The Letting Off Steam Thread - Page 99

Fuck you bitch don't call me now that I found another girl. You had your fucking chance and you blew it. Fucking bitches only want you AFTER you're not available. Fucking girl logic and their shitty genetics. Cry me a river.

I am just so dumb, I can't believe how clumsy I am today. So my day begins pretty normal, speak with flatmate and everything. Then we go to school, he's already ready to go so I just rush in order to not have to walk appartment-university alone, its kinda long so I like to do it while talking.

At school, gotta prepare for the undergrads party tonight, since I'm appointed to take care of every party and do the inventory. But I got exam tmrw, so I study at the same time. I wanted to go to workout during some freetime, but after looking in my bags, I forgot my wallet with all my papers(including my university card, so can't workout), so I gotta forget about that. During party I cant study obviously, even if I try, because everyone is making so much noise(obviously), I try as I can, but eventually I just give up. Later on, after the party, everyone leaves to the bar while I take care of cleaning what's left of the mess and counting beers and everything, my usual job. After putting leftover beer and pizza in the locker, obviously there's something wrong somewhere so I got to rush to go there, accidentally closing the locker's door with the keys inside, dammit !

So after taking care of those drunk engineers trying to make mess everywhere, I can't do shit anymore coz locker is locked with keys inside, and my friend with the spare keys is at bar(with all the rest of my friends obviously), so I leave him message and then go back home.

Now I'm at my house door, its 9:30 PM, wanna go take a shower and study then sleep and kickass at my exam tommorow. I look in my things, guess what ? Of course, I fucking forgot my keys inside the appartment(since I left with my flatmate this morning I didn't notice, he locked the door, not me). I usually leave a window open for that, but my friend closed all of them during the rainstorm, god damn.

I should maybe text them, oh wait, I also forgot my cellphone in my house, how stupid can you be to forget everything important?(I'm living 450km from home, so can't call my mum or brother for that sadly) So I go back to university, got to find a PC to rant on, hopefully, I knew of this letting off thread, which ease my mind/heart greatly right now ._., just sadly since the locker is locked, I don't have access to pizza and juice to easy my night that I'm gonna spend at university. Oh well, got an exam in less than 11 hours anyway, I guess its a good time to study without thinking about anything else, I even got a coffee machine, this will be awesome.

Worst is that the exam I have tmrw is because I missed the first one because I almost lost my eye the othey day, otherwise I,d be with friends and having fun, now I gotta study alone in university.

tl;dr : I'm pissed because I'm stupid and forgot all of my things at home, but in reality, I'm healthy, at university and I have relatively good grades, so don't worry a piece about me, I'll study now and try to own in my exam tmrw, what happened today is only my fault :D

PS : Whew, I feel better now, sorry if you can't understand a shit of what I wrote, coz I didn't reread(and never will) myself :D

Posting my failures didn't make me feel any better. Maybe posting the very next game after will help.

Great success.

Infestor harass.. Whoops, they snuck in (didn't even get dropped, just burrow-moved in in while my army and turrets weren't together) and I lost my entire economy without being able to do anything about it. For fucks sake. Is there anything else Infestors should be good at? Spawn mules out of their ass perhaps?

the motherfucker upstairs...he just walks back forth for like an hour at a time, zero exaggeration, stomp stomp stomp the whole time. jesus fuck.

Wow. This guy at work basically just told my manager I had performance related issues. I was thinking of working here for a year and my manager kept talking about the potential for me to do it, but I'm not sure if she was just stringing me along. I don't know if the guy was there to protect his job since we're working on the same stuff. This was supposed to be my year long coop. At home so half my salary didn't go to living expenses. I can't believe the guy just went behind my back and talked to my manager about it. He said he was sorry about it on the phone but wow, am I supposed to forgive people for that? Wow. Office politics. He said he wouldn't do it again, but I don't think I can ever trust him again.

Now I have to work harder to find a place elsewhere in case this doesn't go through.

HOLY SHIT HOTS LOOK FUCKING TERRIBLE. I fucking hate playing protoss. ALL I HAVE TO FUCKING DO IS 1A. I really try and do other fucking builds and not all ins, but its actually impossible. WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY ADDING THE GOD DAMNED TEMPEST ORACLE AND REPLICANT. These two fucking units are the stupidest, most unoriginal and gimicky pieces of shit ever created. I want fucking harassment units that aren't fucking gimicky. All the fucking sc2 maps are cookie cutter pieces of shit and blizzard killed e-sports. If any blizzard employee actually reads this, go burn in hell for all eternity. I don't care what stupid ass reasons you have, by working for that piece of shit company you are slowly killing esports

Fuck time Warner and internet in West LA. Always DCing every fucking 5 minutes. Winning a match? DC! loading a game? DC! not only that but it is getting more and more expensive every month. Time Warner and local monopoly's can go to hell! I just hope fios comes into my area soon while I am stuck with this god awful internet.

