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On July 26 2012 06:36 UmbraaeternuS wrote:Show nested quote +On July 26 2012 06:31 Ryka wrote:On July 26 2012 06:04 UmbraaeternuS wrote:
And I can't write anymore because I'm getting all emotional and I don't know why. I don't understand this part, surely it's incredibly obvious why you're feeling emotional? Decent blog but this part ruined it a bit for me. I don't know myself. Maybe it was the 'knowing him' experience? Maybe it was what his granddaughter said? Maybe it was the whole losing a patient thing? Maybe it was the approach of dying he had? Maybe it was the whole thing? I don't know, man. It isn't obvious for me, a dude who has been trained to understand this shit. Maybe I'm not supposed to understand it, I'm just supposed to feel it and that's it. But I don't want to leave that part out of the story. I'm not ashamed of my emotions. I don't want to look like I "manned up" and took it like nothing. I don't want to tell just a part of the tale. I want to share the whole of it. Emotions included. Even though for some people it might sound corny and cheap, because that's how I feel about it and emotions, especially at times like this, are important.
Now that's a real man who you are 
Respect.
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Nice blog sir, can only hope my passing to the other side is as graceful as this. I have always wondered the toll all of this stuff takes on the doctors.
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Doctors get crushed physically while in school trying to practice for all those tests and exams then when they graduate from school get crushed emotionally having to see people they know they tried to help but couldn't save die right in front of them O_O. Lots of respect for what you do but I think he wouldn't want you to dwell on the his death, just take it to heart and move on. (wrong wording but its hard to get across what I mean >.<)
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The acceptance of death is hard process , 98 years is a lot of years of life, i would like to speak some to people like that, so much wisdom.
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It sounds like you did the old man a solid, what more could any of us ask than to be well cared for at 98 and surrounded by friends/family?
No worries brother, I sincerely believe you'll see him again some day, whether here on Earth or in another place.
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On July 26 2012 06:22 caradoc wrote:
"bah, I'm an old fart and I'm supposed to die soon, why do you worry so much? Death can't be that bad!"
I love this perspective. Death is difficult for the living, not for those that have passed on. It's important I think to realize this.
o really? Have you died and came back to tell us how easy it is?
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Like its out of the movies. Thank you for becoming a doctor. The world needs more people like you.
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thinking about becoming a doctor myself, does this stuff get any easier to deal with?~
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I really, really enjoy your blog. Thought provoking and emotionally powerful. Thank you for sharing
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I'm coming to appreciate your blogs more and more. They're all really poignant. Thank you for sharing this
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On July 27 2012 04:56 wei2coolman wrote:
thinking about becoming a doctor myself, does this stuff get any easier to deal with?~
Not trying to diminish this but there are far worse things you will probably have to deal with if you become a doctor :/ Guy passing away at 98 with a smile on his lips and his family watching over him is about as good as death will ever become. The way i understand it his sadness come more from losing a friend than a patient, and you are probably going to have to deal with it regardless of you becoming a doctor or not
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If there was a ladder for doctors, you would be a Grand Master.
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On July 26 2012 06:13 CygNusX-1 wrote:
Annnnd then proceded to plow the granddaughter
User was banned for this post.
I almost feel like a terrible person for it, but I lol'd.
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"Do what you have to do, child. If I go, don't be sad. It's my time anyway and I'm not afraid..."
This brought tears to my eyes.
You have great storytelling style, UmbraaeternuS.
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On July 26 2012 06:36 UmbraaeternuS wrote:Show nested quote +On July 26 2012 06:31 Ryka wrote:On July 26 2012 06:04 UmbraaeternuS wrote:
And I can't write anymore because I'm getting all emotional and I don't know why. I don't understand this part, surely it's incredibly obvious why you're feeling emotional? Decent blog but this part ruined it a bit for me. I don't know myself. Maybe it was the 'knowing him' experience? Maybe it was what his granddaughter said? Maybe it was the whole losing a patient thing? Maybe it was the approach of dying he had? Maybe it was the whole thing? I don't know, man. It isn't obvious for me, a dude who has been trained to understand this shit. Maybe I'm not supposed to understand it, I'm just supposed to feel it and that's it. But I don't want to leave that part out of the story. I'm not ashamed of my emotions. I don't want to look like I "manned up" and took it like nothing. I don't want to tell just a part of the tale. I want to share the whole of it. Emotions included. Even though for some people it might sound corny and cheap, because that's how I feel about it and emotions, especially at times like this, are important.
"I don't know, man. It isn't obvious for me, a dude who has been trained to understand this shit."
I take it it's not your first death as a doctor right? That's probably why it's a "I don't know why".
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On July 27 2012 11:24 thedeadhaji wrote:
I take it it's not your first death as a doctor right? That's probably why it's a "I don't know why".
You are right.
I never thought of it that way...
Thank you for sheding a little light on this.
I want to be as strong and wise as him when I'm on my deathbed. He truly was a great man.
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thedeadhaji
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On July 27 2012 11:26 UmbraaeternuS wrote:Show nested quote +On July 27 2012 11:24 thedeadhaji wrote:
I take it it's not your first death as a doctor right? That's probably why it's a "I don't know why". You are right. I never thought of it that way... Thank you for sheding a little light on this. I want to be as strong and wise as him when I'm on my deathbed. He truly was a great man.
Also, you didn't just lose a patient -- you lost a friend, and in many ways, you lost family.
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That active at such an old age is impressive and admireable... A family friend recently took his own life(at age 60~ish) because he was diagnosed with ALS and knew he wouldn't be able to care for himself. I wonder if I would be strong enough to do the same if I thought I would be a burden to my loved ones; or if perhaps his method was the cowards way out.
^Hope that didn't seem disrespectful =/.
~ Thanks for sharing interesting concept to think about.
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Moving story. What were his secrets to such longevity, perhaps you can share?
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