The Letting Off Steam Thread - Page 10

WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE! I HAVE NO CAREER, JUST SOME DEAD END JOB. FUUUUUUUU

WHY THE HELL ARE PEOPLE STILL SO CASUALLY RACIST ITS TWENTY EFFING ELEVEN!?

FUCK ZERG THAT ROACH LINGS ALLIN ON ONE BASE VS ME PROTOSS EVERY FUCKING GAME. And FUCK ME for not scouting HE HAS NO EXPO and deducing THAT AN ALLIN IS COMING.

Also FUCK. MY. UNIVERSITY. I failed the theory part of a class, but made the lab part. Now, I can do the theory part again next year, BUT NO! FUCK THIS! The year below me has a new program. WITH THE COMPLETELY IDENTICAL CLASS IN IT. I mailed the examcommissionboard OR WHATEVER THE FUCK THAT IS CALLED IN ENGLISH to ask if I could skip the lab work that I already did BUT NO FUCK! THEY DIDN'T LET ME DO THAT! FUCK FUCK FUCK. Now I have to do either 2 tough labs in one quarter WHICH MAY NOT EVEN BE POSSIBLE or my study will be ONE FUCKING YEAR LONGER. FUCK.

AND THE FUCKING WORST PART IS THAT I OWE IT ALL TO MYSELF. GOD. DAMN.

FUCK.

I get so much crap simply because I play Protoss. I am not sure why, but Protoss always has this knack for getting the OP label stuck to it no matter what happens. I probably get 2 or 3 out of every 10 PvZs in which the Zerg whines Protoss is OP and that I have no skill whatsoever because I have colossus.

Stupid Battlenet ladder system. SHOW US OUR MMR. What is the point of not? Do they think their idea might get "borrowed" by some competing company or something?

I also wish that I could ladder against the race of my choice. I am tired of PvZ all day everyday. I know I can do this in custom maps, but I would prefer to have something visual like ladder rank, even if it is the most BS thing ever.


What else. Oh yeah. BISU WTF.


Thought of another thing. I am starting college this fall, and the math class I am signed up for is Precalc/Trig. I took and destroyed that class 3 years ago... I then got calc 1 and 2 credit, of which the school claims I never showed proof of. Yay school.

Why is high bronze on SEA so much harder then what I'm playing at high silver in NA? I'm so bloody sick of seeing myself jump between top 8 bronze on SEA winning and losing equal number of games but forever bronze for one entire season and still now. I know I'm bad, missing injects, floating money and not harassing enough but the differences across regions can be THAT HUGE.

I hate ZvP and ZvZ, ZvT is like my absolute clearest match up with regards on what to expect and do but the other two are just huge balls of random. I deserve to be bronze when I lose to late 4gates, cannon rushes, VR rushes, mass zealot, proxy 2 gate, mass phoenix, elevator warp prisms, DT run bys and even the silliest mothership, VR, colossi pushes. I just dont know what to scout for against P and robo play kills anything before spire comes up in time.

ZvZ is no better, i get speedling flooded, burrowed roaches, mutas, hydra ling and the occasional but rare ling infestor with burrow. I cant tell when I'm safe to drone and just get killed when i try to take my 3rd. Or even better- lose my natural and be superbly far behind when I make just one wrong round of drones. Screw queens chasing down overlords and supply capping me or fast mutas denying me vision of the map- I counter attack with roaches and the muta ball still has a way to get larger!

So much RAGE at being forever bronze- I'm like only playing up to par against T but the other two I'm horrible and dont know how to get better. I know its just like macro and stuff but I cant physically do what my mind says I should- and when i see shit going down I panic and its GG.

This game is supposed to be my way of relaxing after a hard time at uni- not make me more agitated. I love the game but I can't divorce the idea of fun from the natural desire to win.

I don`t hate people who make absolutely baseless judgements about others and that such judgements is all they need to cultivate hate or disdain. I don`t fucking hate the fact that they do it with almost no fucking knowledge about the people they judge or hate, about their life experience, their overall situation and the breadth and depth of their real selves which they have no fucking clue about.

I don`t hate people who do that, who judge others by surface-level factors, by sensless generalizations, who put others inside the boxes of their assumptions.

In fact, even such statements are generalizations because they create this idiotic idea of "<described> people".

So you see your fucking quiet, insular, smug nerd and you hate him. You hate how he thinks up all these 'badass' replies but doesn't say them in real life and instead hide behind an internet wall in order to deliver them, despite the fact that you have absolutely no fucking proof that this is what he does.