One of the funniest things I've read on this site.

I don't have the ability or mouse accuracy to snipe templar properly. up a full base all game long to lose to a 0-0 toss with storm. killed his main three times. denied his third twice. denied his fourth entirely. 3-2 vs 0-0+storm. goodbye marines. I don't have the time till i move into my new house to practice and get my mechanics and accuracy where they need to be. idc about zerg, i hate knowing that i have to play twice as good to lose to T + click a spot on the ground. rage rage rage. i hate knowing what i need to do and losing because im not ABLE to flat do it, and that it's perfectly fine that im just supposed to do a lot more than my opponent has to. i flat out just do not enjoy terran. i only play it because i want to be a good terran. realistically i play more like a toss as is. more realistically even when i do have time to practice like i need to im not entirely sure ill actually enjoy it ever.

God dammit why do you have to go out of your way to let me know you don't find me attractive. I GET IT BITCH, I'm skinny and you're not into that, you don't want to sit on my penis. I'm sure, somehow, I'll deal with the crushing disappointment. Now stfu about it. I know I'm kinda thin and I'm actually pretty sensitive about it, and I'm trying REALLY hard to gain weight, so maybe think before you fucking run your mouth?
Let's say you're in a group of friends and a girl makes a flirty joke about one of the guys, and his response is to go 'haha NO. No way would I ever go anywhere near you, you're ugly and skinny.' Would that not be the fucking height of arrogance? But women feel like it's no problem to do that kind of thing with an irritating frequency. Male egos are fragile, you insensitive bellend.
Can't wait for all this gym work to pay off so I can pay girls like that no attention at all.

she might not find you attractive. but many girls love the skinny guys its all bout the style, and the confidence

Preaching to the choir bro, it just still sucks when people feel the need to take every opportunity to take you down a notch.

And, ok, I admit, she's really pretty and I'd totally go for that.

We started talking about the cats. We'd had cats for 9 years. Mom had bought them for us when we graduated from grade school. It was our cheap and supposedly"wonderful" gift (although any one of us would have preferred a dog).

"I don't like them." I said. Everyone laughed. It was a joke. I'd said it with a dry tone that is usually reserved for inanimate objects, not living things. It was funny.

"Why not?"

I continued. "They never let me pet them. Ever since we adopted them they've been afraid of me. They run away when I walk upstairs, they jump when I walk in the door, They just don't seem to like me, no matter what I do. And they pee in my room whenever I'm away. Just my room. I have no idea why."

We all laugh some more. My mother agree with me.

"They've ruined the leather sofa" she says. "And at the old place they scratched up the carpets, and the Gazebo tent in the back yard."

Noticing the stark difference between our answers, I jump in.

"Yeah mom, those living things ruined so many of our materiel things, its really just a hassle, isn't it?"

The other guests, who also noticed, laugh, but mom dosent. She looks at me coldly.

"Well yes [name retracted], they did ruin many materiel things, but once you start working and buying materiel things, you'll notice that you'd rather not have them ruined".

No one laughs. The mood has changed. I look at my mother, but I don't say anything. We both know I'm working 60 hours a week during my summer break so I can help pay for college. We both know I worked 8 hours that very day, a Sunday, to do this. Still, she doesn't apologize, or retract her statement. For some reason she still feels entitled to a level of condescension most wouldn't use on a young child, much less a responsible adult in the top of his class who works 2 jobs.

I feel helpless; like nothing I could ever do would please such a cold woman. I don't know why such a thing would bother me still, after years of this attitude, after years of favouring my sister, years of gushing over [name retracted]'s dance recitals, and cassually ignoring whatever it was I was doing.

I'm not like my mother. I don't explode theatrically when I'm insulted, or burst into tears at dinner parties. I smile at her.

"I don't feel like I've earned this lecture right now, mum. We both know how hard I'm working".

"-well maybe when you're older then-"

I have nothing. I can't say anything. I won't say anything. Nothing could have earned this kind of treatment. Had I been cruel with her by pointing our her frivolous and materialistic attitude? I had. But this seemed- unfair. This was a special kind of cruelty that only a mother could inflict on her son. None of it had been in jest- every word was meant to draw blood.

No one laughed. My uncle shot me a sympathetic look, but soon my sister drew the conversation to other things. I had nothing to say. I felt so hurt.

I don't have the words to describe how betrayed I feel. How belittled I feel. How unfair it all is.

It fucking sucks.

Very well written.
From what you wrote, it seems like you understand your mother better than anybody. She's going to be that type of person and it's not likely she will change. It is unfair and stupid, but I hope it bothers you a bit less every day. Parents are seldom perfect (most aren't even decent), but it doesn't mean we can't become better people than they are when we grow older.