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+ Show Spoiler +Hey, I'm fucking sick of being alone. I'm almost 22 and have been in exactly 1 relationship in my life, and that was for like a month because I had to fucking move away. I'm drunk right now and actually considered plunging a knife directly into my heart for a minute. Because what's the fucking point of life if I can't share it with someone? If I can't love or be loved? It's fucking disgusting how melodramatic it is. I mean really, ONE FUCKING PERSON. JUST GIVE ME ONE GIRL I CAN BE WITH AT LEAST FOR A WHILE.
I'm a Christian and I've been praying for trust in God's will, but what if His will is for me to be alone? Tonight has shown me that I might not be capable of it. I get moody when I'm drunk. But then again true feelings come out when you're drunk.
I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. It doesn't matter what I do. I've always known it. Doesn't matter how many girls I take out on dates or approach. It's like a bullet with your name on it. I think I smoke cigarettes because I secretly yearn for self-destruction. Thank God my roommates aren't home to see this shit. Maybe I'm inherently un-loveable or something. I don't fucking know. I don't even know if I care. I don't think about this shit when I'm sober, except in fleeting thoughts. Most of the time I'm a confident asshole. I don't feel so confident anymore. I feel like shit. It's like the breadth of my entire life came before me, and all I had to show for it was one relationship with a girl who was engaged and became a part-time lesbian anyway. Fucking hell. Fuck this shit. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
People say I'm young. I don't feel fucking young. I feel like my life's on the verge of ending. I was homeless for a few months. I survived, got a place to myself. What's the ending to this story? I've survived shit storm after shit storm. I'm the most adaptable person I personally know. I'm getting old. I want a relationship. I want children, white picket fence, a house, a woman.
Fuck me.
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Northern Ireland25019 Posts
+ Show Spoiler +Fucking women, so maddening  Against my better judgement tried to make it work again with my babymomma and went out with her, wanted to go do something as a couple. She kept complaining that we weren't hanging out with her mates as well, and we ended up running into my friend group. I proceed to get ignored for most of the night, on an evening i sorted so we could finally get some couple time. Fuck that, single again now lol 
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On January 26 2014 13:05 jeeeeohn wrote:+ Show Spoiler +Hey, I'm fucking sick of being alone. I'm almost 22 and have been in exactly 1 relationship in my life, and that was for like a month because I had to fucking move away. I'm drunk right now and actually considered plunging a knife directly into my heart for a minute. Because what's the fucking point of life if I can't share it with someone? If I can't love or be loved? It's fucking disgusting how melodramatic it is. I mean really, ONE FUCKING PERSON. JUST GIVE ME ONE GIRL I CAN BE WITH AT LEAST FOR A WHILE.
I'm a Christian and I've been praying for trust in God's will, but what if His will is for me to be alone? Tonight has shown me that I might not be capable of it. I get moody when I'm drunk. But then again true feelings come out when you're drunk.
I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. It doesn't matter what I do. I've always known it. Doesn't matter how many girls I take out on dates or approach. It's like a bullet with your name on it. I think I smoke cigarettes because I secretly yearn for self-destruction. Thank God my roommates aren't home to see this shit. Maybe I'm inherently un-loveable or something. I don't fucking know. I don't even know if I care. I don't think about this shit when I'm sober, except in fleeting thoughts. Most of the time I'm a confident asshole. I don't feel so confident anymore. I feel like shit. It's like the breadth of my entire life came before me, and all I had to show for it was one relationship with a girl who was engaged and became a part-time lesbian anyway. Fucking hell. Fuck this shit. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
People say I'm young. I don't feel fucking young. I feel like my life's on the verge of ending. I was homeless for a few months. I survived, got a place to myself. What's the ending to this story? I've survived shit storm after shit storm. I'm the most adaptable person I personally know. I'm getting old. I want a relationship. I want children, white picket fence, a house, a woman.
Fuck me.
+ Show Spoiler +Jesus fucking Christ. I am going to be harsh as fuck, because coddling will just further your current attitude/mindset.