Now lets assume you do have such proof. Now you KNOW. So ? Now you think you have all the reasons in the world to hate him because he is such a fucking pathetic loser. It doesn`t matter why he is that way, it doesn`t matter what did he experience, it doesn`t matter whether it is his fault, it doesn`t matter that he actually is a fellow human being and so forth, all that matters is that he does this.

Well, I think this is understandable but at the same time, it doesn`t help anyone and certainly doesn`t help such guy. Also society is not rarely more responsible for the failures of such people (as well as the sensless, ignorant judgements). How do you want them to get out of their hole when whenever they would try they get fucking mocked, ridiculed, made fun of or pointlessly judged by ignorant people who value being with "winners" more than they value being able to understand and support another human being ? Why do you hate them ?

Sure, there are some that you could call utter failures but many of such people could be dragged out of their hole. They could be but aren`t because people not only aren`t willing to help them in any way, they are willing to hate them at best and abuse their weakness to the highest possible degree at worst.

If you hate them or anyone, you add up to the failure of the society, this idiocy of constant disagreements, conflicts, arguments, chaos, corruption and petty, self-developed dramas of the flock of blinded ego-personalities.

There infinetely better reasons to hate someone and even those reasons aren`t really justified and yet, individuals are willing to hate someone for being i.e a nerd, dressing this way or that, being from one country or the other etc.

The issue is that people don`t give a shit about emotional maturity and society as a whole doesn`t either. People care about being more knowledgeable, more respected, about achieving goals, about habing admirable accomplishments or ambitions, about getting attention, about money, about material possesions, about being happy and thousand other things.

They don`t care when they just judged someone. They don`t care about the fact that they were just hateful towards someone. They don`t care that they were just extremely mean to someone. They don`t care that they just did something possibly very harmful to other. In all this, they don`t understand how each and every one of them contributes to the social structure that is such a poor reflection of who we are and what we are capable of. They don`t understand how by all of this they are contributing to this sick organizm which adapts to the advantage of the very few and great disadvantage of the vast majority.

I don`t accuse you of any of the things mentioned above. I also think your point of view is very understandable.

I just disagree with the idea of hating someone, especially for such relatively surface-level perceptions or interpretations.

I hate my boss. I have seniority, and I am more qualified (by far) than any of the other employees, but I get treated like crap and I don't understand why. I have good hygiene, good communication skills. I'm polite, and I'm never late. I also rarely ever request time off.

Fuck tabacco, fuck you for latching on to me as a child, fuck you for plaguing my family before I was even born. Fuck all those greedy heartless tainted fucks who wanted to sell this product to innocent children to hook them for years to come. Fuck people for socially accepting monopoly over the most lethal self administered drug, all the smart and will powered human beings don't care about tabacco. Everyone knows that in this world you can only control your own actions. Then Why can't I stop buying tabacco? I've learned almost everything there is too know about smoking, tabacco. Yet the past year and a half have been days of "tomorow when I wake up, I won't smoke."

The only thing that I learned from being a smoker over the past 6 years, having unhealthy lungs suck. Try sprinting for you're bus 2 blocks and tell me how much you regret sucking that toby.
None of it was worth it, not a single cigarette. Not one conversation over a smoke, not one friend I had moments with cause it was "Smoke time". When you move on in life, you leave you're friends behind. But tabacco still lingers in your pocket. All those moments are meaningless, the only thing that matters is how you feel. Anyone educated on tabacco and how it affects the body can't possibly live in a clear conscious, not too mention nicotine badly torments a sensitive nervous system. Whiping it into overdrive with each cigarette, creating a gap of unhealthy terrible sleeping patterns. At one point every smoker will wake up feelings like total shit, have a smoke and feel normal.

How much did I give up for smoking? I would have to say, dwelling on regret is not my strength. But it does irritate me that I am 22 going on 23, and smoking has pissed me off subconsiously for a few years now. I'm physically weak. Don't get it twisted, I'm weak compared to my 17-19year old self who worked out and tackled fools padded with hardened plastic and tights on on artificial grass just cause this was mah hawse.

Smoking is for the ignorant and the weak. I'm probably a solid piece of both.
The sad thing is, this obstacle in my life is the one and biggest hurddle I need to overcome. Besides being stuck in ground hog smoker's day.
I was once filled to the top with self confidence and gratitude. After a few years of partial shame, social rejection and personal mind-fuck turmoil, all my mental strength faded into oblivion.

For a few years I played WoW hardcore. Just because I had no job, lost my relationship with the most wonderful human being I ever met. And years later I find myself grasping reality, realizing how much time I have wasted in this escapism. When I could of been advancing my life towards my ultimate life goals.

This shitty habit led to so much chaos and disgust from myself. The only things I do now is ignore the truth of my sadness, or rage and feel void.

I only hope to move on with my life and break free from this leeching demon that's been in my head.

