EPTI'm really tired and feeling whimsical, so I think I'll ramble here for a bit. It's not a continuing of the first entry, as that requires more straight-forward thinking. I've little of that for the moment!
But, on the other hand, I feel more clear than normally. It happens often when I'm sleep deprived, as I am now. And there's one major difference that I note between the two conditions, besides the obvious benefits that such clarity brings: I'm not playing a song in my head.
Every single day, 24/7, I've got one song or another in my head. Usually just repeating a stanza, over and over, constantly. I don't consciously do it. I try to stop it, and fail. It frustrates the hell out of me. But, it's not playing right now. There's no song, and there's no barrier. I just think and it goes through more clearly than it had before.
Or maybe it's just a mirage of my extraordinarily tired mind, bereft of it's usual reality, floating in a torrential sea of capricious nature, scarcely noting the specter of residual logic that remains as a portion of the inept functions, despite being of the most humorous and liberating subjective processes.
Oooooo, clear as a translucent sphere on a rough day queer came the mind defined by it's nature inclined to go against the fenced in nature of everyday grind. Thus, he blogged of things unclogged and he made a serenade for those who have chose to read of his recede into vanity and insanity.
To give this blog some actual merit, there is one subject to touch on, one fleeting thought that is randomly grasped in the mix. Self exploration. Soooo many people live closeted lives, even when they believe otherwise. I say this because people who are actually self explored try out the things they even think they'll dislike. Thoughts and prejudice against things because of social conditioning and moral boundaries are what stop the majority, I believe. There is a difference between thinking/reading about something and actually going out and experiencing it, though, and I think a lot of people fail to realize this when it comes to things they harbor dislike for.
I'm not suggesting at all that everyone who hates drugs should go out and do them all or that someone who likes only vanilla sex should (well, maybe you actually should ;D) try out more things with their partner(s). Just that a lot of people do not explore the full extent of life, because they never allow themselves to find out how they actually feel about it through experience.
Ignorance begets ignorance, as reading does intelligence. But, truest knowledge comes from real experience. The self-explored shall always remain most respected by me, for they are the people willing to push themselves through the naturally uncomfortable to find out who they really are, rather than who they socially think they should be.
I think I'm done. Good job if you managed to stay with me this far. Or maybe bad job, because you clicked on the damn thing in the first place. What're you doing here? Go read Mani/Mora/mnm/CleaR/Strafe/Bey/etc. Compare crap to quality and learn a lesson in randomly clicking on things, damn it. D:<
