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EnE
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Elsid
Ireland318 Posts
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Cokefreak
Finland8096 Posts
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EnE
417 Posts
"The funeral procession passed by here today, confusion and questions strewn in its wake. But I feel like I knew his pain;A mechanical failure while enduring the norm. Some of us fracture, others simply deform and lose their elasticity. Never to return to the shape they were; I wonder which is worse." | ||
GMarshal
United States22154 Posts
Call them. | ||
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Elsid
Ireland318 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:19 EnE wrote: I don't want to experience more... I can't "The funeral procession passed by here today, confusion and questions strewn in its wake. But I feel like I knew his pain;A mechanical failure while enduring the norm. Some of us fracture, others simply deform and lose their elasticity. Never to return to the shape they were; I wonder which is worse." You can man you just have to , it's all that's constant , experience. It's hard yes of course it's hard at times, but we are forged by our struggles, we become who we are because we fall and learn to pick ourselves back up. Don't give up. | ||
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EnE
417 Posts
I'm scared of who ill be if I do ever recover... I feel like my entire heart is here and if I leave it I won't be anything anymore. Maybe ill be fixed. Maybe ill be a human | ||
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Cokefreak
Finland8096 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:24 EnE wrote: I'm abroad on italy with my mobile, marshall Then man the up please. Suicide is a cowards way of dealing with problems. | ||
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Probe1
United States17920 Posts
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EnE
417 Posts
I'm a vegan. I can't eat milk chocolate | ||
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imre
France9263 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:24 EnE wrote: I'm abroad on italy with my mobile, marshall I'm scared of who ill be if I do ever recover... I feel like my entire heart is here and if I leave it I won't be anything anymore. Maybe ill be fixed. Maybe ill be a human Life's just a fucking giant rollercoaster, and you always bounce back to the top. It might take some time, some help but it happens. And it's worth it. (this is coming from someone really low on the rollercoaster thingy atm...) | ||
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Mattson
Canada188 Posts
That doesn't mean the interim can be fun. Also realize that this universe has been around for 13.7 billion years. 13,700,000,000 You've only been alive for 15 of them. Death is nothing to be afraid of... you've already been dead for a hell of a long time. Why would you want to go back there so soon? | ||
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Mattson
Canada188 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:32 EnE wrote: And the one I loved... I clutched onto in a desperate attempt to live like I need to says she still loves me but she just leaves. She doesn't really want to talk to me. Noone does. I don't have a real friend and I don't think one exists that's still alive on this fucking planet. I'm a vegan. I can't eat milk chocolate You sure as hell can eat milk chocolate you just choose not to. YOU'RE the one hurting your own cause by imposing silly rules on yourself. Go eat a Big Mac ASAP. | ||
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StateofReverie
United States633 Posts
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EnE
417 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:39 StateofReverie wrote: please dont kill yourself.. I do appreciate this... I do | ||
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Chef
10810 Posts
Clear your head for a few days. You're clearly at a high point of emotional feeling right now. I know you want attention and validation, but this is such a cruel way to do it. I think you pin too much value on the opinions of others that you have no time to actually improve yourself and become who you want to be. If you want attention so badly, you should do it through learning skills that other appreciate, rather than by threatening suicide to strangers on the internet. | ||
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EtherealDeath
United States8366 Posts
Don't trust in a bloody knife, it's not trustworthy at all. Trust yourself. Knife will make it so your abilities don't have any more chances to show themselves. You never know how long it will take or what path you'll end up on. Look at a recent blog about Gene Hackman: http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=357591 The guy's a multiple Academy Award winner with many other accolades, yet he literally didn't get anything done until he was in his 40s. If he had died then, at the age of 40, no one would have remembered him. He would have been a nobody, a failed actor. Now look what he is. Why would you end it for yourself right now? So put away your knife and keep going on. Seek counseling, so you'll have some help along the way, and point yourself along some road, any road that seems to have a light in the distance, and start walking. | ||
HawaiianPig
Canada5155 Posts
