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Netherlands6192 Posts
There are some really angry people in this thread 
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+ Show Spoiler +I'm so tired of being dependant. I should have had my drivers licence years ago and I don't. I am so unconfident when driving it is ridiculous. I look at the drivers on the road and think how any retard can drive a car... yet I can't? I have such bad confidence issues. Also I am so sick of this on and off situation I am having with someone. Why can't they just be straightforward and say what they want from me? I don't want to be used, I don't want to invest in someone to have my heart broken. Again. Also I am tired of being an afterthought to my so called 'friends' group. We were so close once, what happened? Meh.
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+ Show Spoiler +I have nothing important to distract me from learning to code. Why am I wasting time now?
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On May 13 2013 02:17 obesechicken13 wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I have nothing important to distract me from learning to code. Why am I wasting time now?
Because learning code is difficult and boring :/ Good luck with that
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+ Show Spoiler +My twin brother is probably the most immature person I have met. His stupidity also knows know bounds, I have no idea if he is simply stupid or has a learning disability. He likes politics like me, but he gets all of his news from Family Guy, Bill Maher, and the Newsroom and he also seems to want to prove me wrong for the sake of proving me wrong constantly trying to treat me like Brian the way Quagmire did at dinner.
Worse of all, I was watching a lecture about the food industry, lobbying powers, and federal powers, and afterwards, he said I am just a whiner who does nothing but criticize and then proceeded to tell me why his principal is a dochebag for not allowing him to drop a class in the middle of the year because he is failing and he constantly misses the class. And after he learned he was failing the class (largely due to him not attending to class), he flew into a tantrum, started threatening me with violence when I told him to calm down. He was so loud and disruptive that the neighbors drove up and asked if everything was all right.
After he calmed down, I told him my concern for him screaming and that I hate hearing screams from an 18 year old and that I do not like being threatened constantly and even attacked occasionally. He replied by saying that if I do not want to get yelled or attacked, I should not say anything to him. He has now confirmed to me that he wants to be treated like a child and not as an adult.
Also, a buddy of mine was hella hyped about a JAV Idol coming to his town and told me all about it and I sarcastically replied that his girlfriend would be pleased to hear that. He then told me that she does not care, she is bisexual. I am sure her sexuality is the exact reason to why she allows you to drool over porn actresses.
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+ Show Spoiler +final exam week!!! and I need to get a sick high grade at least 85%+ to pass all classes with a C.
I'm fucked
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+ Show Spoiler +I get the feeling that Terran was designed for the "dumb demographic" of Modern Warfare 2 kiddies. Everything about the race has "dumbed down" written all over it. Emergency supply depots; flying command centres that they can recycle; an army based on tier 1 units with tier 3 units being a luxury; hard counters to everything; the strongest static defence; free scouting and detection; the most cost effective unit in the game, the marine; hellbats, which are more powerful units than oracles even though they cost 50 less minerals and 150 less gas.
They wouldn't entertain for a second giving the widow mine or hellbat to Protoss. They would give it to the dumb demographic because their average IQ is like 30 points behind and they took about two years in WoL to even figure out that it's a good idea to use ghosts. They can stave off most all-ins by building extra bunkers, yet they fail even at that.
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On May 13 2013 01:28 DragonLord wrote:There are some really angry people in this thread Related: + Show Spoiler +I'm so tired of being dependant. I should have had my drivers licence years ago and I don't. I am so unconfident when driving it is ridiculous. I look at the drivers on the road and think how any retard can drive a car... yet I can't? I have such bad confidence issues. Also I am so sick of this on and off situation I am having with someone. Why can't they just be straightforward and say what they want from me? I don't want to be used, I don't want to invest in someone to have my heart broken. Again. Also I am tired of being an afterthought to my so called 'friends' group. We were so close once, what happened? Meh.
