Am I depressed? Before I make an appointment to see the doctor, I thought I would post on TL.Net to see what the brilliant people there have to say -certainly it must be better than webMD where, according to them, I have Schizophrenia.
I've lost motivation for everything, especially for school and social life, which is odd because I was very passionate about these two domains more than anything else that I had in my life. Maintaining a tight inner circle of friends who i used to hang out with two to three times a week, I no longer feel like contacting them or leaving the house but staying in my room eating endlessly and playing HoN. The 4.0 gpa that i had in the first semester, something which i was very proud about, means nothing to me now, and school has lost all its meaning. I try to get down to study but it's really hard to do something when you just dont give two shits about it.
Before I used to be a very 'caught up' person, I would be very emotional and quick to react and many of my friends have always told me to chill out before I made the next move. But now, I feel like I'm on the opposite ends of this spectrum, I no longer really care about anything, I no longer have any initiative to be excited or have something to overreact about.
I am exhausted all the time- normally I would be a morning person where i got up and felt refreshed with 5~6 hours of sleep, turn the TV on, browse teamliquid and gg.net while sipping on some coffee and eating cereal. But these days, 9-10 hours of sleep don't even cut it for me and I feel tired all the time.
But the most odd thing is, I'm not sad. I have no reason to be sad.I don't have beef with anybody or have failed at something I tried hard at, I look back at the situation I am in and I can say that i am more than blessed with everything i have.
So Teamliquid, what do you think? Am I depressed? Or am I just having a bitch syndrome where I just need to chill the fuck out for a bit,roll a j, and wait for it to pass on?
I have the same issue. I saw an analyst and he feels I have depression, I stopped seeing him after that appointment bla bla bla
You need to find why you feel the way you do before determining you label how you feel under an umbrella term like Depression. Naturally your lack of motivation and desire to achieve socially and within your education is an issue, but to know would be infinitely easier to understand yourself and save time seeing an analyst (instead of speaking several appointments trying to pinpoint the source).
Sounds like depression to me. I was depressed from age 4 onward to varying degrees, sometimes managing nothing but just laying on my hammock and other times almost completely normal. Also, I had trouble telling I was depressed, despite the fact I was, literally, doing nothing but laying on the hammock all day sometimes. Still, no matter what the team liquid posters say, you still need to see a doctor. Depression is a chemical abnormality in the brain and will kill you if you try to ignore it.
Ypu dont have Schizophrenia, this is a very complex condition. Dont trust internet doctors/sites, really. Just go to a psychiatrist. Maybe You have a burn out syndrom, maybe You are procrastinating or just lazy? Set up some new goals, change the day schedule, try to do something new. Find a girfriend, go to the cooking class. Make a fukin change, no excuses.
meet someone, get ur friends to do stuff with You, play soccer/baskerball, go to the gym, set up some new goals.
Something similar happened to me in college. Freshman year I was the go getter, I was in student government and some other campus organizations pretty much the campus revolutionary, working two+ jobs, kept up decent grades, would party and drink like crazy, always hanging out with friends, doing crazy things with the master set of campus keys I had because of my on-campus job. By my senior year I skipped about 50% of my classes, slept in, had quit all my extra curiculars, stopped drinking so crazily (though I still worked really hard at my job, I felt that was important).
I think it is just something that can naturally happen in an environment like college, a lot of people mellow out quite a bit.
That being said, you should not be consulting TL for mental health advice. Depression is a serious thing that left untreated can lead to people committing suicide. If you feel like you need help, go see a therapist. The worst thing that happens is you waste an hour of your life, best thing that can happen is treatment of a potentially serious condition.
On February 01 2012 05:38 Rickson wrote: Am I depressed? Before I make an appointment to see the doctor, I thought I would post on TL.Net to see what the brilliant people there have to say -certainly it must be better than webMD where, according to them, I have Schizophrenia.
I've lost motivation for everything, especially for school and social life, which is odd because I was very passionate about these two domains more than anything else that I had in my life. Maintaining a tight inner circle of friends who i used to hang out with two to three times a week, I no longer feel like contacting them or leaving the house but staying in my room eating endlessly and playing HoN. The 4.0 gpa that i had in the first semester, something which i was very proud about, means nothing to me now, and school has lost all its meaning. I try to get down to study but it's really hard to do something when you just dont give two shits about it.