I'll offer some up, for the simple purpose of giving you something to read in this time. Something to help you relate to another person. From what I can tell, you say you're feeling very alone right now. It sounds like there was someone you cared about that you've lost. Well bro, this is your first lesson in independence. Happiness, stability, and enjoyment of life begins within yourself. It does not exist in another person. You have to learn to live with yourself before you can live with others. This is why a lot of the advice you'll see in this thread encourages you to exercise, or find a hobby, or "stick it out". Enjoy yourself, and you won't have to worry about, as you put it, "leaving your heart here"... because it'll always be with you. This morose talk of life and death is something you'll look back and call an "existential crisis" when you're more lucid and learned. This is all very natural. The key thing to keep reminding yourself is that you'll bounce back. It's what people do. That's what it means to be "a human being." Even if you don't feel fit to call yourself one right now, trust me, you are. The feelings you have right now could not be more human. | ||
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EnE
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asseT
United Kingdom31 Posts
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Mattson
Canada188 Posts
On August 03 2012 08:04 asseT wrote: Sometimes I just find listening to music to make me feel better and realize that what acts that may travel through my head aren't worth it, this song is a very good one please listen to it carefully hopefully it will help you realize this action you may commit is truly not one worth the deed for whatever its cause may be but that's just life's rollacoster please don't do the silly thing, think of the people that truly love you and care about your everyday life. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GKkr29EGc-Y I agree with this... music is awesome and Radiohead would be perfect for you. | ||
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HaXXspetten
Sweden15718 Posts
Relevant: + Show Spoiler + not sure if that'll provoke a positive or negative response but that's what this thread makes me think of | ||
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novamarine
Malaysia215 Posts
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Shock710
Australia6097 Posts
Dont kill yourself! LIVE so u can tell ur friend; Teamliquid. | ||
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Rice
United States1332 Posts
I am not a religious person, I consider myself an atheist, but if there is ONE THING that is sacred, it is our life on this earth. DO NOT give that up! | ||
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AnachronisticAnarchy
United States2957 Posts
If I were you, I wouldn't kill myself over a mood shift. You have decades of opportunities that you'd be wasting over a brief burst of emotion. | ||
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beesinyoface
2450 Posts
On August 03 2012 08:48 Shock710 wrote: u have no friends? ur wrong Teamliquid is ur friend and we will always be here to listen to ur troubles, listen to when ur excited, listen to when ur happy and we havnt heard ur "happy" story so please dont do it, u need to live to tell ur happy story (perhaps the day u get married to a wonderful girl who loves u more than the world, and u can share ur experiences with us dont give up yet) and Teamliquid will be here for u Dont kill yourself! LIVE so u can tell ur friend; Teamliquid. This should be TL's slogan from now on. | ||
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EnE
417 Posts
 I can't read any replies on this page unfortunately as I have only my mobile and it seems to be full of embedded videos | ||
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Elegance
Canada917 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:52 HawaiianPig wrote: Well it looks like we're all on the train of giving advice, that's because we've all been where you are to some degree. I'll offer some up, for the simple purpose of giving you something to read in this time. Something to help you relate to another person. From what I can tell, you say you're feeling very alone right now. It sounds like there was someone you cared about that you've lost. Well bro, this is your first lesson in independence. Happiness, stability, and enjoyment of life begins within yourself. It does not exist in another person. You have to learn to live with yourself before you can live with others. This is why a lot of the advice you'll see in this thread encourages you to exercise, or find a hobby, or "stick it out". Enjoy yourself, and you won't have to worry about, as you put it, "leaving your heart here"... because it'll always be with you. This morose talk of life and death is something you'll look back and call an "existential crisis" when you're more lucid and learned. This is all very natural. The key thing to keep reminding yourself is that you'll bounce back. It's what people do. That's what it means to be "a human being." Even if you don't feel fit to call yourself one right now, trust me, you are. The feelings you have right now could not be more human. A simple realization as this (the happiness in self part) changed my life COMPLETELY. You won't notice it at first, you won't even do it right at first, but you keep telling yourself, you keep believing. I turned my life around in less than a year sticking to good mindframes such as this. Just keep it simple, YOU are the good source of emotion, not others. They leech off of your good emotion. | ||
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CecilSunkure
United States2829 Posts
As life goes on you realize that you know less and less. Taking your life is the ultimate act of naivety. Trust that you shouldn't be making the decision to take your life yet, if ever. Your problems may seem insurmountable now, but in the future you'll think with a very different perspective on your past self and past situation. I'd be sad if you left | ||
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docvoc
United States5491 Posts
