Loved games so much even till this day.
The first PC game that i played was Counter Strike, i believe it was 1.2 or 1.3...
Then i played many games, mainly MMORPG's and casual games. When i turned 13, i got my first computer. I never had a computer, usually i game at Cyber's or PC Bangs.
I didn't have any games, so my friend lend me his starcraft disc.
Wow! It was amazingly fun game! Yes, i am noob, played with cheats and with bots only at that time. Time passes, i forgot about BW.
Then last year i rediscovered BW. It was because i heard that starcraft 2 gonna come out soon. Somehow, someway, i discovered iCCUP while surfing the net. I began to replay broodwar and practice (with bots, lol) just to get accustomed to the game once more and to prepare to play on iCCup. I did not know any builds or strategy at all!
My first iCCUP game, it was a TvT, got steamrolled pretty badly. I did not know that people use tanks, gol or vults TvT, i used MnM. The next 10 games, were also disastrous.
After discovering liquipedia and TL(hurray!)few weeks later, i began practising those builds and stuff.
Next iCCup season begins, i still lose, never won any games at all like about (0-12)!
Still gained some experience at least but was ashamed so i clearstats everytime i lose.
Last season, i played iCCUP again. Not a single win at all despite improvements. I played with my friend or against BWAI, practicing together, got an APM of 150 with EAPM of 130+, my micro is far better and macro'd well and watched plenty of VOD's.
So, my point is, after about 3 seasons of SC:BW,
i never won a game!
Its like, like 0-40 something....
Now, there is this mental block, i don't dare to play BW multiplayer online anymore.
Its tough, this season i hadn't played a game, though i really want to play it badly!
Never winning a game really is demotivating!
I need something to motivate me now so that i would be brave enough to play BW again!
Most of my games were against asians, like Korean's or Chinese. Well, im in asia after all, timezone difference only an hour.
Hmm, i guess that's all of my rant.
Thank you if you read this to the end.