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Hey guys, just wanted to make a quick blog about this, it just happened.
Gas and Drugs
So yeah, I was offered drugs at a gas station today. This was the first time I was ever offered drugs by anyone that wasn't a friend of mine. I have to say, I don't know whether or not to be really happy that I looked old enough for this guy to ask me if I want some "D Kush," or if I should feel insulted that the dude went after a 13 year old looking kid who was an easy push over; a kid looking to be, "cool."
The guy was slick as hell. He came up to me, a tall, well postured young black man. He was wearing designer jeans, slightly sagging to the point where it was obvious he's been in some places you don't wanna be, but not to the ghetto ridiculous point. He was driving a black Ford Mustang, I think it was a GT, and he had no qualms about just walking up to me and asking the question. He was smooth, he just asked it, no buts about it. All I could manage to do was blurt out a quick no thank you when asked if I wanted weed, and then followed it up by baby-barfing the word no sir out a couple seconds later when asked if I didn't smoke. This guy was ballin and if he knew all I had in my wallet was $3.00 after buying $40 of gas, he probably wouldn't have bothered with my non-highroller self.
I don't mean to romanticize drug dealers, there are reasons he has enough money to buy the material wealth he has, and I can imagine the drawbacks of being a drug dealer are pretty large; between knowing the wrong types of people to have meaningful relationships with, between dodging cops, between paying off debts to people you don't want to owe debts to, and even just dealing with the social reprocussions of being known as the dude that sells the good stuff (or worse, the bad stuff). I also don't want to make it sound as if this was the best event of my life, but this seems like a sort of coming of age for me.
This is a coming of age moment in the Bildungsroman that is my life for two reasons. One is because my school is absolutely drug-tastic, and two is because I have always looked much younger than I am. My school has always been known as a drug hole. Pretty much everyone does some sort of drug, between people on harder things like acid or cocaine even and people who just smoke weed recreationally, someone is on something. The drug dealers and druggies always party together, pretty much leaving me out of it all - usually I hear second hand about these parties at school, but I really don't worry too much about it - and to be honest I feel like I missed a part of growing up since I've chosen that drugs aren't me. The second part of this is that I've always looked young. As an 18 year old, I'm a little more than 5'6 (still growing),and I look physically immature which isn't helped by my thinness best described by the quote, "bordering on starving African child." This was the first time in my entire life, other than when I was asked to by women on a cruise ship from a drunk Mexican, that I actually felt like someone else saw me superficially and thought to himself, "that kid looks old enough to buy or do drugs," and I won't lie that it was an ego boost.
TL;DR: I R BIG KID NAO.
Also, yes I realize this can misconstrewed to make me look like a sheltered white kid, and to an extent I am. However, this is more about the physical, the fact that I look young, and always have looked young, and in this case I looked old enough to be given the opportunity to do something illegal. Yes, I get that it isn't something to be proud of, but when you look 3 years younger than your actual age from the time you pop out of the womb, the little things about maturity get you happy. Cheers, TL.
EDIT: Just realized that I was driving a car, so he didn't have to guess my age -_-;;. Off to find happiness somewhere else.
 
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Middle school kids buy drugs so I don't think this actually says something about your apparent age. I don't mean to be a buzzkill but I think you should for things to make you happy elsewhere.
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18 is an absolute minimum starting point for anything, to the non-retarded. Brain development is ongoing and can be significantly effected by psychoactives, yet the amounts, mechanisms and potential reversibility of these things are not well understood. Be glad you made it this far, and always practice harm-minimisation through education and with a clear knowledge of your goals and reasons for use, whether it be alcohol, anabolic compounds or narcotics.
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On February 28 2013 15:25 micronesia wrote:
Middle school kids buy drugs so I don't think this actually says something about your apparent age. I don't mean to be a buzzkill but I think you should for things to make you happy elsewhere.
Buzzkill engaged. Also, I was driving a car at the gas station, so I feel like that might have given away that I was at least 16. Fuk, gotta look for happiness in something else lol.
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I'm fucking high right now but I work at an Insurance Agency so its ok...nothing like starting your day with a wake n bake.
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On February 28 2013 15:25 micronesia wrote:
Middle school kids buy drugs so I don't think this actually says something about your apparent age. I don't mean to be a buzzkill but I think you should for things to make you happy elsewhere.
yeah dude dealers dont give a shit about your age lol
if i 13 year old had the green most would sell it to them. or would probably sell them a bag of oregano and call it a day but same difference
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On March 01 2013 01:01 QuanticHawk wrote:Show nested quote +On February 28 2013 15:25 micronesia wrote:
Middle school kids buy drugs so I don't think this actually says something about your apparent age. I don't mean to be a buzzkill but I think you should for things to make you happy elsewhere. yeah dude dealers dont give a shit about your age lol if i 13 year old had the green most would sell it to them. or would probably sell them a bag of oregano and call it a day but same difference
Reality, crashing my dreams of actually looking my age lol. Also yes pandemona, Hugs, Not Drugs is the motto  .
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It's ok docvoc, I remember being quite happy the first time I was offered drugs in public 
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You should have given him a good beating, helps society alot. I have seen drugs ruin alot of peoples lifes, i even lost a very good friend to it (yea..he died). I seriously hate all the pro-drugs talk alot of young people tend to say these days, because they dont know shit about it. I see how a guy in my class does drugs with other classmates just to be part of the group, i see how he was before, now he is fucking up school big time ruining his life (i study game design, who the hell wants to fuck up that??), not coming to exams and stuff. I can tell a hundred stories about drugs, and none of them are good. I understand it is human nature to explore new things, or even to be part of a social group..but it ruins lifes, even the soft drugs do, some people are just lucky, but most of them are not.
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On March 01 2013 07:20 SupplyBlockedTV wrote:
some people are just lucky, but most of them are not.
We call this thing "life".
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