Before I used to be a very 'caught up' person, I would be very emotional and quick to react and many of my friends have always told me to chill out before I made the next move. But now, I feel like I'm on the opposite ends of this spectrum, I no longer really care about anything, I no longer have any initiative to be excited or have something to overreact about.
I am exhausted all the time- normally I would be a morning person where i got up and felt refreshed with 5~6 hours of sleep, turn the TV on, browse teamliquid and gg.net while sipping on some coffee and eating cereal. But these days, 9-10 hours of sleep don't even cut it for me and I feel tired all the time.
But the most odd thing is, I'm not sad. I have no reason to be sad.I don't have beef with anybody or have failed at something I tried hard at, I look back at the situation I am in and I can say that i am more than blessed with everything i have.
So Teamliquid, what do you think? Am I depressed? Or am I just having a bitch syndrome where I just need to chill the fuck out for a bit,roll a j, and wait for it to pass on?
do you smoke weed? ohh lol, just as i was writing this, i see that you indeed said you smoke weed.
how much you smoke? i have the same problems as you and am thinking it's the weed's fault. so i stopped a month ago.
ps: if you go to a doctor and tell him what you said here, they'll prescribe you antidepressants, which i strongly disadvise to take, cause imho you should make sure it's not the weed's fault.
On February 01 2012 05:38 Rickson wrote: Am I depressed? Before I make an appointment to see the doctor, I thought I would post on TL.Net to see what the brilliant people there have to say -certainly it must be better than webMD where, according to them, I have Schizophrenia.
I've lost motivation for everything, especially for school and social life, which is odd because I was very passionate about these two domains more than anything else that I had in my life. Maintaining a tight inner circle of friends who i used to hang out with two to three times a week, I no longer feel like contacting them or leaving the house but staying in my room eating endlessly and playing HoN. The 4.0 gpa that i had in the first semester, something which i was very proud about, means nothing to me now, and school has lost all its meaning. I try to get down to study but it's really hard to do something when you just dont give two shits about it.
Before I used to be a very 'caught up' person, I would be very emotional and quick to react and many of my friends have always told me to chill out before I made the next move. But now, I feel like I'm on the opposite ends of this spectrum, I no longer really care about anything, I no longer have any initiative to be excited or have something to overreact about.
I am exhausted all the time- normally I would be a morning person where i got up and felt refreshed with 5~6 hours of sleep, turn the TV on, browse teamliquid and gg.net while sipping on some coffee and eating cereal. But these days, 9-10 hours of sleep don't even cut it for me and I feel tired all the time.
But the most odd thing is, I'm not sad. I have no reason to be sad.I don't have beef with anybody or have failed at something I tried hard at, I look back at the situation I am in and I can say that i am more than blessed with everything i have.
So Teamliquid, what do you think? Am I depressed? Or am I just having a bitch syndrome where I just need to chill the fuck out for a bit,roll a j, and wait for it to pass on?
This is pretty much how i feel, but i have a doctors appointment tomorrow to see what i can do about it. (except you dont seem to be sad for some reason) Ive been depressed the last five or years, but i've managed to cope with it. But this numbness of the soul, this unwillingness to do anything, this rampant cynicism about anything is really taxing in the long run. Ive been like that for a year now, but i cant take it anymore. Seek professional help is the best answer i guess. And i agree with Torte, first see the "know your brain better than yourself"-people (aka psychologists) before you meet their evil twin that loves to prescribe drugs.
Edit: Don't think that it'll pass! Everyday ive told myself "When i finally find out what i wanna do in life - im gonna work super hard at it. blah blah blah. Waiting for life to sort itself out doesnt work. Ive been open for opportunities the last five years. You need to grab that bitch by the hair and demand answers (unconditionally work to find your own spot under the sun).
For reference, i also smoke one week straight every two months or so. Its just a pleasant escape mechanism, nothing more.