Don't worry man, I was 25 when i started learning.. sometimes its better to learn later because or not this ego fuck who drives 2 fast and crashes and dies  I was also not confidence but my advice is drive around at night with somebody, there are less cars on the road, if you fuck up it doesnt matter
hope this helps
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On May 13 2013 02:58 Morlock wrote:+ Show Spoiler +I get the feeling that Terran was designed for the "dumb demographic" of Modern Warfare 2 kiddies. Everything about the race has "dumbed down" written all over it. Emergency supply depots; flying command centres that they can recycle; an army based on tier 1 units with tier 3 units being a luxury; hard counters to everything; the strongest static defence; free scouting and detection; the most cost effective unit in the game, the marine; hellbats, which are more powerful units than oracles even though they cost 50 less minerals and 150 less gas.
They wouldn't entertain for a second giving the widow mine or hellbat to Protoss. They would give it to the dumb demographic because their average IQ is like 30 points behind and they took about two years in WoL to even figure out that it's a good idea to use ghosts. They can stave off most all-ins by building extra bunkers, yet they fail even at that.
THIS!!!
Warning, Does contain immature language and ranting:
+ Show Spoiler +its good that the crying smiley is T.T because everytime I face terran I turn into this crying little bitch...
If they go triple cc and I dont want to cheese I have to go like 3 hatch before pool, macro hatch double upgrades up to 95 drones with 4th base and possibly 5th to stay even on eco.... its fucking retarded, I as a zerg have to be super cost efficient with my units... IM FUCKING ZERG.. THE ZERG MECHANICS ARE MADE TO GET A SUPERIOR ECO BUT INFERIOR COST EFFICIENCY GOD DAMN IT. And if these fucking Terrans deny my scouting I have to blindly assume they go triple cc 2-2 push and not some dumb fucking offtiming before that, because if they do that, Im dead because I have to play so insanely greedy to keep up, and if I dont play greedy and they just burrow mines and a-move / drop play, 2 hits and Im dead!!!!
And whats up with all these fuckers who brag about terran micro... YOU SPREAD OUT AND STUTTER STEP/ SHIFT QUEUE DROPS HOW DO YOU CALL THAT MICRO YOU SHITTY FUCKERS...
what made my head explode was a couple of weeks ago when I faced this T who had like 30% winrate in the other matchups and 75% win rate in zvt, his previous highest ladder rank was platinum, now high master NO PROBLEM BALANCE IS WHERE BALANCE SHOULD BE.... FUUUUUCCKKKKK....
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Netherlands6192 Posts
On May 13 2013 20:31 La1 wrote:Show nested quote +On May 13 2013 01:28 DragonLord wrote:There are some really angry people in this thread Related: + Show Spoiler +I'm so tired of being dependant. I should have had my drivers licence years ago and I don't. I am so unconfident when driving it is ridiculous. I look at the drivers on the road and think how any retard can drive a car... yet I can't? I have such bad confidence issues. Also I am so sick of this on and off situation I am having with someone. Why can't they just be straightforward and say what they want from me? I don't want to be used, I don't want to invest in someone to have my heart broken. Again. Also I am tired of being an afterthought to my so called 'friends' group. We were so close once, what happened? Meh. Don't worry man, I was 25 when i started learning.. sometimes its better to learn later because or not this ego fuck who drives 2 fast and crashes and dies I was also not confidence but my advice is drive around at night with somebody, there are less cars on the road, if you fuck up it doesnt matter hope this helps
Thanks La1, that does make me feel better. I will take your advice Seems like the only free time I have these days is at night.
