I haven't felt before during the night.

Almost broke twice now, went to a house party the two nights ago and could have hooked up with 3 different chicks. Passed because I am still in the mode where my body thinks fapping is still the backup plan. Was the life of the party and met everyone, the not jerking off really makes you go out and talk to people. I also had to read a few articles in order to motivate myself not to crack. The past two days I had no motivation to write. After reading I heard that around wednesday/thursday my testosterone levels are going to heavily spike, so I will use that day for hitting the gym, and going out. Immediately after thinking of going out on a wednesday, I thought of a local club I haven't been too in a long time that has college night on wednesdays. Now I am also thinking about how my buddy and I got a hotel room to bring chicks back to last time.

Overall I care much less about my conversations with females, I feel annoyed by them if we continue small talk for long periods of time. Would rather cut my losses and move on.

Overall I am questioning if this really is an important move to not masturbate, but my curiosity and stubbornness are holding strong. Also I am answerable to this blog and motbob, after he graciously advised me on how to not make this blog not get auto-closed.

This morning was the first morning where I was tired when I woke up. The other morning I was full of energy, this quite possibly could be because I was not wanting to go to work today and go out instead. Also I am getting agitated that no bars are open tonight. I actually went and got coffee on the way home tonight just to see if there were hot chicks there. I might go for a shirtless run in front of the school later.

My horny-scale on day 2 was probably 8/10 for a good 3 hours. I feel like today it is a 4/10. Not sure, it ail be interesting to see my outlook around day 7.

No motivation song today, just twerk music. Actually no tweak music. Fresh unsigned electric.+ Show Spoiler +

After previewing my blog on teamliquid for the first time I decided to make some changes. Also I feel like I was a slightly different person writing the introduction. Proud to say the overcome bracelet has yet to leave my wrist. Also a weird thing is how much more time I put into this blog then normal. I looked up the BBcode and experimented in order to make this blog look more presentable and easier to read.

I wasn't going to write anything today, but I felt an urge to, and here I am. Nothing has happened to far today, however I feel an itch building up inside. I was expecting to stay in tonight, maybe grab a beer with a friend and play some pool, however all of a sudden I really just want to go to a local bar where there is alot of hot chicks. I don't even want to drink, I just want to go pick up on chicks.

Also read this article:
http://themodernsavage.com/2011/02/28/porn-addiction-and-the-fall-of-men/

Interestingly enough, I am feeling less needy as well. The less neediness is coming along with confidence and a bitter honesty to myself. I am able to say borderline asshole things without having to feel bad about saying them. These comments are just internal monologues, and I am not actually telling people rude things. Very interesting situation today. I feel less want to talk to chicks who I have been talking too as friends. Crystal clear focus. I can even read articles now without zoning out.

I had a reset on day 6, so I am now at day 1. To be honest, I was already in the motions, but porn was not the same to me. Almost did not enjoy it.

Other then that there is not much information to add. Life is normal, and I am feeling at peace with my decision. My next goal is to make it further. I have not set a day, just.. further.

The only thing of notice is the gym today. Went with a personal trainer friend of mine, and I took off alot of weight from what I normally do, and got an insane burn. We did negatives on the last set, I wish I was listening to this audio while I was doing it, I feel next time I can push further. + Show Spoiler [Video/Audio] +.

Also pulled up some motivation pictures as a refresh to an old blog of mine.
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