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First of all I'd like to thank all of the people that given me helpful advice and for showing how supportive this community is.
+ Show Spoiler +I've been working out for the past few weeks, eating healthy and trying to find something to keep me distracted from myself and my thought. It might have gone worse due to qutting WoW a month or so ago, since WoW was my biggest distraction in life.
There is plenty of things I want to do and I've also got a plan for my life. Only thing is that when I do get sad, I cant do anything, 'cause I dont want to.
I'm gonna get tested for bipolar and I do kinda wish I have it, at least then I would have a reason for my feelings and my actions. Since my life with myself often feels like a hurricane, one minute I'm sad, next I'm happy, and then back to sadness and it goes on and on. I'm two different persons when I'm sad and when I'm happy. Thous I often backout when I'm sad, I have trouble to remember my feelings, or things Ive said or done. But in general I have a great memory, but it dosent work when I'm down.
This is not a cry for attention, it's just I had to write myself off, and too see if anyone else out there been through/still going through this kinda stuff. And it's heartwarming to see how many people that I actually comes with advices.
Lots of hugs to the supportive people in this thread. Gonna try keep an update on this cause I feel it's a good way to go through with this depression and for myself to keep being motivated.
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Despite our past, I hope you'll soon start to feel better.
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On July 01 2011 20:02 Meeran wrote:First of all I'd like to thank all of the people that given me helpful advice and for showing how supportive this community is. + Show Spoiler +I've been working out for the past few weeks, eating healthy and trying to find something to keep me distracted from myself and my thought. It might have gone worse due to qutting WoW a month or so ago, since WoW was my biggest distraction in life.
There is plenty of things I want to do and I've also got a plan for my life. Only thing is that when I do get sad, I cant do anything, 'cause I dont want to.
I'm gonna get tested for bipolar and I do kinda wish I have it, at least then I would have a reason for my feelings and my actions. Since my life with myself often feels like a hurricane, one minute I'm sad, next I'm happy, and then back to sadness and it goes on and on. I'm two different persons when I'm sad and when I'm happy. Thous I often backout when I'm sad, I have trouble to remember my feelings, or things Ive said or done. But in general I have a great memory, but it dosent work when I'm down.
This is not a cry for attention, it's just I had to write myself off, and too see if anyone else out there been through/still going through this kinda stuff. And it's heartwarming to see how many people that I actually comes with advices.
Lots of hugs to the supportive people in this thread. Gonna try keep an update on this cause I feel it's a good way to go through with this depression and for myself to keep being motivated.
I don't think psychology or meds will help. Instead, I think spending time on your own, doing soul searching for what is really bothering you, and confronting those problems mentally and finding a resolution you are satisfied with is what is going to help. I think it's utter nonsense that some drug concocted in a lab for the sake of making money is going to fix your personal issues.
Everyone has ups and downs, some people more so than others. The key is gaining enough inner strength and self-control to be able to handle these ups and downs without doing anything destructive. In fact, you should be strong enough to see past them and turn them into positive energy for doing what you want in life. It's all about inner strength, and in my opinion, the only way to build it is to make a conscious effort to. Pills are not going to do that whatsoever. And if you start taking pills to "fix" this problem, you're going to have to keep taking pills for the rest of your life. Seeing as how they never actually fix or cure anything. They just numb it for as long as the dose lasts.
Hope you feel better, but to be honest happiness is not that complicated. You literally just make the decision to be happy and positive rather than sad and negative. If you have enough willpower, you can do it.
I'd also recommend breaking up. The still and serene mind heals much faster than the romantically involved, hormonally stimulated, sexually active mind.
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Buy a light box, they're often effective at toning down manic depressive/bipolar disorder, which it sounds like you might have.
Go outside, soak in the vitamin D enhancing calcitreole of the sunlight. (IMPORTANT eat yummy yogurt)
I know it sounds dumb, but it really does help in many cases. When you have time, sit in the shade and stop, and slow your breathing so that it's almost like you're asleep. And think of a bright white sheet covering the entire world. Focus on the center of that sheet. Keep your breathing slow. Do this for just 15 mins a day.
Stop hating yourself, hate just the part of you that refuses to change. And hate it by channeling all the love you can muster into it. Loving something to death is the best way to kill something.
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