EPTHere is an introduction to me:
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My name is Steven. I'm 17 (a senior from high school) and from California. I'm slightly above average when it comes to my school and grades. I am very introverted, and I do spend a lot of my time playing Starcraft or other video games. Unlike most high schoolers, I don't have a lot of friends that I am kind of close to. I have 3-4 close friends (all from different circles) who are all girls and we are close, but I am by no means popular (however I really do not care)
The problem I always had was "what am I going to contribute"? I don't get out as much as the average high schooler. I spend a lot of my free time playing SC or other games and the rest goes into my job and school. I'm also simply in high school. I don't have as much life experience as all of the adults and college people who post here, so I do feel a bit inadequate.
I had this idea a few days ago, which is the idea I am presenting to you all now. A big part of my life is music. I listen to music at school to drown out the noise. I listen to music to hear my feelings played out in sound. I love focusing on the words in the song and I especially enjoy a song that represents someone or a situation that is going on in my current life. I'm not so sure why but that is always the way I've enjoyed music most. Now that I've gotten the main part of idea down, let's get into the blog
The first song I want to do (I would like to do a few of these) is Sunday Morning by Maroon 5.
The first part of the song that I can relate to is just the general softness and smoothness of the song. My mornings are usually hectic, whether it is school or work (I work on Saturday mornings). Sunday morning is the only morning where I can sleep in and then just chill out and relax when I wake up. That moment seems to be represented in the music, especially in the beginning with only the drums and the piano. It's something that I can just wake up, listen to, and enjoy the moment.
The main part of the song that really resonates with me and that makes me absolutely love this song is the main message of the song. The song is about a man who is afraid of the future and the only thing that he wants is to know that after all of the hectic stuff in his life is over, he can be back with the girl that he loves. He wants to know if their love is so strong that they can overcome life getting in the way of love because he really loves his girlfriend.
The reason that this resonates with me is the fact that I am a senior in high school and I only have 2-3 months left before I graduate and go off to college. While I am only going to a local community college, my friends are leaving and everything is going to change. I've never been one for change. I like having stability in my life (who doesn't) and I enjoy what I have in my life now, even if it is not the absolute best, I've been in worse places before (maybe for another blog). I'm afraid of what is going to happen. Will I ever see my friends again? What will they end up being? What will I end up doing for a career? How will I deal with the responsibility that comes with being an adult? All this uncertainty is making me dread the day we graduate and all go our separate ways.
Right now, the only thing I can do is enjoy the moment of freedom and happiness while it lasts. Make every opportunity to talk to everyone that I care about and share laughter and smiles. Remember the happy times that have passed and try to make many more in the future until life splits us up. When that does happen, I would pay anything to get this time back, even with the good times and the bad. I want to have as many "Sunday Morning" moments as possible and that is my goal for the next 2 months.
I hope that you all enjoyed this blog. If you are in college, I would love to hear some thoughts on what I'm afraid of and if my fears are real or how big of a change graduating from high school can be. Thanks for reading, and let me know if you guys want to see more of this!