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On May 13 2013 22:31 DragonLord wrote:Show nested quote +On May 13 2013 20:31 La1 wrote:On May 13 2013 01:28 DragonLord wrote:There are some really angry people in this thread Related: + Show Spoiler +I'm so tired of being dependant. I should have had my drivers licence years ago and I don't. I am so unconfident when driving it is ridiculous. I look at the drivers on the road and think how any retard can drive a car... yet I can't? I have such bad confidence issues. Also I am so sick of this on and off situation I am having with someone. Why can't they just be straightforward and say what they want from me? I don't want to be used, I don't want to invest in someone to have my heart broken. Again. Also I am tired of being an afterthought to my so called 'friends' group. We were so close once, what happened? Meh. Don't worry man, I was 25 when i started learning.. sometimes its better to learn later because or not this ego fuck who drives 2 fast and crashes and dies I was also not confidence but my advice is drive around at night with somebody, there are less cars on the road, if you fuck up it doesnt matter hope this helps Thanks La1, that does make me feel better. I will take your advice Seems like the only free time I have these days is at night.
My job right now is to drive vehicles (not all the time, but a lot of the time). Sometimes the vehicles can be worth hundreds of thousands of dollars, and often I will only get behind the wheel of an individual vehicle once. In the past, I have operated forklifts and other types of industrial and/or construction equipment. And I don't even own a car of my own; I walk to work and to go shopping, and I rely on public transit whenever I need to go anywhere in my city.
A pair of scissors is a tool. You use your hands to control it and make it do what you want it to do, but it is limited in what it can actually do, and trying to operate it in a way other than how it was intended to be used can cause injury. A car is no different. There are specific ways to control it, and you do so with your hands and feet. A car, or any machine for that matter, is just an extension of yourself. Think about it that way. If you can control a pair of scissors and not cut yourself, you have the capability to operate a vehicle. You have to make the vehicle do what you want it to do.
If your issue is truly confidence in yourself, then here is what I suggest:
Right now, get down on the ground and do 10 pushups. Anybody should be able to do 10, regardless of how bad of shape you are in.
I know you think I'm crazy, but hear me out. I think the issue is that you don't trust your instincts. You are thinking too much, and because of that, you are over-thinking things. You're not trusting your instincs, and you're not acting on impulse. If you haven't done those pushups, do them before continuing. Don't think about it, just do it.
From now on, every time you think about what I just said, do 10 pushups. Even if you're in the middle of a game of SC2, pause the game, message your opponent that you'll be a second, bullshit something like tell them that you have a phonecall, and do 10 pushups. Just woke up in the morning? Do 10 pushups. Just made breakfast? Do 10 pushups. Just got home from work? Do 10 pushups. Just finished watching your favourite TV show? Do 10 pushups. Whenever you think about it, do 10 pushups.
Obviously it's a bad idea to do it at some points in time, like if you're driving (don't pull over to the side of the road), or if you're at work it could be a bad idea to do that, but the point is that you need to start acting on instinct, you need to act on impulse more. This will do absolutely nothing bad to you, in fact, doing pushups will probably be slightly good for your health, and will get the blood pumping a bit better than before, which can help you in many ways.
Once you learn how to just act on instinct, you need to then train those instincts to help you do whatever it is you want to do.
When you're driving, you have less than a second to make decisions all the time, and if you make the wrong one, you could get in an accident with someone who is inattentive, or just plain bad at driving. Tenths of a second can be the difference between life and death. I'm not joking. There are a lot of bad drivers out there. You need to keep yourself aware of your surroundings and the situation that is ever-changing, and build good habits to learn how to prevent yourself from finding yourself in situations where you cannot do anything. You need to be able to act from pure instinct when you notice something wrong happening. You cannot act on instinct if you are over-thinking everything
It's like when you're playing Starcraft. If you are constantly reciting your build order in your head, and going through the motions, you are missing out on many, many things. If you play it enough where it comes instinctively, more of your attention is going towards reacting to your opponent, and planning the smaller things, which is the difference between the good and really good players. It takes practice, and time training yourself to act on impulse rather than thinking every small detail through, but when you get to that point, it's amazing what you can accomplish.
