EPTPost DotA Mini Blog:
The last 4 months were some of the hardest in my life, it honestly reminded me of my time in University b4 I dropped out. It felt like I had no direction, and time and time again when I discovered hope, I would be proven wrong. There is no BSJ or Purge in this space because trading is a zero sum game where you indiscriminately compete against top pros and bots who are honestly fucking cheating. And why would you fully teach your competitors? The content helped a lot but it mostly just covered the basics, and the psychology. Trading isn’t like school or gaming, you can’t watch replays, chain queue, or just turn the next page in the textbook. It’s a learning process where you don’t know where to start, what is next, and if your efforts will lead to anything. Perhaps more similar to entrepreneurship or building a puzzle.
The process was very tiring, boring, and frustrating. I would catch myself slow, lazy, and bored and then I would be FURIOUS. I consider myself a “tryhard” and it’s rare to find a day where I can thankful for my efforts. I realized it’s a whole other game to work hard when you doubt the things you learn as irrelevant or red herrings. When I first started I would have to pause a youtube video three times just to google/chatgpt three terms in a sentence. Sign a 20 page form for my broker, and fumbling around in a chart program, and waiting like a month for the IRS to even trade with real money. You can spend days endlessly gathering data, charts, and flipping through them trying to find patterns that you never use. I remember being happy that I finally found two patterns back in my first two months to trade and I never traded them again.
My first 6 weeks trading w/ real money consisted of me endlessly gathering hope and then getting fucked in the market. I literally lost money basically everyday and my losses were much greater than my wins. After some time in this endless cycle of losing it starts to get to you. You start questioning life: “how long is this gonna take?” “am I really cut out for this?” “what do I do now?” “is any idea I come up with even gonna work?” “maybe everyone else was right, and “maybe I should get a job.”
A huge blow to my ego. But luckily my ego is way too HUGE. I knew I wasn’t the type of person who would give up. So I shall continue through the endless doubt.
Around week 3 of my trading while going through @brianleetrades discord group. There was a member that really stuck out to me. To this day him and fluff are the only ones I’ve messaged first in trading. That guy really simplified trading for me. I don’t think I would have progressed this much without him. (not sure if I can include his name but thank you so much!)
Now after 5 weeks I realized that there was a specific pattern that was working. I started focusing on that pattern. Funny thing is I started losing on that pattern too. But after fine tuning it, I became positive while only trading that pattern.
Half way through week 6 I decided to only trade that pattern. That half was positive. Everyday I would find ways to improve on how to trade that pattern and week 7 was positive as well.
After backtesting a new setup for week 8 I decided to man up and trade two setups. I was positive on both setups for week 8. I'm now green on 5 of my last 6 days.
Naive as I may be, I honestly feel like I'm going to make it. I know there are endless stories of failing traders. And I might never know if I will one day blow up my account. But I don't care. I believe that things will work out for me in the end however my story plays out.
Things have always been like this for me, I’ve always been on the other side. The side that haters think is impossible. From when I refused to leave my guidance counselor’s office till he swapped my special ed courses to university level (and getting the highest marks in the school). From dropping out of University to become a professional gamer. From people telling me it’s wrong to do OMAD Keto and that I’m basically killing myself (lost 60 lbs from 230, been doing it for 7 years). And now to day trading. Sometimes the correct path to take requires courage.
Funny thing is that people are always arrogantly telling me I’m wrong based on some bullshit they have never experienced for themselves; that they never did any due diligence on. I KNOW that only the top 1% will make money, I KNOW that there is luck involved, I KNOW that it's risky. You're not that smart. And I KNOW I'm gonna make it. I’m gonna be so fucking rich. Fuck you haters.
I have a lot more I could talk about but I’m really bad at typing and I should get back to work. I don’t even know if anyone wants to read this too. As I am writing this I feel more blessed than I have ever felt about everything in my life.
Thank you @brianleetrades for helping me get started and for answering my newb ass questions tirelessly and for caring for your community in general, check out his discord. Thanks to @braxlikesdota as well. Big thanks my friend the beast from Brian’s discord lol. I’ll edit in his name if he doesn't mind.
"There’s no revenge you can inflict on a hater that’s worse than their own life." - Leila Hormozi