I would recommend a CBT-therapist due to better evidence of it working. Or at least a well-educated and licensed therapist that doesn't have a long-term psychodynamic approach. An assessment can be made about what it is and what you want (I guess to be more active and engaged) and hopefully a good treatment plan can be set up.
There are meds of course as well. Not a bad choice especially if things go really bad but therapy has proven equally or possibly more effective for many problems.
I'm no doctor, and so anything I say has no evidence whatsoever to back it up.
That being said, I'm sure it is depression, but that doesn't mean you need medication or a therapist. If you're fine living the way you are now, you can just wait it out and/or get used to it. Having attitude changes like this is part of growing up.
Go to a doctor before taking advice, we all have slightly different brain chemistries for a start so not all advice will be universally applicable.
Sounds like you are depressed man, as a sufferer speaking but get professional opinion on this first. The tip about exercising was pretty good but bar that I don't see fit to advise a stranger.
I've had long periods that I would describe as depression and my habits very closely resembled those that you describe in your post. I'm not going to jump to any conclusions, that's just an observation based upon my life experiences.
The only person who can properly evaluate if you are depressed is yourself.
A psychologist can help you explore your own mind and why you are feeling and acting the way you are right now but the diagnosis will ultimately come down to you. What I mean is you can go to a psychologist and he/she can say "yes this sounds very familiar, you are probably depressed," or whatever and he'll try to help you but you need to properly evaluate yourself. Problem is this is really difficult to do sometimes when you are in such a state.
Are you happy? Aren't you? What the fuck is happiness anyways?
Tough questions. Regardless, I hope you are feeling good about yourself and your habits soon, and lead a productive life that you can say you are proud of. Don't take any of our thoughts as gospel and don't think you are weak for going to talk with a professional to work through these things. GL man.
On February 01 2012 05:41 Bagration wrote: Roll a J? How often you are rolling Js? Pot does kill motivation like no other.
you sound like a cop in a bad movie
Its true though, when you smoke weed you feel great and content. Why do you need motivation if you already feel great? I'm dealing with some depression myself and in the past I have used MJ to cover for that. I don't think its as simple as you are depressed or you are not though. I think just take some time (not smoking) to think about what you want and the underlying causes of why you want them. Realize what in your life you think should change and do something about it! Good luck.
Edit: Also if you really are getting good sleep and not waking up rested I would see a doctor.
I've been like this since I was 15, 23 now. With both ups and downs, sometimes I even felt "normal". Everyone around me just keeps telling me to get a job or get educated, but I just don't care. I've no motivation, no reason, no nothing. 'Course, parents suggested I'd go see a psych but I just shot that down as them thinking I was insane (lolwut..) and never got around to it. Steadily I've watched my life just disappear, friends even stopped contacting me.
So yeah, I'd say you've got depression but I'm no doctor/psychologist.
I've also been thinking about going to a psychologist's but never got around to it. Mostly it's a question of finances and if I can be bothered to put proper clothes on and actually go outside into the fresh air.
I feel you man. :/ For the last 4 months or so I've lost motivation to do anything. I was very passionate musician now I don't even look at my drum sticks. I had a lot of friends at school and I just stopped going. I sit on bed all day and go to work when I have to. I've been feeling so down that I hardly ever shower and I over eat with no exercise which (I think) is what is causing recent physical pain even. :/ Now my best friend is moving away in two weeks which doesn't help. In the past when I got upset I would resort to physical means, like cutting or burning. Then when I was 16 that wasn't enough so I attempted suicide which didn't work obviously. I stayed in a psychiatric ward for a while then when i got out when to different psychiatrists none of the things have worked for me in the past. I usually just wait it out. I'll have times where I'm not feeling the best (like the last couple of months) then I'll have times where I'm feeling on top of the world. So I say wait, but I'm not a pro on dealing with emotions.
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In the past when I got upset I would resort to physical means, like cutting or burning. Then when I was 16 that wasn't enough so I attempted suicide which didn't work obviously. I stayed in a psychiatric ward for a while then when i got out when to different psychiatrists none of the things have worked for me in the past. I usually just wait it out. I'll have times where I'm not feeling the best (like the last couple of months) then I'll have times where I'm feeling on top of the world. So I say wait, but I'm not a pro on dealing with emotions. 
