I have never been in a relationship for as long as this (4.5 months). It was by far the hardest thing I've ever done, at least that what it feels like right now. I'm not sure if I ever had the feelings for her that she had for me, she told me several times lately that she really cared about me and after I thought about it I felt terrible.
I think its for the best, if I had waited longer it would most likely just get worse. I'm only 19 and her 21 so I sure that she will find someone else that can actually genuinely make her happy.
The more I think about it the worse it gets. The look on her face, as I finally pulled myself together and told her that I didn't have the feelings for her that she deserved, was terrible. I never wanted to hurt her but in the end I really did.
I guess this will go over rather quickly but I just feel like an ass...
/rant off thanks for reading my emo rant :p