I never considered myself good at Starcraft, and I really disliked laddering (C- high in BW, only diamond high in SC2), but there were many times where I was able to see a small mistake while scouting, and instantly knew how to take advantage of it. There was no drawn out thought process, it was an instinctive decision and my entire plans changed based on something as small as a non-wall building placed one hex from where it should have been, or noticing an early chrono boost wasn't used right. It's kindof like a "I normally can't do X because they normally do Y, but in this case they did Z instead of Y, so I can do X now" type thing, except it takes a lot less time to process it in your brain than it does to read that. I've taken games from people with blue letters in BW, and have taken a couple of games vs top 200 players in tourneys for SC2 (this was before GM was introduced), as well as many games vs pretty high Masters level opponents because of this.
Acting on impulse isn't good for just Starcraft, or gaming in general. Nor is it only good for driving. It is useful for so many things. Problems playing sports? Problems dealing with women? Problems dealing with your boss? They can all be helped by training yourself to act on impulse in a good way. I've been working on that myself. One example is this: Whenever I'm in a group brainstorming a solution to a problem, and nobody comes up with an idea quickly, I've started doing what is known as the "McDonalds approach" to problem solving.
Basically, the idea is as follows: If you are in a group and you are brainstorming to figure out where everyone wants to eat, and nobody has put out any decent ideas, suggest McDonalds. Why? Because there's no way in hell everyone in the group would want to go there. It's a bad idea. But once a bad idea is being discussed, people will start offering better ideas, until you come to some kind of agreeable place to eat for everyone. The same applies for any problem solving situation; offer up a bad idea to get the discussion going. Recently, I've been consciously trying to offer bad ideas for the sake of starting discussions, and it has been working quite well for me. I'm training myself to think of a good idea for a solution to a problem, and if I can't think of anything quickly, then come up with a bad idea just to get some kind of discussion started immediately. It's very counter-intuitive, but it really does work.
The whole thing about training to act on impulse is from back when I studied martial arts, and was into competitive sparring. When you're in a fight, you have to rely on instinct. You train yourself to act on instinct, and you train those instincts to serve you well. I've adapted that to many aspects of my life, and I feel that it's done very well for me.
Now, go do 10 more pushups. Honestly though, it doesn't have to be pushups. It could be whatever it is you want it to be, as long as it will help you get into the habit of doing something healthy/useful on instinct rather than conscious effort. Pushups just happen to be pretty good for you, and are easy to do, and can be done anywhere, so that's what I'd suggest.
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+ Show Spoiler +Hey Dad. It's your job or your family. Time to choose. I don't answer your calls anymore because you call me every day to talk about your job for an hour. Then you go home and talk about it all the time when you aren't shutting the world out. Quit already and save yourself
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+ Show Spoiler +God christ all fucking mighty, this semester at RISD has been awful, all in one week my teacher DIES, the only teacher I had that was truly worth his salt and grit and teaching position, one of the most delightful, knowledgable and articulate professors at the school, and he dies. The day before that the hard drive in my MacBook fails and someone steals my credit card information and spends like 800 dollars at Victoria's Secret, and I'm left without money or computer for two fucking weeks, and good golly gosh was I just incapable of working. Oh, after that I spend the next few weeks being chronically sick, likely due to stress.
I had a good week, I got a nude modelling job for 150 bucks, and I was in shape to finish all of my finals.
And then my drawing teacher fails me for my (perfectly excused) sick days, the modelling job falls through, my phone fucking breaks, and everyone around me is getting TA positions with teachers they've liked and found inspiring. Here I am, bathing in a veritable soup of self-loathing misery and everyone around me is just happy. I caappn't even stand to be around my girlfriend, today I go up to her crit and shes all happy, I try to think to myself to be happy for her, her crit went well, I'm trying not to be bitter and hateful. So she goes on break and we go to the cafeteria for a snack, and on the way she proudly announces that she tried smoking yesterday, and all I can think is "REALLY? You fucking think that I AM THE ONE WHO IS GONNA JUST BE ALL HAPPY FOR THAT? The way she said it made me dumbfounded with blinding hatred. I cannot date smokers, I have lived with smokers and I cannot deal with what smoking brings with it. Right now I'm struck between the pitiable state that I'm in, incapable of feeling anything other than disgustingly selfish jealousy of the happiness of others, and the thought that my girlfriend might seriously be becoming someone different during the two fucking days we spent not seeing each other.
