EPT2015 has been an exciting year. I've grown tremendously both as a person and as a player. I have consistently been putting in 50-60 hours a week into honing my skills with Terran on top of staying with school full time.
Although progress has been painfully slow, each small victory gives me tremendous motivation to carry on. I find solace in seeing my play constantly evolving, and that the more I work at this, the faster I will improve.
Progress. Doing something that you have never done before. The process itself is excruciating. The reward is a state of euphoria. I have come to respect and appreciate 'the grind', which is the constant shattering of my reality.
Looking back, this was the year I really struggled in. If it wasn't for my mentor, who believed in me even when I didn't believe in myself, I probably would have either given up or lost valuable time not being able to overcome the next hurdle that life throws at you. For all the glorious victories that I've seen, an even larger amount of gut wrenching defeats I also had to endure, pick myself back up, and keep going even when I lost sight of what I was working towards at times, I dredged onward.
Towards the latter half of this year, in the closing months of Heart of the Swarm, I made the decision to commit myself to conquering the last frontier of Terran that had been unexplored. MECH. Never before have we as a community seen this style offer proof of existence, only showing glimmers of hopes through a handful of european and north american terran players who understood the theory behind Meching, but oftentimes lacked the mechanical prowess to refine their style so that it might stand against the best of the best.
One of the beautiful things about starcraft is that every player sees the game through a different lens. Through my view, I saw an opportunity to carry the Mech style through the brushes of non-existence and cement it as a staple of SC2 styles of the future. I saw the chance to produce through my adroit mechanical skills, a mech style in which the other player could only win from superior skill.
I have spent the last couple months of Hots, and the first months of Lotv, committed to this style. Through many tears and sweat, inch by inch, I have slowly carved a pathway to a new reality.
I am fully committed to success, so much so that I have bet my sc2 career on it. I will either make it as the first legitimate mech player in the world, or I will die trying. I eagerly await 2016, ready to face next year's challenges head on. I will push myself to my limit. Then I will push myself past my limit. And I will do that as many times as it takes to achieve my goals.
