I went to go get my laundry from the laundry room and when I get back to my floor in the stairwell i realize that I left my keys in my room as I was trying to go to bed and I realized I needed to get said laundry or I'd lose it in the morning. Now I dont really know what to do other then just sit here next to my floor andmy laundry. I cant find anyone as its 4 in the morning. This is oddly exactly what my life is like right now. my gf of two years broke up with me beacuse she didnt want to commit any more to a long term relationship. this came at a huge shock and made me really depressed as she lied to me to try and make me feel better. this all reminded me of my childhood when I got bullied a lot in school and didnt have friends due to my multiple concussions. anyway I didnt have "no friends" but a few people who where nice to me and wanted to be my friend beacuse they pittied me. i hated this so much and its the worst part of it all. just the lieing to me and the stuff it did to the way my dammaged head thought made me not trust my emotions which really screwed me up. she came along and changed that. she made me happy by being with me and I opened up and had a really great last 2 years of high school. I went to the same college as her even against the one i really liked beacuse of how much I cared for her. now shes gone and it feels like middle school all over again. I dont make friends well beacuse im really shy and dont have much confidence. so things really suck right now even outside this whole I cant get to my room im really tierd and all i have is my phone to keep me entertained until someone wakes up and lets me in. team liquids been really good to me and I'm proud to have one of the first thousand shirts printed even if i cant prove it. mlg is this weekend and i cant imagine me in a situation where im not watching it by myself in my dorm which makes me as sad as im happy for the event. i remember all the hell the way back when they started streaming good times. the worst part is that i dont want to get out of here. tomarrow i have to get back to doing college classes which I hate and be cold the whole time. Im pretty sure im either crazy at this point or just delerious from the lack of sleep. I wish i could get a job doing something so I could buy skyrim or some game or some decent food. having classes in the middle of the day is both fun and making me completly unemployable. fuck my roomate and his steorytypical college duchebagness. ESPORTS is legit as everything else. stop fucking watching tv at 3 in the morning I have classes at 11 tommarrow.
If you read all that thanks Im going to try and sleep on my clothes.