You need to stop putting pussy on a pedestal and quit feeling sorry for yourself. I will say it again.. You need to stop putting pussy on a pedestal and quit feeling sorry for yourself.
Meeting women is probably the easiest thing men can do, it's completely natural. Think of it this way.. If all men were as pathetic as you, the human race would've never survived. If you're athletic and over 6' tall, you already have a majority of the male population beat in terms of what women want from a physical stand point. I'm not sure what area you live in, but if you live anywhere in the United States, get on POF (Google it if you're unaware) and blow out some easy girls to boost your confidence and give you practice for a girl that's actually worth your time.
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Dear Pussy-Ass Bitches,
You think women are such bitches and sluts and whores, well guess what? It's all true, but men are worse. You don't need to grow balls, you already have them, do all the thinking with the sheer power of testosterone raging through your body every time you think about your precious penis and it's dimensions. Does it have the appropriate length to meet your standards though? Whoa, what? It's "9 inches"? Do you even realize how long that is? You wouldn't be able to put your pants on, even if your pants were super baggy, and GOD FORBID you should wear briefs, because your boner would reach out of your pants and reach up almost to your chest. That's how fucking absurd "9 inches" is, so think about someone who says he has "10 inches" or "11 inches". 11 inches? That's basically a foot minus 1 inch. Where the fucking fuck do you come up with these measurements? It doesn't even make any sense, and you're projecting your penis to be comically long. Instead, just tell everyone that it wraps around the world twice.
Then all the guys are most definitely alpha-males who most definitely have huge muscles, abs of steel, can bench press 200+ pounds, can run 7 miles "ez", and are simultaneously going to MIT or Berkeley due to getting a massive scholarship because they're so smart and are child prodigies and genius, or already make at least 100k dollars per year at their regular job, and make more either playing poker or breeding dogs/cats/llamas/komodo dragons or 'flipping houses' to make a grand total of at least 500k a year, and in their spare time, play a little StarCraft and get to "Grandmasters" or "B+" because they're just that good. Even if none of this is a total embellishment, why do you struggle to communicate a coherent thought every time you try and have a real conversation?
Because you suck. That's right. Everything in Fight Club, your favorite movie, is true. You think you're at least a little bitter smarter, stronger and more crafty than "99%" of your fellow human beings, and have just slightly more insight into the nature of existence than your fellow man. Well, I've got a news flash for you, Walter Kronkite: you don't. At the sight of perceived weakness in your fellow man, you being spewing some recycled bad modern philosophy with a total lack of empathy or even basic reading comprehension. For example, when poster Jeeeeohn says he wants to be truly loved and have a wife and children, some faggot decides to use the LETTING OFF STEAM THREAD to give advice, and some truly bad advice that just makes him look like an insensitive idiot. The only thing worse than girl blogs are the advice; not that Jeeeeohn produced a girl blog, but the advice makes me cringe. "Man up", "Grow balls", "Just do it", "What's wrong with you?", "Don't be a pussy", et cetera; it's just a non-emotional response to a very real human need to just express our feelings. Yeah, sometimes, the girl bloggers say retarded shit, but the replies are rarely "I understand what you're going through" but rather "Grow a pair, faggot, the human race has been reproducing for years and you're just putting pussy up on a pedestal, you fucking pathetic basement-dwelling, borderline-retarded, pizzaface nerd. Grow some fucking balls, goddamnit. Just grow some fucking balls. Grow them. Do it, you fucking faggot." Good one. I bet the OP never thought of that.
But since you're just showing some "tough love", I'll do the same: before you type something so stupid, cut off your fingers to prevent your thoughts from being fed into the cloud of information known as the internet because your flow of consciousness is basically a spigot that spews out radioactive diarrhea.