And by the Way. Starcraft is streght legit awsome. (Protoss Player) I love hearing how Imba colossus and storm is. GUESS WHAT BOOM BABY STORMING COLOSUS ALL OVER YOUR ARMY!

Fuck the IdrA haters who come in the IdrA fanclub for the sole purpose of pissing on the fanclub. Why do they think that people care about their opinion in a damn fanclub. You don't see me going to a party hosted by someone I hate and taking a shit on his floor! Like holy shit, it isn't even a problem with the fanclub. A lot of fucking posters think their opinion has to get heard or they will fucking melt. Thread announcing a female-only tournament? HURR DURR I GUESS WE NEED TO DISCUSS THE MORALES OF FEMALE-ONLY TOURNAMENTS. Fuck no, if you want to do that, go make a thread! Oh here is the problem though...making a thread requires content. They can't make a thread because their stupid fucking opinion consists of I DONT THINK FEMALE ONLY TOURNAMENTS SHOULD EXISTS THAT IS ALL. Too much fucking effort, so instead of pissing in the toilet, they go piss on whatever thread they can because it is so fucking easy.

Also, posters who go to a 10+ page thread, read the OP, and comment on the OP. I used to be guilty of this, but I've stopped. Obviously the worst part is that their same comment was already said about 5 times before. People think they're so fucking special and their opinion is the best thing in the world. No one gives a fuck if you think a common thought when they have a discussion going on. Too much fucking fluff in a thread.

And in LR threads with IdrA fans and IdrA haters. Everytime IdrA plays a game, a damn civil war erupts in the thread. IdrA lose: IdrA haters are LOL IDRA FUCKING BAD. IdrA fans start a vehement defense. And people who call IdrA bad...holy shit, could they not be more wrong. IdrA is really one of the only players who actually made a presence in the scene since beta. Name me one players who remained a top caliber player from the start of beta till now? That is fucking consistency.

Fuck you 90% of the people who post on team liquid. I get it, you're 20 years old, brimming with ego and self righteousness. that doesnt mean you have to play devil's advocate to every fucking stance on the planet. Arguing the constitutionality of killing bin laden? Saying a woman deserves prison time because she used a fake address for her kid to go to school, even though she was HOMELESS? Fuck yourselves, all of you. Get a life, and argue about something that matters, instead of your ridiculous posturing to gain some imagined moral high ground over your peers.

Fuck my parents who decided they had the right to make me go through this 'life'. Fuck those who are thinking 'oh another depressed child' who doesn't understand how lucky he is. Fuck you, I do understand. I understand perfectly my situation in relationship to others, and how I'm lucky to have things like a roof and food and an education. I'm trying to make the best out of it, I really am. I have friends who share common interests as me so we have fun. I had a long-term relationship with a broken girl that i fixed over a period of 3 years and she left me because it just so happens it wasn't working out. I work hard in school and I'm going in the best university in my area in Astrophysics. I'll end up doing research in the field, somewhere around the world that'll be able to chose because of my education. I work full-time in the summer/part-time in the winter to pay for everything. I know I'm in a good spot compared to many so I'm trying to make the best out of it, like I said.

Yet, overall, is that making me happy? Nope. Was I ever happy as a child? Probably, until I was able to think. So far I've been living my entire life hoping that the next day will be better but it's not working out as planned yet. When I think of the future I picture myself doing research by day and whatever I want the rest of the time. I don't feel joy when I think of being at the center of a major scientific breakthrough, and I don't think it would make me ultimately happy to see the four corners of the world or do whatever it is people with free time do. I put passion into what I do yet I feel passionate about nothing at all. Having a family wouldn't make me happy because I don't find it rewarding to take care of others all the time. Accomplishments sure boost up my ego but in the end I don't care about any of them. Every time I accomplish something the individuals around me are happier than I am.

So what's the point? I don't fucking know. I wake up every morning asking myself that question and go to bed doing the same. No matter what I do, who fucking cares? Why does it fucking matter? The truth is nothing matters, but I won't just kill myself I wouldn't want to hurt the people around me. So I just go on with my daily life ignoring this simple truth in that hope that someday, someday, I might be happy.

I know I won't. Rather, I know that if I do, it'll mean I just got too old to think straight. Then I'll die, and I'll have had as much impact as I would of had I not been born.

Fuck life for ever occurring at all.

The company Electronic Arts. Fuck you all you god dam stupid money grubbing bastards. A few of the conversations that go on in EA's corporate offices: Hey there is a great idea! quick lets start making a competitor too it. No no we don't need any new or original ideas, we can just try to make something better than what other people are already doing.