+ Show Spoiler + + Show Spoiler + You can be on the edge, don't its dumb to do that, you will not ever reach a time when you will look back and say, fuck I wish i killed myself then. I promise, don't do it, call suicide hotline, get a psychologist / guidance counselor's attention and talk to them, you will feel better if you let it out. | ||
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EnE
417 Posts
Thank you all so much once again for your comments. I desperately want to come out of this in a happy place but the only person who gives me the real hope to do so, I can't be with and they continue to plague my dreams. It sounds really fucking stupid, but its the best thing I feel right now. Maybe I'm made to naturally hurt myself. I know its stupid and of course its emotional, but when I feel like this all the time, it means just so much if there's someone who talking to can lift the pain. I don't know what to do. A painful, shameful obsession with her feels so much better than this. Sc2 can't numb it anymore. Music can't numb it anymore. Even the knife is losing its sharpness. I need the love. But I know I'm not worth it from anyone. How can I even stand myself when I think I know everyone hates me really. Every sound I hear and thought I have reminds me of death and I'm more scared than I could ever comprehend. I'm sick of the fear and I feel like there's only one way to overcome it. I just don't feel a way out alive | ||
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sickle
New Zealand656 Posts
Don't worry. This is life. Life is always full of ups and downs. If your down, the only way to go is up. Take a look outside. Look how beautiful the clouds are, ever-changing and rolling across the pristine blue sky, giving way to the golden rays of life and light of the glorious sun. Enjoy it. Everything in life is beautiful. You have everything to gain if u just enjoy the gift of today and tomorrow. But everything to lose if u throw it all away. It will get better, trust me, everyone has been there. We are all with you and wish you the best. | ||
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KING CHARLIE :D
United States447 Posts
On August 03 2012 20:01 EnE wrote: I have to keep my composure, amidst the insanity... Resigned to the truth that I will not live to see, the dawn of a better day, that might wash away the sadness of this age. I try to keep the voices calling me at bay... Desperately clinging to any futile act of human decency. Thank you all so much once again for your comments. I desperately want to come out of this in a happy place but the only person who gives me the real hope to do so, I can't be with and they continue to plague my dreams. It sounds really fucking stupid, but its the best thing I feel right now. Maybe I'm made to naturally hurt myself. I know its stupid and of course its emotional, but when I feel like this all the time, it means just so much if there's someone who talking to can lift the pain. I don't know what to do. A painful, shameful obsession with her feels so much better than this. Sc2 can't numb it anymore. Music can't numb it anymore. Even the knife is losing its sharpness. I need the love. But I know I'm not worth it from anyone. How can I even stand myself when I think I know everyone hates me really. Every sound I hear and thought I have reminds me of death and I'm more scared than I could ever comprehend. I'm sick of the fear and I feel like there's only one way to overcome it. I just don't feel a way out alive Why would you kill yourself when you obviously have a promising career writing the quotes on the back of tissue boxes? | ||
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EnE
417 Posts
Its 4 pm and I guess ill get out of bed now. Its not that easy, but ill try again to bang myself into the window to the light, like a fly. | ||
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EnE
417 Posts
On August 03 2012 21:50 KING CHARLIE :D wrote: Why would you kill yourself when you obviously have a promising career writing the quotes on the back of tissue boxes? Ah, yes, I remember when I forced you to click on my BLOG, read it, and then reply to it. That must be why you're reacting aggressively towards me. | ||
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Bswhunter
Australia954 Posts
We all go through shitty phases of our life. Phases where we feel like nothing we do is working, and that we will be trapped there forever. We feel like noone else understands us and we should just leave this world. A few weeks ago, I tried marijuana for the first time. I was in a social setting around friends, but as time went on, I felt more and more disconnected and unhappy. Finally I broke through a barrier and looked at my life in the most depressing light possible. Due to the substance, the natural barriers that would prevent me from doing such a painful thing were removed. I then began to cry and feel truly like dying. However, then some friends noticed I was so sad and comforted me. After 5 minutes, I felt much better. It was this experience that taught me that feeling shitty cannot last forever. There is always some way to get better. Even if its just riding out the storm. Stay strong Also bro, don't get mad at KingCharlie. Hes just trolling/being sacrastic. He's poking fun at your situtation, and trust me in a couple of years, you'll probally find yourself thinking that you were stupid and childish at this point in time. If you want something more concrete, go read "The Power of Now". I don't know if its for you, but I found it to be very influentual. | ||
Chill
Calgary26003 Posts
On August 03 2012 07:15 Elsid wrote: Chill you're very young , there's so much to experience yet. I'm not that young. | ||
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Elsid
Ireland318 Posts
Well you certainly look it BBZ :3 | ||
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