I was actually delightfully surprised yesterday evening to see people actually were letting off steam about me letting of steam. Pretty fucking meta, guys. Letting off steamception to the max. I ain't even mad, yo. After all, this thread isn't here to start a flamerawr, rite??? You read the OP, CORRECT? Well, Air.SWP didn't, but we should relegate that argument to the freestyle rap battle thread where you are encouraged to engage in poetic combat. I mean, there are so many good diss lines that could be used in this instance, because seriously, if you read my rants on this thread and think 100% of them are 100% serious, you might be really, really stupid or just French. But when you start fucking with my homie Jeeeohn, I will make like Mike Tyson and chew your ear off.
Like, what's up now, you stupid fuck(s)? You're just way too alpha with your 12-inch dicks for real love, and it's all about fucking skanks on POF, and being a POS.
And don't even get me started on t3h gurlzzz. Stop being stupid skanks. There is another important body part you have besides your boobs and vagina, and yes, it's your spleen. You have to take care of your spleen. But also your brain. Like, fucking learn shit. By not doing so, you're coddling this behavior from these assholes who go "Just go fuck some sluts to get your confidence up". And if you're going to post on a video game forum, actually play some video games, and put some fucking effort into them. Don't just go "I'M A GIRL PAY ATTENTION TO ME EVEN THOUGH I SUCK LOL" because that makes you an attention-whore, not a gamer. In fact, the term "girl gamer" makes me want to slap you. Even "gamer" is pretty cringe-worthy. I play more games, and am better at them than you, and I don't call myself a "girl-gamer" or "gamer", and maybe I'm just a faggy hipster who hates using mainstream terms because omg can't be mainstream, but maybe because these terms are grossly overused to exemplify a huge pile of clusterfuck and fail. But since I've beaten this topic to death, this is just me kicking a dead girl-gamer in the fake boobs horse.
Maybe I'm venting because I'm mad at you. Maybe I write this way intentionally, because maybe it's better to laugh at your own rage while letting off the steam than to just feel pure anger. Maybe when I'm angry, I just say stuff I don't always mean, but you have no right to suddenly flip out at me in the middle of a normal conversation. Maybe you're bad at expressing emotions so you just show me anger instead. That makes me sad. I don't think this is the right way to end a friendship. Is there ever a right way to end one? When does it end? Where is it going? Maybe we can't stand to think about where it's going, because the more you care, the harder it's going to be when it finally comes crashing down. I can't help it, sometimes I'm a fucking bitch, but I still have so much love in my heart, but everyone just stomps on it and spits on it, and it's made me guard myself behind sarcasm and anger. But fuck, if anyone thinks I am the way that I am in this thread normally, then they're stupid.
I actually just got mega-drunk last night over this. I just want my friend back... ;-; I'll never treat you bad again ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
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+ Show Spoiler +GRRMARTIN WHEN WILL YOU FUCKING RELEASE WINDS OF WINTER??
nina you posted in every single page of this shit wtf lol
Also, FUCK YOU LENOVO PIECE OF SHIT OF COMPANY, I WANT MY PC WORKING YOU FUCK ASSHOLES
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On January 27 2014 08:23 fabiano wrote:+ Show Spoiler +GRRMARTIN WHEN WILL YOU FUCKING RELEASE WINDS OF WINTER??
nina you posted in every single page of this shit wtf lol
Also, FUCK YOU LENOVO PIECE OF SHIT OF COMPANY, I WANT MY PC WORKING YOU FUCK ASSHOLES
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I just really enjoy letting it go. It's like you have to pee really bad, then you... let it go. You feel so much better.
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On January 27 2014 09:10 ninazerg wrote:Show nested quote +On January 27 2014 08:23 fabiano wrote:+ Show Spoiler +GRRMARTIN WHEN WILL YOU FUCKING RELEASE WINDS OF WINTER??
nina you posted in every single page of this shit wtf lol
Also, FUCK YOU LENOVO PIECE OF SHIT OF COMPANY, I WANT MY PC WORKING YOU FUCK ASSHOLES + Show Spoiler +
I just really enjoy letting it go. It's like you have to pee really bad, then you... let it go. You feel so much better.
