On September 24 2012 11:31 obesechicken13 wrote:
Yes I was wondering if you were from the south to have never heard of a transgendered group for so long. That makes more sense. For whatever reasons the internet and Northern states tend to be more liberal to the idea. I think you should do what makes you happy.
I still don't understand wanting to be a woman when actually a man but that's just because I'm so distant from the idea. It's repellant to think of having sex with another man. I don't fault you for the way you think. I believe there's some research into high levels of certain hormones and genetic causes for transgendered people.
1. Do you think you'll ever get surgery and fully become a woman?
2. Do you fantasize about guys the way the average guy fantasizes about girls?
3. Since you have more female friends what do you know about them that guys don't generally know?
I also think it's weird that a straight guy would in middle school let another boy suck him off.
1. I plan on it, a lot of my dysphoria comes from looking at my genitalia and feeling it does not belong there.
2. Back when I used to be interested in sex I would fantasize about men and women equally. I consider myself biromantic and asexual so when I fantasize about guys and gals, I fantasize on a happy me as a woman with them behind me, arms around me and holding me tenderly. (Hopefully this isn't too much detail).
3. And I wouldn't say I have more female friends. I'm actually quite anti-social in real life. I'm way too awkward in public and have never felt like I fit in. I always felt I was supposed to act a certain way that was opposite of what I felt so I tended to isolate myself. Not to say I don't have friends, but its definitely a mixed bag; also I really haven't come out to that many friends yet, especially since most are school. It was kind of an epiphany of sorts when I put my emotions on the table and sorted them out.
On September 24 2012 13:00 docvoc wrote:
I'm guessing you have GID. Are you technically transgendered or are you just in a phase where you don't know because of heartbreak?
Care to elaborate? I'm not sure what you mean by heartbroke (Its been almost six years since I lost my boyfriend and we've reunited as friends but I no longer have a desire for him anymore, the woman I never cared that deeply for to begin with), but I am definitely trans. I've pretty much felt in the wrong place acting as a man while growing up, but I had never heard of people actually fixing that, only a derogatory "tranny" who does it for sexual fetishes. I am much more happy viewing myself as a woman and get very repulsed when I see myself in the mirror (mostly thinking I'll never pass because of the way I currently look). I mean if you read the spoilered section, be warned slightly graphic, especially the part about how I describe my genitalia, that's how I still view, that it doesn't belong there and never has, that its just toying with me by being there all this time just to torment me.
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