I am not at peace with myself or the world in general. That is mostly due to the fact that the world is not as it should be. I live in a world where helping other people in mortal danger either results in punishment (because of the ridiculous thing we call legal system) or sometimes even in death (because apparently there is no god). I live in a world where people get harassed so badly by others they cannot even speak coherently anymore because they shiver too much, biting down on the raw, bloody flesh of their fingers. I live in a cruel joke of a world where the same people will vehemently deny that anything is wrong when you stand up for them. I live in a world where even the closest people to me make things from the past disappear by simply denying that they have ever happened in the first place, because truth in general apparently is as consistent and mouldable as mud.
I live in a world where I am supposed to follow a certain set of rules or virtues no one else cares about. And why should they - no matter if it is harassing, physical abuse, rape or even worse - there is always a good chance the victim will keep silent. It is this kind of 'suck it up' mentality that makes me sick to my stomach and at the same time saddens me to no end.
In the end, I of course realise that the world can never be exactly the way I want it to be. I try to accept this but it does not work out. I like to be at peace with myself and the world but are still overwhelmed by emotions when I see that the world does not give a shit about anything.
"In the end, I of course realise that the world can never be exactly the way I want it to be. I try to accept this but it does not work out."
Start, right now, focus on changing the world into something that you want it to be. This can be done by your everyday actions, as every interaction you have with anyone everyday has value, it has worth. Start now, and do things that follow your code, do things that adhere to your view of peace, and never go back. Just don't let bad things happen, stand for what is right, no matter the consequences. That will truly bring you inner peace, something we all should look to be doing, everyday.
make yourself a corner in the world where there's only stuff you like. try not to watch any news for like a month or maybe two, and then think about how much information you actually feel like is missing you. There are so many things in the focus of public discussions that are there without any real reason for you - just don't follow that stuff. Like what you said about the legal system: Imagine you never heard of that being as it is. Would you behave any different in your daily life? i bet you would not. The only thing that might be different is that you would not feel shitty all day because of knowing that there are such things happening.
the only reason people go that crazy with the legal system is because they see that you can on the news for instance. so they think "hum i don't like my neighbor. He has something slightly similar as what that guy got sued for, so i'll sue him." so it just gets worse day by day. The chances that something like that will actually affect you are slim. The chances that - if you get affected by something like that - it would never have happened without this spreading of public stupidity are damn high. So just stop participating in spreading. If its not something you want to hear, don't listen. as long as it doesn't have high odds of affecting you, its unimportant for you.
Following all the bullshit that happens to some individuals out of millions of people doesn't do anything good. It just makes you feel like this is probably going to happen to you too, because all cases of those 99.999999% of all people who it does not happen don't get any public attention. So, by hearing about something that happened to one out of a million people, your brain goes like "um gotta feel shitty now, could happen to me tomorrow". but actually - no, it won't. Your life will be just the same as if you never heard of it, the only difference is you feel worse. So you can either keep that in mind and constantly remind you of it, or just make it so you don't hear about it in the first place. If you like hearing about something cause it entertains you or is of interest to you in any other way, sure do it. But if you think about the sources you follow, think about how much of what you get from these sources actually does interest you and what part you don't want to hear. And then maybe stop following it. Following everything is simply a bad thing, even if people might think they get wiser by doing so. Maybe you get more knowledge and can participate in a lot more discussions, but you also get unhappy in a lot of cases because brains are stupid things.
You seem to have an extremely pessimistic view of the world. Sure there's stuff going that's horrible, and often unacceptable but there's the other side too....friends, family, etc that still care about you. I get a lot of joy out of people I like, video games, and music, as well as stuff like kayaking, soccer, and biking.
Perhaps considering that you may have depression or something? I'm not trying to be a jerk here, I'm absolutely serious, I don't think it's normal to have such a bleak outlook on life.
Why don't you do something that'll have a positive impact instead of bitching about the horrible state of the world. You might not beable to fix everything, but there are ways that you can have a good influence on a number of people's lives as well as partially mend a broken system. Crying about it sure isn't going to help.
Blame the system, power goes to those who least deserve it. They do their crazy shit and we are powerless. All you can do is live by your own rule and try to avoid collision with the law and norms.
You can try to fix the world but people with their egos and opinions will stand on your way. All you will get is more and more shit and only few allies.
Minding your own business, living you own way in your own world, watching things through your own "reality tunnel"...doesn´t make life peaceful but... bearable? maybe.
The world is not in a horrible state. You are just focusing on the horrible parts of the world. The world can't be all good. That would make it some sort of utopia. Maybe you have personally been affected by something and if that's the case, I wish you the best of luck and hope you find peace. But you have to see all of the good in the world as well. And the good far outweighs the bad.
Sounds like you want to make the world a better place..why don't you look into working for some charity organizations, help people in poor areas to get educated, etc. A couple friends who have done this have felt really good about it, and had great experiences. You would be likely to meet others with similar viewpoints, too. Could be rewarding.
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