+ Show Spoiler +out of curiousity, do you get the chills?
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The fact that The Heist won rap album of the year over Good Kid M.A.A.D city is utterly ridiculous, seemingly racist, and entirely retarded. GKMC was straight album of the year material (though I don't mind that RAM won that, it was also excellent). I don't hate Macklemore but the fact is Kendrick deserved that award.
Fuck the Grammy awards.
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+ Show Spoiler +I know it doesn't get said too often around here but FUCK PROTOSS HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT RACE FUCKKKKKKKKKK.
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On January 27 2014 14:37 ampson wrote:
The fact that The Heist won rap album of the year over Good Kid M.A.A.D city is utterly ridiculous, seemingly racist, and entirely retarded. GKMC was straight album of the year material (though I don't mind that RAM won that, it was also excellent). I don't hate Macklemore but the fact is Kendrick deserved that award.
Fuck the Grammy awards.
This is why I don't watch that shit. We need Kanye West to jump up on stage more often to set things straight.
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Walking in crowded halls is such an annoying thing to me, and I sometimes wonder if I'm the only one to be bothered by the level of retardation that happens.
For whatever reason, when I'm walking in a crowded place where people come and go and I'm in a hurry, I don't just walk behind someone because they're either slow or get stuck behind someone who's walking really slowly or worse, someone who's in the middle of an affluent fucking place and decided it'd a great place to pick up a conversation.
It's not like people in this school are familiar with the idea that you walk on the right side. It's like driving. So it's a controlled chaos. You can see trends forming, where the 'mass' creates certain walking patterns that are more or less informally agreed upon and respected. So for some part of the halls, people will be walking on the right on both sides. Then a group of gossiping girls breaks everything, one side gets stuck or slowed down and a few people literally have to stop in their tracks.
Earlier I'm in a hurry, and I, for some reason, decided to consciously think about how I look for the 'optimal' path to get to the metro. There are a few types of people:
1- The people who are blocking the way by having a discussion in the middle of the main hall of the university
2- The people who are very casually getting to class late, intentionally walking slowly to show that they don't give a fuck
3- The people who are walking in small, slow groups that need to be aligned at all time so they take a large part of the hall's width
4- The people who walk normally and attempt not to screw with the traffic
5- Those who run like maniacs
6- The people who really need to take a shit
Now, all those people are predictable. Some will 'dodge' and walk around others more. But you kind of know where they're going. The worst people are these ones:
7- The people who walk with their cell phone in their hand who'll walk slowly one second, walk quickly the next, then they'll receive a text message and they'll STOP. Or worse, they'll STOP right in front of the stairs because here's the logic: I'm walking and reading and sort of looking in front of me with the top of my peripheral vision, there are 2 steps in front of me and 100 people behind me: I WILL STOP WALKING IN ORDER TO NOT TRIP IN THE STAIRS WHILE READING MY TEXT MESSAGE.Stop reading your texts you little shit.
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+ Show Spoiler +I got a rug that's been in my family for at least three generations, and my dogs love to shit all over it. I came home to find a neat pile of brown goo right in the middle of it.
That's the one thing I hate about winter, the likelihood that my dogs will shit indoors goes up from 0% to about 20.
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+ Show Spoiler +ninazerg should just ""Man up", "Grow balls", "Just do it", "What's wrong with you?", "Don't be a pussy", et cetera;". then and only then she'll know how it feels to be a man.
we've been headbutting first knowing that our manliness will either make us or break us for centuries and it worked.
what is this feelings you're talking about?.
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Canada13389 Posts
+ Show Spoiler +some of the people on this forum and the way they treat those who put time into the community. Fuck.
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Italy12246 Posts
+ Show Spoiler +People need to fucking learn sc2 before posting stupid shit about it. If you don't know the game well dont fucking comment on it. You'll never hear me say shit about non toss matchups becuase i dont understand them well, and still im sure im much more informed than the majority of the goddamn screaming crybabies and pitchforkers that complain about issues they dont even understand.