I fucking hate shit. I hate Eleanor Lazareck, the poorest excuse for a teacher I have ever had, I hate circumstance, I hate everything, I HATE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING.
Just being around happy people makes me incredibly depressed. I'm fucking DONE. So done.
GOODY GOODY FUCKING GUM DROPS, MY DESIGN PROJECT WON'T BE HERE IN TIME FOR THE CRIT! GOODY GOODY MOTHERFUCKING BULLSHIT COCKSUCKING FUCK SHIT FUCK FUCK I FUCKING HATE THIS SEMESTER SO MUCH SHIT FUCKING FUCKING FUCK FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUCCCCK!!!!
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+ Show Spoiler +Prom is the biggest fucking rip off ever, I'm down $450 as of now, more if I can't get more people to share a limo with. Fuck this industry. Fuck that you can't say no to this institutionalized rip-off without being considered a loser for not going. And fuck the guy having to pay for absolutely everything.
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+ Show Spoiler +I've lost everything I had back when I worked out almost daily. I used to be in shape. Now anytime I look down it's as if I never had the muscles I did. I try to get started working out again, but I just can't seem to make it a habit.
More than that, I'm trying to take on so many things. My future is opening up ─ I'm graduating High School ─ but I can't motivate myself to do the things I need to get done. I have trouble convincing myself to get out of bed in the morning.
I'm growing distant from my friends, and I'm coming to despise my father because I'm a reflection of HIM. He's irresponsible, selfish, whiny. He promises things and doesn't deliver. He lectures me on trying to clean up the house ─ a fucking pigsty, so much so that I've only had friends over two or three times since ELEMENTARY SCHOOL ─ and then is content to just live in his own fucking filth, with trash and unread mail piling up everywhere, and dog shit in the hallway JUST OUTSIDE OF HIS BEDROOM. I am so sick of living with my parents, and I'm sick of waking up in the morning and looking at myself and thinking "Am I going to be like them?"
I haven't had a girlfriend in years. I haven't even really been looked at but once or twice, and any time I try to get a date or flirt, the girl practically sniffs and looks away. I'm not wanted.
I'm lonely, but I don't want to be lonely, but I also don't want to be around people. I'm sick of feeling like a reflection of failure. I'm ashamed of myself for feeling these things, too.
Same shit, different day. Wake up, go to school, come back home, waste my life away. Sometimes a week will go by, and I'll be sitting at my desk and realize that I can't remember any of it.
I'm just so tired, and disgusted. I want my motivation back; I think that's my problem. I just want to not feel like a failure when I wake up in the morning and when I go to bed.
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+ Show Spoiler +Yeah if everyone could stop spamming "OMG WE WON HOCKEY GOLD! SWEEDEN WOOHOOO!" that would be great... The "we" part is especially annoying...
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+ Show Spoiler +FUCK THIS FUCKING GAME JESUS GODDAMN CHRIST BLIZZARD HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT YOUR PRODUCT IS A STEAMING PILE OF SHIT.
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ahhhhhh fuck why did I have to get the flu NOW of all times, I have exams in just a little over a week, and I haven't been able to get out of bed, and probably won't be able to for like, 3 more days minimum. I've tried studying but I can't stay focused for longer than a few seconds, It's literally taken me 10 minutes to write this post because i just keep staring off into the distance
oh and I can't sleep because my nose is running more liquid than the Niagara falls right now.
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+ Show Spoiler +I am mad becase I am bad because I am mad because I am bad becaude I am mad The never ending spiral of frustration of a low master player :D
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