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EDIT: I guess I should clarify, this already all happened 2 months ago. I'm just recounting it and building a story for you guys, especially because I think a lot of guys here are doing their own girl missions.
Alright Teamliquid. I feel like I don't know most of you anymore, probably because I don't. That's okay, contributing to new blood is always a good thing, but old friends show your faces! I'm not entirely sure where I'm going with this, but I have a few different types of things I'd like to post. Love, Korea, and introspective prose painted with real and fake events. TL strikes me as a testing ground for things I might post more publicly or seriously later. Here is full of such various people who actually care. I'm not really interested in critique since my style is what it is. But, I'm interested in what you think, and what I wrote made you think that way. I'm interested in life and the people who live it.
I've been pretty inactive the last year or so, which includes the entire year that I was gone living in Seoul, South Korea. 2010 proved to be the most intense year of my life, by a long-shot.
To cut to the chase, my experiences abroad, alone, and surrounded by nothing I initially expected really changed my eyes and heart in a lot of ways. Korea and it's culture will always have a deep part of my heart, and I've made some infallible relationships there. I experienced both 한 and 정 for everything that they mean. I worked the worst job of my life, while having the most fun. I made fantastic friends but was also surrounded with individuals I would deem practically unworthy of living. I was blessed with a hundred chances to get feisty and physical with the most beautiful girls, with no strings or hardships attached. However, the lack of strings in front of me made the strings still attached to my own heart tug even harder--the ones I thought I left at home.
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You see, there's a girl. I met her my freshman year of high school, the first class of the day, in 2002. We always liked each other, but just remained friends until the summer of my graduation. In 2005, I moved from Highlands Ranch, Colorado to Orange County, California and left all my relationships. Funny part is that I only got closer to some people, after I left. High school was blowing by, and as an excuse to visit everybody, I took this girl to her prom back in Colorado. Everything towards each other that we had bottled up came seeping out the reserves. Things snowballed and neither of us could stop this illogical, long-distance idea. Through starts and stops, up's and down's, it's now 4 and 1/2 years from when that all began; let's just call it all "life".
We were actually separated for the better part of a year before I left for Korea. She started school a year late and wants her teaching credential on top of that, and I finished university a year early. 5 - 2 = 3, and that's how many years of life we're apart, even at the same age. Though we view the world with a pair of shared eyes, we were in different places. A naive sophmore dating a graphic designer who's on tour with his band figuring out life for the first time without a syllabus.
However, New Years Eve rolled around, and after 8 months of silence, something possessed us to hang out. That day has ritualistic festivities known well, so a smooch may or may not have occurred. But, until my departure in February, a day passing couldn't find itself with out us together. Eventually, I left, and silence took over once again. I wanted to embrace Korea with everything I had, live as they did, reject my preconceptions, dig into my 9 years of friendship with Koreans and put it all to use. I'm going to have to write a separate blog about all of this at some point because it's too insane and too intense to weave it into this saga, but it's critical to my perspective shifts.
Back home, as usual, the flowers and phone numbers were flying in like shells on D-Day. True to form, they didn't mean anything to her ...for a while. Both of us, open to lives away from each other, she started to feel these opportunities out. So a couple guys at a time would be pursuing, and she'd see what was out there a bit at a time. One guy was better than another, so things got whittled down; a process of elimination. Then it started getting a bit more serious with this person, then that one... Then I realized I knew one of these people, and it made me feel crazy inside. To my surprise, I felt something, and not just anything, but like my intestines were morphing into a baneling. This hit me hard: I cared. I've left out a ton of details, but this was the start of a campaign, to try and win back real love; to win back substance in the face limitless lust and irresponsibility. VIP entrances, 5:00 AM, beats blaring, $600 tables, drink after drink, girl after girl ...I could only think of her.
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I went to extreme measures, actually cutting my stay in Korea shorter than planned. I vowed to write every single day until my return, and this is where I'm going to publish my musings one at a time. I couldn't miss one day until I came back. I couldn't write anything less than things that could captivate with fervor. I couldn't screw this up, this was my last chance, ever. I knew this meant that I might never return to Korea again, but in the long run, this is worth it. This could be worth it.
Day 37:
+ Show Spoiler +"Two-hundred twenty-three days ago, I saw her face with my eyes for the last time. Two-hundred twenty-two days in a row, I’ve seen eyes caressing me through glass. She’s been with me, looking right back from the ledge above my bedpost. The flag on my wall gives me a bit of pride, but the girl who’s eyein’ me gives me more. Her sweet smile leaps across the satin-skin of her shoulder. She welcomes me home and makes this room a whole lot less vacant. When she’s not in my eyes, she’s in my dreams. After a bit of wrestling with the sheets, the memory of her shape makes me sleep a little deeper. No matter how hard I hold them, these linens never fit the same—the cotton breathes too much, and my skin can’t be tricked."
The rest soon.
 
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Edit: I'm wrong ^^
User was warned for this post
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On January 10 2011 06:05 Comeh wrote:
Okay, I'll be the place stamp here to say that I think this is fake.
Unless you openly admit those pictures are not of you. Let me know otherwise.
no man thats actually him, Im waiting for him to get to my house so we can go to chipotle...now what....
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United States11637 Posts
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On January 10 2011 06:05 Comeh wrote:
Okay, I'll be the place stamp here to say that I think this is fake.