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+ Show Spoiler +FUCK SWARM HOSTS SO HARD OH MY GOD FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
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+ Show Spoiler +I'm so fucking tired of all this anti protoss your race is easy bullshit. Aside from blink allins which are really easy on the map pool right now (because the maps are too good for them) the matchup is not quite as bad as people think and actually might be balanced. I'm so fucking tired of putting hours and hours and hours into the game only to have my wins dismissed because my race is fucking imba and my losses made fun of because "I can't even win with protoss". People fucking go out of their way to BM me even when I was manner all game and EVEN WHEN I GIVE THEM THE GGWP AT THE END they insist on calling me a fucking douchebag Protoss player despite the fact that I almost never allin or cheese or any of that shit AHAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH UGH /rant
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On January 21 2014 17:38 Orcasgt24 wrote:Show nested quote +On January 14 2014 09:54 Orcasgt24 wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I'm so far deep into the friend zone she bought a $50 battery powered toothbrush to leave at my house for sleepovers... + Show Spoiler +I'm so far deep into the friend zone she sleeps in my bed during sleep overs and is going to buy some make-up remover to leave at my house so she doesn't have to sleep with her make-up on. I stand to lose bathroom counter space without getting any... + Show Spoiler +Every time I move a level deeper into the friend zone I'm quote my last post and post the next step.
+ Show Spoiler +I'm so friend zoned she jokes to people at work we are together to hide the fact she is with a much younger guy that we work with. Stupid fucking bitch used me.
Oh found my way out of the friend zone. Turns out the only escape is to end the friendship.
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+ Show Spoiler +Fuckers in their cars, who don't know how to drive, or who don't know where they're going, or for some reason don't seem to have noticed that they actually got into their car to go somewhere, and yet are in their car going somewhere. Feels like these shitheads are everywhere now. People sticking to the left lane then last second pull 3 or 4 lanes to the right because oh yeah, that's where I was going! People sitting in a turn lane, then yoinking out and becoming a 10 mph wall that I have strategically account for. Good job. I could go on for longer than is healthy. I feel like I shouldn't be taking the seriousness of 2 tons of fucking steel seriously, the way people around me act. Hmm, fuck it. Maybe my maps will sell better once I bite it.
On January 28 2014 09:48 Orcasgt24 wrote:Show nested quote +On January 21 2014 17:38 Orcasgt24 wrote:On January 14 2014 09:54 Orcasgt24 wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I'm so far deep into the friend zone she bought a $50 battery powered toothbrush to leave at my house for sleepovers... + Show Spoiler +I'm so far deep into the friend zone she sleeps in my bed during sleep overs and is going to buy some make-up remover to leave at my house so she doesn't have to sleep with her make-up on. I stand to lose bathroom counter space without getting any... + Show Spoiler +Every time I move a level deeper into the friend zone I'm quote my last post and post the next step. + Show Spoiler +I'm so friend zoned she jokes to people at work we are together to hide the fact she is with a much younger guy that we work with. Stupid fucking bitch used me.
Oh found my way out of the friend zone. Turns out the only escape is to end the friendship.
+ Show Spoiler +Sometimes you have to treat the poison by adding a second one. That might sound cynical, but I don't give a shit, these sorta games people play test my patience. Tornado of Souls is a good song btw.
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On January 28 2014 10:13 NewSunshine wrote:+ Show Spoiler +Sometimes you have to treat the poison by adding a second one. That might sound cynical, but I don't give a shit, these sorta games people play test my patience. Tornado of Souls is a good song btw.
+ Show Spoiler +I agree with the statement about poison. However it does bother me. Had to be done of course but doing it did hurt. People suck. I guess that's why alcohol exists...