Hey check it out, Blizzard is doing really well with World of Warcraft, fuck lets make an MMO! Wait that requires coming up with a good premise for the story? Fuck that we'll put it in an already established universe. How bout Star Wars, yeah people will buy that shit.

O.o Did you guys see how many copies of CoD is selling, we need to make a fuckin modern shooter with a heavy focus on multiplayer yesterday! How bout we call it something super generic like Battlefield and make it exactly like CoD except more "tactical".

Hey did you see how many people are using Steam, and what a great and amazing system it is? Quick lets launch a competing digital distribution online marketplace. We'll call it Origin and only let people download our games from there. Yeah screw streamlining, organization, and letting people just use a single, well established, amazing system that Valve created, lets make shit complicated and confusing as fuck.

Oh and bye the way is there any franchises we can make that require no effort at all, will sell a billion copies, and can be rehashed and resold every god dam year? Yeah how about fucking Madden NFL Football and FIFA Soccer, those will be easy as fuck to produce and we can sell a "new" one each year that is exactly the same as the previous one but still charge $60 for it.

Fuck EA and its stupid bullshit, with there incessant need to try to cash in on any good idea that any actual innovative company comes up with, flooding the market with competitors and clones to great games or systems that someone else has come up with, instead of actually trying to branch out and come up with a good idea of there own. Fuck you EA.

FUCK THAT FOXY SHAZAM COMMERCIAL. Oh my fucking god. I haven't seen it for a while but during MLG I wanted to CLAW MY FUCKING EYES OUT BECAUSE EVERY FIVE SECONDS I WOULD HEAR NO WE CAN'T BE DEFEATEDDDDDDDD!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP. The song was okay the first time I heard it now I just wanna slit my wrists every time I am fucking force to endure that awful shit.
/rant

Affirmative action is absolute bullshit. Being a middle class, Asian-American male is the worst demographic for college and graduate school admissions--and probably jobs--and if that's not bad enough, then you are generally the least sexually desirable demographic to boot. I work so hard to get good grades and test scores, and some fucking 'minority' gets in with significantly worse qualifications because of his race. Sure, it might "even out" the playing field for some, but the majority who take advantage of these programs do not need assistance, and come from at least middle-class backgrounds and already have the support they need to be successful. I mean it's just retarded how even being half black qualifies for affirmative action, but how Asian people need to score 140 points on average higher than their white counterparts to get into the same college. Life fucking sucks, and it's so easy to see why people kill themselves, because everything is insanely unfair, not just in institutional policies, but how physical attractiveness or intelligence is based on a genetic lottery, and how being born into a rich white family gets you connections and basically hands you everything on a silver platter. I think I might move to Korea, where at least I don't fucking have to have this race card and bamboo ceiling holding me back. I mean I got a 1600 on my SAT (original perfect score), and guess what if i was native american or some bullshit I would've gotten a full-ride to Harvard. But asian male--and not even female, where you can suck up or suck dick to get where you want--NOPE SEE YOU LATER WE DONT CARE ABOUT YOU

STOP WHINIG ABOUT ZERG, the game is balanced every race sucks as much as the others, learn to play yours or try to swtich to the "op" one and see how that works out for you dumb fucks.

Why are people so stupid? Why is it "cool" to get drunk and listen to that terrible pop music that sounds like shit unless your drunk? Why do people care so much about clothes and how people look? Why are there stupid social understandings that I just don't get? Why are all my friends turning out to be fucking self centered assholes? Why don't I get excited about anything anymore, not even christmass :C? Why am I so lazy? Why am I so broken, why can't I be like the others just having fun and not thinking about anything? Why do I think so much, yet why am I so stupid? How come people around me treat me like shit evendough I'm always nice to them? Why is being nice considered being weak, do I have to beat up one of my friends just to prove that I don't enjoy being treated badly for the sole reason of boosting my "friend's" ego?
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY AM I NEVER HUNGRY, WHY DOES EATING HAVE TO BE A TASK I NEVER LOOK FORWARD TOO??????????????????????!!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!
Why do I feel bad when I do someone wrong, no one else seems to feel bad about anyone else?
Man I wish I could just make a living out of starcraft, that would show everyone that I can do something, that I'm not just a burden.
Fuck this thread for making me think about this stuff!
FUCK REALITY, I wish that time would stop and I wouldn't have to face the deaths of loved ones and I wouldn't have to "grow up".
Fuck everyone around me who think they know what's better for me, fuck me for not knowing what's better for me!
FUCK

Fucking battlenet forums. Holey shit just thinking about those places make me want to a rub a midget against my leg . I think blizzard ships in fucking mentally handicapped people and gives them computers to post on those forums.

my favorite fucking jackass member died in a stupid drunk driving crash

R.I.P
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