Unless you openly admit those pictures are not of you. Let me know otherwise.
At least this happened on the first blog so the other 36 can be without question.
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No more heckling please. See ya, buddy.
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On January 10 2011 06:05 Comeh wrote:
Okay, I'll be the place stamp here to say that I think this is fake.
Unless you openly admit those pictures are not of you. Let me know otherwise.
Why does it matter? You can still appreciate the writing, and the sentiment. Everyone thinks they're an internet detective nowadays.
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On January 10 2011 06:13 elmizzt wrote:Show nested quote +On January 10 2011 06:05 Comeh wrote:
Okay, I'll be the place stamp here to say that I think this is fake.
Unless you openly admit those pictures are not of you. Let me know otherwise.
Why does it matter? You can still appreciate the writing, and the sentiment. Everyone thinks they're an internet detective nowadays.
Well, I was just alluding to http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?topic_id=133695.
I had a similar feeling I guess. I suppose its the fluffy writing and heavily edited photos.
However, since i'm looking like i'm wrong, i'll withdraw my comment.
Edit: Sorry for being a dbag.
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Is there a reason I can't see the pictures in the spoilers?
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Can I ask how old you are? Because you said you graduated graphic designer but are touring with a band? Or did I read wrong?
Have a nice life man, and good luck with the chick. You seem like a cool guy.
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This is an absolutely amazing blog. I love it so so so so much. ♥
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That woman is very beautiful. That man is very handsome. Great blog.
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now that's some insanely well written blog, good luck
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Those are some rugged good looks, friend
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Very nice blog, I hope everything works out well for you.
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On January 10 2011 06:38 DwmC_Foefen wrote:
Can I ask how old you are? Because you said you graduated graphic designer but are touring with a band? Or did I read wrong?
Have a nice life man, and good luck with the chick. You seem like a cool guy.
I just turned 23 in November. I graduated with a degree in finance, but I was working as a graphic designer and using all of my free time (and taking time off work) touring and playing shows, then I moved to Korea to teach English. My life is kind of a scatter.
Thanks for all the props everybody! I'll develop this story in the coming days. Tell everyone about your own situations while you're here.
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Canada2480 Posts
Epic girlfriend blog series is epic
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You are gorgeous, <3.
That's all, ^.^
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Sup dood ^__^!
lol at the haters.
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I read this, and the level of detail of your feelings was really descriptive. I must say that you wrote this blog really well. I imagine that you must have felt some emotions while writing this. Also, I wish you luck on your mission; I hope everything works out! ^^
As for my situation....
She's someone who's good at pool, a good dancer, a talented singer, and she's very social.
Me...I used to be good at pool (but then winter break came and I swear, all my skill was drained), I'm trying to learn to dance, I'm a terrible singer (though I have guitar), and I'm quite shy. The latter quality prevents me from trying to start a convo with her. =(
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Canada839 Posts
Hero status. Good read, and I hope it works out for you man.
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Im almost crying, cant wait to see what happens!
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United States159 Posts
good luck brother! Can't let true love of your life slip away, cause you 'll never know if another one would come along later. :D
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Korea (South)17174 Posts
but was also surrounded with individuals I would deem practically unworthy of living
more on this subject please!
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Quesa, its been a while man.  Cheers, hope you are doing well. Digging the story so far.
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On January 10 2011 12:04 Rekrul wrote:Show nested quote +but was also surrounded with individuals I would deem practically unworthy of living more on this subject please!
hahaha
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nice story, i'll be looking for future posts! 
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Great story! I wonder how the story turns out.
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Beautiful blog man, can't wait for more . I hope it all works out.
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On January 10 2011 09:22 blahman3344 wrote:
I read this, and the level of detail of your feelings was really descriptive. I must say that you wrote this blog really well. I imagine that you must have felt some emotions while writing this. Also, I wish you luck on your mission; I hope everything works out! ^^
As for my situation....
She's someone who's good at pool, a good dancer, a talented singer, and she's very social.
Me...I used to be good at pool (but then winter break came and I swear, all my skill was drained), I'm trying to learn to dance, I'm a terrible singer (though I have guitar), and I'm quite shy. The latter quality prevents me from trying to start a convo with her. =(
Thanks man. It's actually really fun to write; this girl is actually the reason I ever even figured out I was okay at it. We dated long distance for 8 months and I used a pen instead of a keyboard for a while.
Here's the thing man, you don't have to be the same person as your love interest. It bugged me at first, but I later learned that all our differences were the things that changed me most and that I looked back and loved about her. I don't know if you've heard of the Enneagram, but I'm a type 8 and she's a type 9 personality--basically, polar opposites. Be yourself, and realize that the earth is massive; you don't need to blow anything out of proportion which means taking risks and lunging for what you desire are only small things in the scope of it all. Plus, girls like a guy that knows what (them) they want.
On January 10 2011 12:04 Rekrul wrote:Show nested quote +but was also surrounded with individuals I would deem practically unworthy of living more on this subject please!
Haha this part could have it's own book. You already agree with me on most of this subject, although you regressed a tad while I increased my 싫어하다 for the 외국인.
Maybe I should tell Korea stories as I unfold my love quest? I don't know what I'm doing yet.
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but I want to hear about your encounters with the foreign ~
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Really good read, good luck, hope you give us some updates in times to come. Thanks for sharing!
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