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+ Show Spoiler +I've gone from private to public school thinking that Ill be happy and that I will bring something to the basketball program that most other people cant. Im 6'5 and I thought I was pretty good. Now im on JV (at public and Im still the tallest) and my coach puts me as the third fucking team when i can play with the starter and the second team center. The second team one only knows how to fucking foul and I never do anything. I hate practicing with the team now since there are only 3 games left. In the beggining I put everything I had into each and every practice hoping for the coach to even FUCKING NOTICE ME BEHIND SOMEONE WHO LAUGHS AND SMILES ALL THE GOD DAMN TIME. Whats worse is the varsity coach fucking loves these 2 like they are his children and im like a fucking bad influence or something. I have put in so much effort to get better outside the season, personal fitness/basketball training, exercising while im at home, and hell, on vacation id spend 4 A FUCKING HOURS A DAY PLAYING A GAME THAT I LOVE! I had never been so happy to play. I loved it. It was pickup and id practice my ball handling and i fucking loved it. And now I realize nearly 1 month after winter break that my school doesnt need me, nor does my team. I bring nothing, nada, 0 to the team. My motivation to play for them is practically 0 now. I have never once this season played beyond the last 1 and a half minutes of a game (That we have to be up by 30 by). both the varsity and jv fucking love the 2 guys and cant wait for them to be moved up to varsity next year leaving me on fucking JV. THEN i get made fun of for being a poor shooter and having wierd form WHEN I PUT SO MUCH GODDAMN EFFORT INTO BEING BETTER WHY THE FUCK CANT PEOPLE SEE THAT
All i want to do is play for my school and be helpful, but the more I stay the more i see that i am like a wierd third wheel. I want to work hard in the offseasno (try to be more guard than post oriented) to move up to varsity (which is a slim chance at best) but even if i did move up the coach there has been eyeing the 2 center players since they were in middle school. I can do nothing to change that. I love my school but why cant they recognize that.
I just dont care anymore. I dont want to practice with the team or go to anymroe games since I am not getting better and not helping the team. I wish I could leave without sounding like a dick but i feel like if i stayed any longer id kill myself. (joking about the suicide but it has hovered around my mind from time to time)
continuing my rant, my parents think im pushing myself to hard and that Ill hurt my body but what does that matter if i dont play. The training i do they limit me to 2 hours a day no more and i now i could do more. My parents also try to give me a rest day each week but who the fuck are they to tell me my limits. Isnt the whole point of training is to get better and PUSH MY GOD DAMN LIMITS.
I cried after practice today. I got blocked hard and rammed my head into someones knee and fucked up by neck. Ive never been more FUCKING EMBARESSED HIUMILIATED AND IN PAIN IN MY LIFE. ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO HELP WHY DO THEY PLAY SO DIRTY (not the block it was clean i just fucked up since i suck on offense and defense and like the whole game) AND WHY WASNT I STRONG ENOUGH OR GOOD ENOUGH TO FUCKING SCORE OR PLAY WELL. HAVE I NOT SACRIFICED ENOUGH? WHAT MORE DO I HAVE TO DO PLEASE
I cried in the car. my sister, mother, father, all of them didnt even notice.
Fuck why cant they push me to be better.
FUCK
I want so much yet i achieve so little.
speaking of achievments i read a question on an english paper and it asked me "what is your biggest accomplishment to date and why?" and that another brick on my consiounce.
I have achieved nothing.
nothing.
i have done nothing for my team.
im going to cry in bed now.
I know im prob being a bitch and i wont give up now but its just so hard. im wallowing in my own fucking self pity and i hate/love it.i have cut down my work regimate at home from 4x100 squats,, 4x75 single leg squats (4 per leg), 2:30 x 4 planks, 4x 2:00 side planks (per side), 4x80 diamonnd pushups, 4x100 (i dont even know what to call these I prop my legs up on my bed and use my arms to lower and raise myslef), 2x100 calf raises, 2x500 (single leg) calf raises, to only doing 3 sets of planks+side planks (so 6 side planks in total and 3 reg planks) as well as 3x40 diamond pushups. My knees/ankles have always been fucked up and my right knee lately has been bothering me so thats why i changed.
fuck man thank god for this thread I needed this. I really need some advice/help guys I feel like this is impossible.
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