EPTI have a problem. I think I know the answers to my problems, and theoretically I does when I tell me. For example, I do not work out for a few days, I feel like shit because I didnt get my self to work out for those few days. I also can not tell the difference between frustrated people and angry people. I believe this is due to low self confidence. I know I should not be all emo about this because its not a big deal, but I just cant push myself to do things anymore. It is pulling my grades down, as I honestly think school is EXTREMELY boring (however I find the concepts interesting), and the only good part is that I get to half-socialize with people.
I talk about my little problems with my most trusted teacher, but she is getting frustrated because I have a hard time taking in the advice she is giving me. She even called me a pansey a few times, and that a lot of my complaining is some form of attention grabbing technique. The thing is, I agree with her, but I am not sure if I should talk to her anymore, because I find that I learn better when doing things on my own. And when she is giving me advice, my brain automatically thinks these are generic answers which I already know, EVEN THOUGH I dont act on those "generic answers" which the other part of my brain is telling me that this is sincere help. We have had a few 1 hour long convos, and I am extremely grateful to her. I am also writing this to prepare for my session with her tommorow, where I will discuss this with her (my being a pansey).
Basically I am confused, even though the answer seems clear to me. the worst part is that I am making people feel sorry and pity for me, even though only a part of likes it, and the part part says its a waste of time and I should just start to act.
